monsta_trippa
Bluelighter
Not quitting but big time cutting down..
For the last approx 6 months i've been doing prob an average of 2-4 pills a week. It stuffed up a lot of things in my life, turned me to doing a lot of speed (to combat the come downs) and cost me a lot of money.
Plus i lost sight of the big picture. I wasn't taking pills to have a good time, more just because it was the weekend and what else is there to do? No longer was just taking one or two pills enough, so i started double dropping and doing up to 4 a night to try and get the same buzz.
I guess it really hit home when i was pilling just to try and make myself feel better, like a pill would fix all the problems in my life. Big mistake. Only made things worse and made me feel worse.
I found myself introverted and would only go out and socialise while on drugs. I only realised that my use was probably too heavy when i started reading these forums. Where i found out that it actually takes two weeks to get back the lost seretonin. Some people were talking about once a month use as too heavy!
So i guess i just want to show that these forums really are used and are really useful. I've now cut back to maybe once every few weeks and am setting about getting my life back together and paying off the thousands of dollars of debt.
My only advice is to take some time away now and then, and look at what you're really doin. And keep checkin out the these forums cos they're damn useful....
For the last approx 6 months i've been doing prob an average of 2-4 pills a week. It stuffed up a lot of things in my life, turned me to doing a lot of speed (to combat the come downs) and cost me a lot of money.
Plus i lost sight of the big picture. I wasn't taking pills to have a good time, more just because it was the weekend and what else is there to do? No longer was just taking one or two pills enough, so i started double dropping and doing up to 4 a night to try and get the same buzz.
I guess it really hit home when i was pilling just to try and make myself feel better, like a pill would fix all the problems in my life. Big mistake. Only made things worse and made me feel worse.
I found myself introverted and would only go out and socialise while on drugs. I only realised that my use was probably too heavy when i started reading these forums. Where i found out that it actually takes two weeks to get back the lost seretonin. Some people were talking about once a month use as too heavy!
So i guess i just want to show that these forums really are used and are really useful. I've now cut back to maybe once every few weeks and am setting about getting my life back together and paying off the thousands of dollars of debt.
My only advice is to take some time away now and then, and look at what you're really doin. And keep checkin out the these forums cos they're damn useful....