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miscbrahh

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Been using opiates (oxy, hydrocodone) for about a year and a half. I went from once a week, to twice a week, and in the last few months, 3-4 times a week.

My tolerance went from 10/15 mg - 30 mg by the end of it, always combined with alcohol. I didn't like the feeing of opiates by itself, and it was cheaper to combine it with alcohol anyway.

At first, it was purely for the fun of it, but towards the end it was mostly just to escape from real life. I'm getting more depressed as the months go on, and it seems like using opiates along with that seems like I'd be digging myself a hole.

I'm not sure what else to write... hopefully I stay off them for good. I almost feel like I should quit drinking too.
 
Good luck, quitting opiates is a nightmare, but at least you're not too deep down the hole yet, so there's hope for you!

Psychologically, it'll be be really tough, but your physical withdrawals should be pretty mild, although everyone is different, but if you're only using 30mg of oxy/hydro a few times a week, you should be fine.

But the physical withdrawals aren't the hardest part, it's breaking the habit. Just do everything you can to stay positive, goal-orientated and keep away from any triggers. Also - I wouldn't try it until you're sure you're ready - otherwise it can do more damage psychological (IME) by failing to quit.
 
miscbrahh said:
I didn't like the feeing of opiates by itself,
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That is enough reason alone to quit,its one thing to be addicted and let drugs run your life cause you love them(like i love heroin) but its another thing to spend money,risk your health and get all the negative aspects of addiction when in fact you barely even like the drug itself(although lets be honest,if u didnt like it,you wouldnt do it).

Anyway,your habit is relatively small and youre not too far gone so try not to scare yourself with all the horror stories about opiate withdrawal you hear all around the internet.
Good luck
 
The good thing is you recognize it's becoming a problem plus mixing with alcohol. The fact that you were not using them every day should make it easier to quit. Agree with above posts in that physically it may not be so hard. But your challenge will be emotionally what you will do to fill that space. Do you drink on your opiate-free days as well?
 
Thanks for the replies guys

Good point about how it could be psychologically damaging if I don't 100% quit, I never really thought of it like that

I've never had any physical withdrawals and I find that if I don't drink, then I don't crave opiates... It's more of a fleeting thought, as long as I distract myself with some other activity.
I'll just have to be careful when I do get alcohol in my system.
I don't have any solid connects either which I guess helps.

And yes I do have 1 or 2 drinks every few days, but I've always been able to limit myself... I'm thinking of cutting down to once a week, even with the holidays coming up

Hopefully I can be an example to someone here on BL who isn't too far down the rabbit hole just yet
 
miscbrahh said:
Been using opiates (oxy, hydrocodone) for about a year and a half. I went from once a week, to twice a week, and in the last few months, 3-4 times a week.

My tolerance went from 10/15 mg - 30 mg by the end of it, always combined with alcohol. I didn't like the feeing of opiates by itself, and it was cheaper to combine it with alcohol anyway.

At first, it was purely for the fun of it, but towards the end it was mostly just to escape from real life. I'm getting more depressed as the months go on, and it seems like using opiates along with that seems like I'd be digging myself a hole.

I'm not sure what else to write... hopefully I stay off them for good. I almost feel like I should quit drinking too.
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As the other posters have said, you are at a very critical time right now...I was at the same point close to 12 years ago...when I could take 1 or 2 vicodens and feel great all day, the next thing I know, vicoden is working anymore and doctors move me to percocet, eventually on to methadone..NEVER EVER let a doctor start you on this (for pain mgt anyway).

I SOOOO wish I had stopped back when I taking vicodens, things would have been alot easier and all the money Ive spent over the course of 12+ years, I probably couldve bought a brand new Ferrari.

If you continue on the opiate path, eventually IT WILL lead to Heroin, once on that, nothing really stronger (opiate wise) to 'move up' to, its the end of the line...in many different ways.
 
