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Quitting meth

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pirate24

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I have a meth habit that I'd like to quit. It's not an addiction just yet. I can go weeks without the stuff if need be (like if I'm returning home). It doesn't affect my health because I take very good care of myself. I only do a point every week or so. I have zero desire to do more during the week, so I'm not worried about it escalating. Every week while I'm crashing I resolve to quit but, come next week, I tell myself it was just because of the crash that I resolved that - like how people tell themselves they won't drink again when they've had too much to drink. So that got me thinking: why do I want to quit? I haven't fully recovered from my crash, so make of that what you will.

1. My girlfriend. I know if the tables were turned I wouldn't feel so good about her doing meth every week.

2. I jack it to porn for fucking HOURS on the stuff. At the end it feels like a part of my soul has just died. I don't want to feel like that anymore.

I'm writing this down so I have something to refer to next time I get the urge to do it again.

I've always been a bit of a hedonist, always living for the moment. I just wonder if meth is worth it. Is this the crash talking? How do I know if it's really a problem for me?
 
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pirate24 said:
Mainly because I feel like an absolute perv at the end of it. I mean, masturbation is normal, just not for that period of time. You know what I mean?
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I don't think you should necessarily feel that way. Prolonging a sexual experience can make it more enjoyable.

Do you feel the best after masturbation if you orgasm as soon as you possibly can? Normally, sexual pleasure is not derived in a hurried or rushed state.

Are you saying that you would never masturbate for that long without the drug?

You might also be perceiving this feeling as a result of a combination of being on methamphetamine and the progesterone that is released after you have an orgasm. Normally, when people first begin sexual experimenting, it isn't uncommon for some people to feel adverse feelings/emotions as a result of having the sexual experience. It is connected to how progesterone is released after orgasm. Normally, if this happens to one, it normally fades away after the person becomes more familiar and practiced with sexual experiences.

So if you have had enough of these marathon masturbation sessions on methamphetamine, it is safe to say you would, in theory, eventually lose the sensation of being "an absolute perv".

Are you saying that this feeling is still happening to you? Is it getting worse in time, or is it about the same each time?
 
Don't hate yourself for that, you're not a perv, your body is there for you to enjoy, nothing to be ashamed of.
But yeah if u wanna quit the meth its probably a good idea, Im on meth.
 
Good for you wanting to stop. I know I'm addicted to meth but not dependent on it. I can go weeks without it as well. But if its around I'll never say no. Best to stop now before it gets worse right? I know there are quite a few subtle but noticeable changes after I smoke tweak, but if I IV it..holy shit..I'm a completely different person and I don't even realize.
 
I will quit with u I think, I wasn't happy before trying to manage life, but I'm not any happier now rebelling and just getting fucked up and doing whatever the fuck i feel like all the time. Not happier at all.
I hope I'm not addicted now, I've been pretty fucking naughty, guess can only wait and see
 
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Dude, don't feel that way about masturbating, even if your going at it for hours. It's your penis, feel free to enjoy it as you see fit. It's only pervy if you involve others. What your doing at the moment is perfectly natural. People have sex for hours, so why not have a long wank.

Peace
 
Does your girlfriend know how often you are using??
This could make it a lot harder for you to deal with issues down the line if you decide not to stop now.
I wouldn't think too hard about the dark side of jerking off either. As already mentioned its your body and you have every right to do it for as long as you want :) I know what you mean about feeling bad afterwards, but it's just the meth making you think like that.
You are currently ahead in the man vs meth battle, I would advise on going with your instinct to stop :)
 
I am a meth user and I do the same shit man. It's normal. Well being on Meth isn't normal, but what your doing isn't so bad. You shouldn't get any further into the Meth though if you can actually stop fucking with it. It's addictive and like any drug it will lose it's magic.
 
