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Quitting before hitting bottom

TooOldForThis

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Here is my question: How do you find the motivation to quit a behavior that you know is "wrong", but you have not suffered any significant negative impact?

I have been on a low dose of Percocet for 5 years, due to back and knee pain. I have had 3 surgeries over those 5 years. I need the pills for pain, but also take them recreationally. I want to stop doing that, because I know how addictive they are, and I don't like running out before I can get my refill. But those reasons alone do not seem to motivate me enough to change my behavior. The "positives" of using the pills seem to outweigh the negatives. I get a lot of relief from my anxiety when I take them.

Anyone out there who has managed to stop using before hitting bottom?
 
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I stopped using to see if I could. I did and there was no negative impact on my life. I now will try to go days at least 2 days without using as not to get dependant on it.

Also going through the wd's are necessary to keep you on your toes if your going to use every couple of days.
 
Sure, no need to hit bottom to stop! Just keep trying, but opiates sure do sink their addictive teeth into their users. Maybe a bit harder if you keep rationalizing and wanting to avoid a wd :-)
 
If you need to take something for pain, why don't you switch to something that's harder to abuse and that's less euphoric like the Butrans patch?
 
Not everyone has to hit rock bottom to realize they need to stop. As Anthro suggested, try talking to your doctor about non-addictive alternatives. Testing yourself to see how many days you can go without is a good way to start getting used to only taking them when absolutely necessary.
 
Well, I decided to see how long I could go without using. I made it 3 hours :(. It is too hard when they are right there in my drawer. May need to give them to hubby to hold for me for a few days. And definitely need to talk to my doc about switching meds. I just need to do it in a way that doesn't get me labeled an addict.
 
I just need to do it in a way that doesn't get me labeled an addict.

Just tell them that you are worried about the possibility of addiction because you have a genuine need and don't want to compromise your well being. I can't see any doctor labeling you as an addict for asking for something less addictive. Just keep in mind that there is a small chance of issues with finding one that fits your needs.

Having your hubby dispense your medication is a good idea and will make it harder for you to use them for recreational purposes.
 
This is how I would bring it up to my doc. I would tell them that you read about the >Buprenorphine< patch online on a support forum for chronic pain sufferers. You like the sound of it because it supposedly causes less of a foggy head feeling (I would be careful of saying euphoria). You also read that its a schedule 3 med so its less likely to cause addiction than what your on now (Percocet is a schedule2). Also, you think you need around the clock pain relief because you are waking up at night in pain. The pills aren't holding you for long. That should do it!

Really, most docs will be happy to move you from a schedule 2 med that's highly abusable to a schedule 3 med that isn't. You shouldn't have any problems. You will just have figure out the right patch dose with your doctor. The first dose may not be strong enough so he may need to raise it in a week. Keep in mind though, that you should give the patch at least 3 days to really work. Also, don't take your percocets for about 24 hours before putting on the patch if you can. Ask your doctor but I think you can have slight WDs if you don't.

You should be aware that you may still need breakthrough meds sometimes. The best thing for you would be to have your hard to abuse long acting med in a dose that covers your pain as much as possible so you won't have to use very many short acting meds. A lot of people can get by on tramadol because the patch works so well for some people. However, some cant and need to take opiates for BT pain. If you do need a narcotic for BT pain then I recommend picking one that is not Percocet. Something that works for your pain but that you don't really like. If you don't snort or shoot then opana is a good choice. A lot of people don't like oral morphine. Nucynta is one that causes little euphoria. These are just suggestions for you to talk about with your doctor. If you have to take an instant release med for BT that you do like the feeling of a little too much, then there are safes you can buy that are set on timers to where you cannot open them until it is time for your next dose. Or you could have someone hold them for you.

If the >snip< patch doesn't work for you (everyone is different so it may not) then don't worry. There are other long acting meds that are hard to abuse. >like combos of morphine sulfate and naltrexone hydrochloride< Anyway, there are options out there sweetie. I know it's tough. Good luck! If you have any questions you can PM me.
 
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I also wanted to add something. I was addicted to opiates for years. My addiction was very serious. I even went on methadone maintenance. I eventually got my life straightened out and I weaned off of the methadone.

Life then threw me a curve ball and I am now a chronic pain patient. Hopefully my condition can be corrected through surgery later this year. Until then though, I have to take opiates to function. In one way I am lucky because I developed epilepsy last year and ever since then I get horrible migraines. Sometimes when I take opiates it brings the migraines on or makes them worse. This deters me from abusing them. Also, I have too much going for me in my life to go down that road again. I take my medication as little as possible and I don't abuse it.

As a CPP you have to put analgesia (pain control) above getting high. If you don't then your tolerance will skyrocket. With the DEA cracking down like they are, there is no way that you will be able to keep finding a doctor willing to write enough for you to keep out of pain, get high, abuse them and not end up running short and going into WDs. If you're going to have to be on opiates long term then you need to keep your tolerance as low as possible. There are medicines that can help (ultra low dose naloxone, NMDA receptor antagonists, Zofran) but you still need to watch your intake and you can't do that if you abuse them. If you want pain relief long term then you have to sacrifice the high.

I want to let you know though, that addicts deserve pain management too. I know some doctors think otherwise but we are human beings and we suffer the same as anybody else. With closer monitoring and the right combination of medications addicts have been treated successfully in pain management without relapsing. I am one example and I have seen others. I can give you some advice on all of this if you'd like. Like I said, feel free to PM me. I know pain sucks sweetie. I also know what its like to deal with an addiction.
 
