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Mugzy, I was kinda in your situation a couple of times, or more, in my 20's (fucking turbulent time in anyone's life, full of fun, but full of fucking challenging shit too)....


I only got out of those situations by either:

..ending up being such a twat, and in such a mess that I forced myself to "reform" for a while...which is what you seem to be doing...it only ever happened when i got in a real bad way....and never worked properly until I moved onto.....

...the most succesful solution for me was always to make a clean break, whether that involved moving to Poland, hitchhiking home from Turkey, in later years movin to Turkey (where I knew I'd stryggle to get wizz ;) ), fleeing Turkey, just moving cities in UK.....going to Spain.ending up staying in Morocoo by accident for 6 months...I most often ended up drifting into the same company, and the same patterns that I'd been in in the UK, or my hometown, but once I started to see the patterns, asnd realise that eternally moving about wasn't necessarily the best solution, I started to sort things out about myself, for myself, and tried to strike a balance, and prove to myslef that i COULD DO SOMETHING and see it through if I needed to....

Sometimes a clean break, and just taking any fucking job you can makes you focus, then the drugs, and the drugdgery that your drug dependence has become, well, they all start to lose importance....

It helped that I did a TEFL qual very young, and had a fair bit of experience when it came to moving countries, but why not just make a clean break in UK? Or abroad? You're intelligent, you have qualifications I think (I got a couple of jobs abroad with fake documents, only photocopy degree certs etc), the only thing going against you is you look a twat fucked on meph in a jester's hat....

Turn up in a foreign country with your degree certs, a smiling face, and a can do attitude, you'll get a job, and loads of fanny, but hopefully not genital warts ;)

You really sound like you're in the situation, and you are the kind of person, that would benefit from a clean break, maybe a more drastic one than seems possible, but it might just have some results for you.

I made a lot of messes in me 20's despite all the moving about and fornication, but wouldn't change owt...anyone who doesn't struggle with life in their 20's is labouring under false illusions...you realise there's something needs doing, needs to get out of you...do it.

LOL, finished work early, wife and son at home, been down allotment sat in the sun drinking with some neighbours and their kids, hence the rambling on, but it makes sense, to me.

tl,dr :(

Thanks MM, I think I need a drastic change too, I'm going to put all my effort into getting my residency in the states back and get out there as soon as possible, like within the next few months, was talking to a few people last night and it seems like it could definitely be possible for me to get it back and be out there before october, I want to be there to help care for my mum and sister as they are both really ill and my sister is having to do all of the caring at the moment and isn't able to care for herself so they really need help and they want me over there too. Hopefully my dad will help me out with any costs. I'm going to start listing all of my possessions on ebay and get to the US Embassy in London asap with the forms I need to fill in and hopefully by the time I get back from the fringe I'll have the permission to fly to the states as a resident and live there.



In other news, I got the bus to the doctors today and then got some shopping at the local shop on the way back to the bus stop, somewhere along the line I lost my ticket so I had to walk over 5 miles home with 2 bags of shopping in the heat. Wasn't the best but I guess I got some exercise.
 
Haha, brilliant!

Honestly round here there must be 8-9 supermarkets in a "city" of 75,000. Yet there are 2 reliable drug dealers, who's idea of "good coke mate" is £120 an eighth instead of £90. It's outrageous. Only really the old hippies that sell acid and nice moroccan or the young cyber druggies that get any good shit, and both of them lot are unreliable as fuck lol.

In other news I'm getting sad looks like I'm getting pied tonight. Better not have to wait til the weekend to see her :(
 
Thanks MM, I think I need a drastic change too, I'm going to put all my effort into getting my residency in the states back and get out there as soon as possible, like within the next few months, was talking to a few people last night and it seems like it could definitely be possible for me to get it back and be out there before october, I want to be there to help care for my mum and sister as they are both really ill and my sister is having to do all of the caring at the moment and isn't able to care for herself so they really need help and they want me over there too. Hopefully my dad will help me out with any costs. I'm going to start listing all of my possessions on ebay and get to the US Embassy in London asap with the forms I need to fill in and hopefully by the time I get back from the fringe I'll have the permission to fly to the states as a resident and live there.

All I can say is, IRIE!!! <3

(Just don't be under any illusions that it'll necessarily solve all your problems permanently, but setting yourself chzallenges makes you look at things differently, and gives you confidence in yourself)

EDIT>>>if you're listing an amp, and or a set of speakers, on ebay give me first dibs ;)
 
Why would you do that? The likelyhood is you won't be going anywhere for a while and will regret selling all your stuff.
 
Mugz, I've revised my thoughts...moving to US is good idea, but moving to be with your mum and sis isn't...

you need a clean break, doing it ON YOUR OWN, prove to yourself you've got enough nous, it'll be the making of you, force you to focus. Do it before you get more embroiled in your downward spiralling.

(But raft as much random fanny off POF as you can before you go)
 
Dude, don't flog all your shit right now. I think you're at a low ebb and possibly making rash decisions. Wait a bit and see what happens with this visa business!
 
I have no use for most of my shit, I'm keeping my laptop but going to sell all DVDs and my PS3 and probably my TV too as I can stream TV to my computer if I want to, I don't have too much other shit, will probably keep a few of my favourite books and I'll keep my film posters at my dads house as I don't really want to sell those. I'll sell my two safes, I remember SammyG wetting himself over one of them when I posted a pic ages ago, maybe I'll do what spade did and put a list up on here first of things that I am selling and see if anyone wants to buy them. I really have no need for the majority of my possessions, it will be cleansing to get rid of so much of it.
 
Mugz, are you going to become a hobo? Mind n get a stick to carry your luggage with.

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Don't forget the Big Foot shoes lol.

Hahaha!

Mugz when are you climbing Machu Pinchu (sp?)?

You should probably figure out 1 plan & do it, instead of figuring out 25 plans & doing none.
 
sell the fucking lot and start over again, but i think you should wait till your holidays and trip to Scotland and Ireland are over then flog everything.

keep some drugs for the festival :D
 
Don't listen to 'em Mugz. Possessions are bollocks anyway. You have nothing to lose but your chains.


You called? :D

I agree, all through my 20's, I must have lived in half a dozen countries, and well over a dozen houses/houseshares...I always just left most my shit behind, there's no point holding your life for a few irrelevant, and easily replaced possessions, ffs you got mp3 players now, I carted about and left behind huge rasta-blastas and cassette collections all the time, it's easy to up sticks and move now, even easier than it used to be, and you're probably a bit brighter than I was when I was your age (this is aimed at Mugz, not SHM, who I know has always been a bit of a thicko)
 
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