I tried meth a few times and THANK GOD, never hardly felt anything but like I drank too much coffee. To this day I still cant figure out why that was cause I know the stuff was the real deal since other experienced users loved it. Now for me at least, H was a whole different ballgame. The first time I tried that I was a gonner.Whatever the preference,once addicted theres one thing Ive found is that ALL drugs steal the joy and pleasure from the small stuff that makes life worth living. Whenever I start using again its always the same, slowly but surely all those important little details just slowly start falling by the wayside. The drug is then what fills every waking moment and crouds out all the rest.
Like the above posters said, what I do is to begin with filling my day with the things that might seem like the small stuff( but are really not) like taking a walk, visiting family, organizing my house and eating well. Every day I try to add just even one small change for the better and before you know it you will start to build momentum and it begins building some REAL self-esteem. I just recently had a recent relapse with opiates, started smoking again and even quit eating right.
Right now I feel overwhelmed by how far Ive fallen because I was doing so good but like I said every day Im gonna try to change at least one thing for the better. Thats how I got out of it the last time and every time I have a relapse. For instance, I just gave up the cigs today and started chewing the nicorette gum.Tomorrow Im going to start back on a small walk(might even do that today). Man I had gotten to the point that I was drug free, smoke free, exercised daily and was even drinking a gallon of water a day without fail.
What I fell to is what I fall to EVERY STINKING TIME— the dope mentality visits me when I least expect it or just when I think Ive got it licked and tells me that I was better with it or can somehow handle it... but rationally I know that couldnt be farther from the truth.Just when the mind chatter starts think it ALL the way through, cause its so easy to fall back in but getting out takes dilligence, patience and time.Trust me though, from where I was at to where I am now theres no comparison, life is better WITHOUT the dope. Once we get some time under our belt and start building the self- esteem back slowly, one block at a time, every day gets better and better so stay strong! ( as for me, Im off to take that walk now)
