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Quitting meth

Well, I'm still doing the shit, on and off. It takes me about 3 months to go through a gram and after those 3 months or so I take a long, 1-2 month, break (due to my location). So not a huge habit. It's for that reason that it's so easy to justify to myself. Why shouldn't I party on the weekends? That's the main question.

It's during the comedowns that I seriously question my little hobby. I'm coming down right now in fact, that's why I'm posting this. I don't get terrible suicidal crashes like I used to, I don't even feel that sad, just flat. It's something I've trained my mind against. I'm hard-pressed to find a REASON to quit. It's not the crashes (they hardly affect me). It's not the financial cost. It's not my health (which is tip-top to my knowledge). Yet I sit here thinking to myself 'I can't go on like this'. Why? Is this the crash talking? I say the same thing when I've had too much to drink. Or maybe the social stigma and negative media surrounding meth use has affected me on a subconscious level?

Bottom line: how does one know when to quit?
 
I totally get the feeling like a perv after a marathon meth/porn binge.

I had a similar habit that I hid from my girlfriend. I ended up losing her (not from the drugs per se, but it didn't help). If I could go back and quit while I was ahead I would.

Trust your gut. It seems like the negatives are starting to outway the positives. Maybe taper down a bit, see how you feel?
 
I can't stress N.A meetings enough! They really help. I've gone in their spun out on a good one, and they don't care. All they care about is that you've found meetings. If your high at least your in a meeting. Then, you'll start getting more clean time. Then it'll be a year before you know it.
 
pirate24 said:
@tripnotyzm: Actually my girlfriend doesn't know I still do it. That's the thing :/. The reason I don't tell her is because her dad used to be a meth addict and he put her family through hell because of it. I have a feeling she'll overreact.
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If she experienced living through hell because of her Dad's addiction then maybe it would not be over-reacting. Maybe she has a perspective that would be useful for you to look at. Actually, from your original post it seems to me that you know where this is heading and you are aware of the dependence>addiction trajectory. Add to that the secret-keeping from those you love, the terrible comedowns that you have no control over and simply the knowledge you have that while this may be manageable for you now, you risk losing that control at any time with a physically and psychologically addicting drug and you have your reasons to quit now all lined up. I would listen to that voice inside and heed it.<3
 
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Man i used to be the same as you on meth.
I was always questioning my addiction when i was coming down over a 5 or 6 day period, eventually i would stop questioning and start focusing on using again.
I never really understood why i wanted to stop deep deep down. After a while, after 2 breakups with girls i loved, i started to understand that meth is something that always leads to fucked up consequences.
Follow your scattered instincts!
 
^indeed.

Quit now, immediately and permanently. Save yourself a lot of bother. You have already experienced meth and it's issues, the good and the bad. Nothing left to see here.

Move on before its a gram a month, and so on.
 
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