Pickledlemons
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So I'm not sure where to start. I was doing fent earlier in the week, fri/sat I think. I asked my gf over to help me flush what I had left so I could get back on my subs for my pickup on friday incase they drug tested me. So that happened... several ounces went down the toilet.
Then we got into a fight about something and she thought it would be a good idea to flush my xanax down the toilet. Except she didn't actually check what she was flushing and it was actually my suboxone.
I literally broke down in tears. I had ounces of fent and a week of suboxone and now I had nothing to get me through the whole week. I still had my xanax though so I took enough of that to knock me out for 3 days. Between that and the immodium and the kratom I was doing OKAY. So I go to the clinic today to refill my meds. I only get drug tested once every 6 months so I figured I would be okay. The fent would have long been out of my system and I would get my suboxone refill and next time I saw the doc I would explain what my gf did.
Well thats not what happened. They did drug test me. I gave them my urine sample and they said it was too cold. TOO FUCKING COLD. IT HAD JUST COME OUT OF MY FUCKING DICK. Even if I tried to use synthetic urine.... it wouldn't have worked because it needed to have bupe in it to pass. Anyway I gave them the big middle finger and left. I've already gone 5 days without it....so the worst is over... right?
I have 30ish xanax bars... 80ish grams of kratom, a full bottle of phenibut, 40ish Imodium and i just ordered another kilo of kratom. I figure that should be enough to ween myself off. The good news is i dont have a job right now so I can chill and watch movies for another week and then start getting some excercise.
Please dont tell me to go back to the clinic and get back on suboxone. Its not what I want. I'm tired of being a slave to drugs. I want to be clean.
Any advice would be appreciated. I really dont want to get addicted to xanax but its the only thing that calms my legs down and that is amazing. Thanks
Then we got into a fight about something and she thought it would be a good idea to flush my xanax down the toilet. Except she didn't actually check what she was flushing and it was actually my suboxone.
I literally broke down in tears. I had ounces of fent and a week of suboxone and now I had nothing to get me through the whole week. I still had my xanax though so I took enough of that to knock me out for 3 days. Between that and the immodium and the kratom I was doing OKAY. So I go to the clinic today to refill my meds. I only get drug tested once every 6 months so I figured I would be okay. The fent would have long been out of my system and I would get my suboxone refill and next time I saw the doc I would explain what my gf did.
Well thats not what happened. They did drug test me. I gave them my urine sample and they said it was too cold. TOO FUCKING COLD. IT HAD JUST COME OUT OF MY FUCKING DICK. Even if I tried to use synthetic urine.... it wouldn't have worked because it needed to have bupe in it to pass. Anyway I gave them the big middle finger and left. I've already gone 5 days without it....so the worst is over... right?
I have 30ish xanax bars... 80ish grams of kratom, a full bottle of phenibut, 40ish Imodium and i just ordered another kilo of kratom. I figure that should be enough to ween myself off. The good news is i dont have a job right now so I can chill and watch movies for another week and then start getting some excercise.
Please dont tell me to go back to the clinic and get back on suboxone. Its not what I want. I'm tired of being a slave to drugs. I want to be clean.
Any advice would be appreciated. I really dont want to get addicted to xanax but its the only thing that calms my legs down and that is amazing. Thanks