ramblings from an emotional weekend...

[yoUr bLiSS]

umm..for anyone who cares..bliss had an extremely strange,twisted, and emotional weekend..these are the drunken-off-of-cheap-beer-to-hopefully-ease-some-pain-on-a-monday-night ramblings...
this cannot be love causing this dull ache
in my heart...
for i feel you cannot love someone until you truly know the person they are
and the person i saw this weekend...i could never love.....ever... i built dreams upon your soul..
spun tales of your beauty to all who would listen...
and truly believed you were this person my fickle mind conjured up...
i held you up so high..
towering above all...
glowing radiantley upon the pedastal of gold which i had created and placed you upon...
and from there you fell....
right before my eyes...
with such tragic grace
crashing down to earth
with such force your fragile pale body
broke into a million pieces..
pieces i never wanted to see..
pieces i never knew existed...
pieces which make my stomach churn..
pieces which bring tears to my eyes..
there is nothing worse then believing in something so strongly
and watching it reveal itself to be merely a shadow of the person they could truly be..
ignorance truly is bliss...
for i would give anything to have that childlike wonder and awe i used to feel in your presence back again...
the stars in my eyes
the beauty...
the pureness and honesty
but instead i'm left with this dull, sickening ache...
this tearing at my soul..
this wanting so much more then what you could ever be..
this self-loathing for still wanting you though i've seen your true colors.. for as sick as you are...
you still remain beautiful...
your pale blue eyes will never stop glowing for me...
no matter what you may do....

 

[lilygirl]

this is truly beautiful
in the middle i thought you were going to hate who the poem was about because they weren't who you were expected... i'm very glad it ended how it did.
I hope everything works out for the best
~lil

 

[xiola-muse]

beautiful....
keep on writing...
the person for you will see this talent and see your true colars...
which are paler then his skin
bluer then his eyes
taller then his ego
and dizzier then any spin he's ever given...
don't be afraid to cry either
its a wonderful release...
sometimes we build people up so tall
the only thing they can do is fall..
try not to let this person get to you...
try to let YOU get to you
and listen to what your saying...
because from what i read and what i see, you have so much to offer....love xiola

 

[hiroshi]

omg.........
I can relate so bad to this...as if your words were mine...
very good..
thanks