So my goal is to quit speed. But I need a plan on how. This is regular speed, not meth.
I suffer from depression and have for my entire life. I have been on speed for 6 months now but I feel the positive effects from it are no longer worth the side effects that comes from it.
I tried to quit a little more than a month ago, it ended up with me waking up in the emergency psychiatric ward due to me trying to kill myself. This was not a cry for help, this was me actually wanting to end my life. I failed.
So, stopping cold turkey with some benso didn't do it. (I am also super scared of getting hooked on bensos)
When I have been off for a few days I get really depressed to the point where I do not want to feel better; I sabotage my relationships with people, I destroy everything that's good for me.
THIS is the biggest problem; I do not WANT to feel better when I'm at my worst coming off it...
What would be the best course of action?
PS: I can not afford professional help...
Thanks for any replies =)
I suffer from depression and have for my entire life. I have been on speed for 6 months now but I feel the positive effects from it are no longer worth the side effects that comes from it.
I tried to quit a little more than a month ago, it ended up with me waking up in the emergency psychiatric ward due to me trying to kill myself. This was not a cry for help, this was me actually wanting to end my life. I failed.
So, stopping cold turkey with some benso didn't do it. (I am also super scared of getting hooked on bensos)
When I have been off for a few days I get really depressed to the point where I do not want to feel better; I sabotage my relationships with people, I destroy everything that's good for me.
THIS is the biggest problem; I do not WANT to feel better when I'm at my worst coming off it...
What would be the best course of action?
PS: I can not afford professional help...
Thanks for any replies =)