Get out now while you still can. Opiate addiction is progressive. Eventually even high doses of strong opiates stop working properly and that soul crushing depression never really goes away whilst still using. The will to stop gets destroyed the further into addiction one progresses. Stopping at that stage of addiction can become impossible due to the bodyshocking mental and physical elements.

You have a real shot at turning this around and getting your brain, mind and body back to decent function. It can be done. The alternative is the soul crushing descent into advanced addiction and spiritual death. Good luck.
 
Well it's been almost a month free from opiates... not a very long time but at least it's progress. I've cut down a lot on the other drugs that I do as well + have started exercising more.

Thanks for the support from everyone who posted on here, it actually does help. The last bit about a "soul crushing descent into advanced addiction and spiritual death" really made me re-evaluate things.
 
If you feel that you can, stop drinking too. I'm proud of you. I really am. If you care about the soul and the higher consciousness sort of stuff, maybe visiting the church would be a good idea, especially nowadays.
I believe you can do it.
 
I wish I would've been as self aware as you are. I remember when I first started, and how 10-15 mg hydrocodone gave me so much energy, so much happiness. I've struggled with depression most of my life, and nothing ever made me feel as good as opiates. As my tolerance grew, they became the "solution" for every emotion (stressed, bored, sad, happy, irritated, etc). Fast forward 4 years and it took 600 mg oxycodone to make me feel better. I quit last week. Reading that most people were on heroin by the time they reached 600 mg oxy was a wake up call. I'm a wife, mother, daughter, manager at work. If I went down, I was going to take a lot of people with me. I'm determined to make 2015 the year I turn it around. But anyway, my point is that I am having to learn how to cope all over again. The littlest things can cause so much anxiety, because I'm not popping pills to control my feelings. But each day gets a little easier.

Take care of yourself. :) And don't become like me.
 
Getting close to 2 months off opiates! I feel like I have more energy in general, and don't get as moody / down on myself. 1-2 weeks after quitting I used to have days where I'd think about the future and it all seemed so bleak... I would literally sit at home, crying for hours

I've cut down further on drinking and drug use, and when I do drink, I don't crave opiates anymore.
Also might end up landing a new job that would require me to relocate, and I promised myself if I did get it, I would stay off the opiates for good... even though I'll miss them.

Pharmgirl I hope 2015 is going well for you!
 
Kicking 30mgs is as easy as kicking opiates is ever going to be. I'd quit now if there's anything about 30mgs crash you can't handle. Don't try quitting everything at once, now! Good luck and take care!
 
Good on you! My roomie is currently trying to quit too but he was doing a shitload more than you were. Relocating might not be a bad idea either, Vancity is bad for drugs, but I guess so is any big city, but relocating can be a fresh start, get away from your contacts and stuff!
 
It's been close to 2.5 months now, opiate free. I don't get the cravings any more, and my mood in general has improved. I've also stopped taking benzos / mdma / k / and cut down further on drinking.

The only thing I have left are some tabs of LSD, I think I'll maybe hold onto these for a while. I get no urge to do psychs, ever. Was kind of surprised to see that I even still had these.

I've also landed the job, so I'll be relocating, and looking to develop new / more constructive hobbies.

I think I'll be all right from now on. Thank you to everyone who has given me encouragement and support on this forum, it really means a lot.
 
miscbrahh said:
Well it's been almost a month free from opiates... not a very long time but at least it's progress. I've cut down a lot on the other drugs that I do as well + have started exercising more.

Thanks for the support from everyone who posted on here, it actually does help. The last bit about a "soul crushing descent into advanced addiction and spiritual death" really made me re-evaluate things.
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I'm delighted to hear this. Well done! Doing this was the difference between the rest of your life being utterly miserable or actually having a shot at turning things around. The world is your oyster my friend. Freedom from active addiction is fantastic - and it gets better and better as your body and mind begin to recover more and more with time. I'm delighted for you.
 
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