Pirate.. well done for seeking advice. Firstly I would like to put your mind at rest. Believe me when I say this.. I'm by no means proud of this.. but I have been using on and off.. mostly on for 20 years, albeit when my daughter was born, I quit for over 5yrs.. So I would like to think I know a bit of the pharmacology and psychology of this drug we use.. (the pharmacology thanks to my extended family here @bluelight btw)

Ok, so the 1st thing I can re assure you about is this masturbation thing.. In these circles it IS considered what people do. Look at some of the threads man.. sex on meth wanking for hours etc! The drug itself gives off a eurphroic (s.c) feeling.. thats all the chemicals hightening senses hitting your brain like a steam train. Over this weekend (Im single now so i guess its easier) I had ahalf gram bag of shards and 10 porn dvds!! Just saying man its normal.. (or half accepted at the very least lol)

I fully get if the shoe was on the other foot and your missus was using.. U would be dark.. that too is natural. I like how you respect your missus enough to warrant that.

Unfortunatley, what goes up.. I suggest your over thinking your comedown eg including it with thoughts of guilt, perversion etc.. IMO, the comedown is just that a result in where your body tells you to get fucked for putting it through hell for fuck knows how many hours/days..

It has been said that people on the gear live for the moment, and think of the consequences when their mind has cleared. So unless you raped a dog, robbed a bank, or dressed up like willy wonka, dont confuse your body any further, by bringing in a scattered mind to the comedown process.. thus far you have done nothing to be ashamed of, or out of the norm..

But if you want to really quit before you end up like me.. I tip my hat to you and anybody else who wants to ditch this insidious drug.

I hope I have made some sense pirate.. I felt I've been rambling a shitload.. but I hope you see through my comedown as well and know your a decent dude. Good luck in whatever u decide to do.. (now should i proof read this verbal vomit or what? lol)
 
How you feeling?
I was hungry today so had to eat, but I made it all healthy spinach, onions, cabbage, chickpeas with lil soy sauce, and then I cooked some pumpkin.
And I had aloe soothe fibre and prebiotic powder, went poop for the first time in like a week haha, bad chemicals out good chemicals in.
I feel really good today, I was worried I'ld feel like shit or something.
 
Why is that classic? you're making fun of me.. :|
I meant to sell off the rest of my stuff... but then ended up giving most of it away and taking a little bit, I don't know why, I wasn't craving or anything, just bored I think. Does this mean I'm addicted? Should I be concerned?
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I don't think you should necessarily feel that way. Prolonging a sexual experience can make it more enjoyable.

Do you feel the best after masturbation if you orgasm as soon as you possibly can? Normally, sexual pleasure is not derived in a hurried or rushed state.

Are you saying that you would never masturbate for that long without the drug?

You might also be perceiving this feeling as a result of a combination of being on methamphetamine and the progesterone that is released after you have an orgasm. Normally, when people first begin sexual experimenting, it isn't uncommon for some people to feel adverse feelings/emotions as a result of having the sexual experience. It is connected to how progesterone is released after orgasm. Normally, if this happens to one, it normally fades away after the person becomes more familiar and practiced with sexual experiences.

So if you have had enough of these marathon masturbation sessions on methamphetamine, it is safe to say you would, in theory, eventually lose the sensation of being "an absolute perv".

Are you saying that this feeling is still happening to you? Is it getting worse in time, or is it about the same each time?
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Actually, I think that was just the crash talking. You're right of course. I don't feel like such a perv anymore haha.
 
@tripnotyzm: Actually my girlfriend doesn't know I still do it. That's the thing :/. The reason I don't tell her is because her dad used to be a meth addict and he put her family through hell because of it. I have a feeling she'll overreact.

@garrygofast: Thanks man! Yeah, I know what you mean. I managed to pull my mind out of that funk well enough.

@Libby: feeling pretty good today, back to my normal self. I make sure I exercise regularly and have plenty of healthy food to eat. My hat's off to you for giving most of your shit away. I don't think I could do that.

Thanks for the words everyone! And sorry for the triple post. I don't know how to multi-quote.
 
I was fail lol.
But I have completely absolutely RUN OUT now, plus I have no money left, so plan to stay home from work for this week so I wont get any more money, so will have to not have.
I feel shit.
And I cannot take much more of this fucking cold. I HATE WINTER
 
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