Quitting suboxone AND oxycodone

[trickd3288]

First time poster, long time reader. This website has given me so much good info on oxycodone and suboxone, but unfortunately I have yet to find someone who has my exact doseage and duration of use.

I've been using oxy on and off for about 3 years now. More on than off... That's for sure. I quit cold turkey once before and I felt awesome. I felt like a conquered the biggest challenge of my whole life. I felt invincible. Don't ask me why I got caught back up in all this but I did and now it's worse than ever.

About 1 year into my oxy habit I was introduced to snorting and that has been my method of use almost everyday for the last 2 years which is obviously very hard on my nasal passage and lungs. For the last year and a half I've been taking suboxone pretty regularly. I didn't know that sub is even harder to quit than oxy but now it's too late. long story short, I've been on sub daily for the last year and a half and I've been snorting Oxys on and off for the last year and a half. I take the sub every morning but by nighttime Start craving pills. For the last month and a half I have started my day with about 0.5 mgs of sub (very very small sliver of a 8mg strip) with intentions of quitting the oxy but every night I start craving pills and every night I give into the craving.

Here is where my situation differs from others. My suboxone intake is very low. I have gone on 20-30 day periods where I take no oxy, just sub. If I'm not doing any oxy, one 8mg strip will last me AT LEAST a week. A small sliver before bed and when I wake up. I have yet to find a thread on here with someone on that small of a dose. If I'm taking oxys at night, a strip will last me at least 2 weeks (one tiny sliver in the morning). My dose for oxy is 60-90mgs a day snorted (90 is a rare occurrence). My oxy use is usually in binges. I go for 20-30 days and then I switch to sub for as long as I can without giving in to cravings but as most of you know it only takes one time and you are back to a daily habit.

I am always reading about how hard it is to quit a long term sub habit. I've been on the sub daily for a year and a half but like I said the dose is 0.5-1mg per day. Has anyone had success quitting on similar dosage? The oxy is so hard on my body so I prefer the sub but my cravings get the best of me most of the time. Honestly I haven't knuckled down and actually tried to quit in quite some time but I'm ready now. Should I continue my small dose of sub until I'm ready to make the jump? I'm getting married in 3 weeks so I doubt I'll have time to quit both and feel better by the time my wedding and honeymoon are here. I'm a highly functioning addict. Even when I quit c/t the first time, I didn't miss a single day of work for the 30 days of withdrawals I had to endure. Honestly I'm terrified to jump from the sub. I haven't been without it in about 500 days straight but like I said I'm on a very small dose. Is this all in my head? Or is the duration of my use going to make this more difficult than before?

my fiancé knows I've struggled with pills in the past but she doesn't know I started back up again. I intend to give her an amazing life free of the dysfunction that addiction brings to a household. I know I'm capable of quitting. It's just been so long since Ive been in full withdrawal and last time I had only taken sub a few times so i was really just coming off oxy. Any support or guidance would be highly appreciated. I just want to give my wife the life she deserves and I'm stumping my potential with these drugs. Please help!!!!! I'm ready to live my life and free myself from this addiction. I know I can do it. I guess I just want to know if anyone else has had success in a similar situation and how they went about it.

Any help or advice?

 

[ChandonB]

My addiction is very similar to yours, man. I used opana on and off for a few years with a couple sober streaks in between. I took sub in between pan to stave WD. Same dose too, a 8mg strip lasted me a week or more usually. I just jumped from sub 9 days ago and feel decent. I was able to work through the whole WD process as well. If I can do it, you can too. The depression sucked the first week obviously but it was manageable. Try to get some sleep meds (I use Trazadone from my doc) and stay as positive and active as u can and you'll be ok too. Good luck, buddy. U got this.

 

[trickd3288]

Thanks for the encouragement. It's a relief to hear you say you feel defent after 9 days of no sub!! You are definitely clear of the drug in your system by now. I always thought my small dose would make it a little easier to quit but I've always been too scared to jump. There's nothing like that feeling of panic you get when you start feeling the symptoms creeping up and it sucks cuz it usually takes a few days to feel it full on. I'm hoping the small dose will help get it out quicker but I've also been using it almost every single day for a year and a half. Even when I'm doing pills. A tiny piece the morning after pills helps smooth things out a little so I rarely Went without it. But I've never gone overboard with the sub. I think the fastest I've EVER killed a strip was 5 days. Normally it's 7 days at least.

i know this is going to sound like your typical addict thing to say but I really feel like it'd be better to wait until after my honeymoon. I don't want to seem "off" at such an important time in my life. I can get by on very very small amounts of sub. I have 4 8mg strips which will be my last supply. I will not buy any more after this. My original plan was to start this week on 1 Strip for 7 days and then stretch the second strip to like 12 days. By the time the wedding rolls around I'll be a few days into my 3rd which will last me thru my week long honey moon. Hopefully by the time I get back I will be refreshed and ready to make the jump once the 3rd is gone.

I've made the jump before successfully (was clean for 6 months) and I know it took about a month to start feeling enthusiastic about things and I need to be enthusiastic for my wedding and honey moon. I don't want to show my kids my wedding pictures and have memories of feeling like shit. I feel like my best option is to just come clean with my girl and tell her I'm done using and in the process of cleaning up. My girl is amazing. She supports me no matter what and she never really asks for details. She just trusts me (which she should because the only thing I've EVER lied about is this and it tears me up. Never stole from her and I treat her like a queen) she is One of a kind Which is why I refuse to let her down and fuck this up. I WILL have a good life and a happy family. I made that vow as a kid and I'm not gonna let this shit get in my way. If there's one thing I've kept completely together thru this whole thing, it's our relationship. I invest everything into it. But as you all know you are never really performing at full potential while on opiates so I do what I need to do but I know I can do more and she deserves more. Sorry to get all sentimental but the wedding is kinda crucial to my taper schedule and she IS my support system. I know I need a real support system but I'm not kidding man, this girl is not normal. She is like snow white. Just super selfless and caring. I got extremely lucky.

Am I just kidding myself or do I actually have valid reasons for wanting to Delay the jump? Will it be harder to make the jump with this long of a taper? Or easier cuz by the time a month has gone by ill be on a microscopic dose? (Probably like .4 mgs a day or less, Which would be about 20 days on 1 strip). Does anyone honestly think I can clean up and feel 100% in less than a month? If so, tell me how to go about it cuz that'll be my first choice. I got a ton of wax and a mobile e cig so I can easily smoke weed throughout the day which helps a ton with WDs. I just don't think I have enough time to get to where I want to be and its my own fault but I can only look forward now.

 

[ChandonB]

Man, I reat think you'll feel ok quicker than most with your whole duration and frequency of usage. Like I said, very similar to my situation and I'm on day ten now feeling decent. As far as holding off til your wedding, that's not a terrible idea if you really think WD will mess up that special moment. Just don't jump back on pills tho! You got his tho, dude. If I'm on day 10 and feel this good, I imagine by day 30 I'll be a true 100% and I'd think u would too. Just try to taper down to the tiniest pieced u can. My last three days on sub, the slivers were so small I could feel mike WD during those tree days. I think that helped me seamlessly transition into the next week on mild WD. You got this tho, man. I'll keep posting on here until I'm 100 so u have a barometer for what ur timeline might be like. Good luck.

 

[ChandonB]

Sorry for typos, I'm on my iPhone.