2old4this.. whats the dose you are on for the perks and how many a day are you prescribed?

The active ingredient in these patches is Buprenorphine, the same thing as subutex add a little narcan and you have suboxone.. I dont think i would ever consider trading, what may in reality be relatively, a small oxy dose.. for a twenty four hour administration of Buprenorphine Here is someone talking about paying thousands and thousands happily to finally get off buprenorphine, its long half life make the acute withdrawal really long.. so unpleasant .

Table 1: Initial patch Dose

Current Opioid Analgesic Current Daily Dose
Oral Morphine Equivalent < 30 mg --- 30-80 mg

Recommended Bupe Starting Dose 5 mcg/hour ---10 mcg/hour

from here



From bL oral opiat conversion chart



ORAL

Morphine 30 mg PO = Oxycodone 20 mg = Tramadol 150 mg (Tramadol is not a typical opioid, many even find it more stimulatory in effect and thus it will have varying effects from person to person), I am not personally a big fan in any way shape or form of tramadol, provided me with no pain relief and unpleasant side effects to say the least, but as is stated above, it does work amazing for some and its results vary..



There is strong and compelling evidence that prolonged opiat pain therapy actually ends up increasing a patients pain in the end.. they have measured peoples reactions to a known and measured dose of pain.. people who were on and had been on opiate therapy experienced the pain that was administered much more severely than the people who were on no pain medication at all. long term opiat therapy causes a hypersensitivity to pain. I would look to pain medications that are not opait.. I would be surprised at this point if you would not receive much better pain control from the tylenol in your perks than from the oxy.. Please consider the fact.. that you will most likely get a whole lot more relief from NSAI's than you will get from your opiates.. please explore an addition or another try at a NSAI.. you can easily ask for this on top of your perks and explore what benefit you will receive..

NSAIDs vs. Opiates for Pain in Acute Renal Colic
Clinical Question
Are nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) or opiates more effective for pain relief in patients with acute renal colic?

Evidence-Based Answer
Data from randomized controlled trials comparing NSAIDs with opiates show that NSAIDs are associated with lower pain scores, less need for additional rescue medication, and less vomiting (particularly when compared with meperidine).

Practice Pointers
Acute renal colic is one of the most painful conditions and often is associated with nausea and vomiting. Holdgate and Pollock identified studies that compared NSAIDs with opiates in adults with acute renal colic (fewer than 12 hours duration) and moderate to severe pain. They found 20 studies that included a total of 1,613 patients and compared a total of five NSAIDs and five opiates (each study compared one opiate with one NSAID).

Study quality was mediocre; although most studies blinded either patients or outcome assessors during the study period, only five studies clearly concealed allocation at the start of the study, and only three definitely used intention-to-treat analysis. Data from the trials could not be combined statistically because of differences in methodology and wide variability in results.

Pain scores were reported in 13 studies. Ten studies found that patients who took NSAIDs had lower pain scores; two studies found no difference, and one study reported lower pain scores in patients who took opiates.
from here
 
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Thank you so much everyone for the information and support! I am on a tiny dose of percocets. I get 30 a month, and usually take only 2 a day. It could well be that I could do ok without the pain meds, but I am clearly having addiction problems, in terms of the mental aspects of addiction. I know it sounds nuts to say I have a problem when I take such a minuscule amount, but I spend huge amounts of mental energy telling myself I shouldn't take them (when I am not in pain), then giving in, then feeling guilty. Constantly wanting more. Constantly worried that a family member is going to find out that I take them. (My hubby knows). Constantly thinking about how I should be doing more to manage the pain without pills (stretching, icing, etc). Constantly thinking I will stop tomorrow.

I have been through withdrawals in the past when I had access to more pills and took more per day, and daily for longer periods. The physical withdrawal symptoms do not scare me. I tapered off of clonazepam last summer, and that was much much worse than oxy withdrawals (for me).

Not sure what I am getting at here, other than the fact that I am really realizing that I have a problem. I know that is the first step, but getting to the point of taking significant action is a whole different thing. The fact is that I have had years of therapy, and been on many different antidepressants and meds for anxiety, and been miserable most of my life. The relief I get from the pain pills may only last an hour, but it feels so worth it.

One more thing... I can't regularly take NSAIDs because they cause me stomach issues.

I am going to another SMART recovery meeting on Monday, and maybe that will help.

You all are so wonderful. Thanks for listening.
 
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eh. i left a drug scene before it could consume me i dunno i guess that counts.
maybe my rock bottom was ODing on the park bathroom floor to some guy pulling a stripper off me who screaming i had "faked it" and punching me on the sidewalk in the rain.

then i went back to the hotel i was staying and shot myself in the muscle and would have died of 2 abcesses i was trying to ignore if i hadn't come back but EVERY DAY i just feel SICK i came back here.

i've chipped on dope since then but not in months and atm i don't want to go back so whatever.
 
Long term use of NSAIDs has its own issues. I do find they can work okay for my type of pain sometimes but in no way do they allow me to function without opiates. They only allow me to take less opiates that I would if I wasn't taking the NSAIDs. NSAIDs are actually not reccomended for long term use because of the possible damage to a patient's kidneys and GI tract.They also increase the risk of myocardial infarction and stroke. Here is a link about NSAIDs and their risks:
http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-steroidal_anti-inflammatory_drug
In that link it even states that NSAIDs should be used for short term. My GP and my pain management doc both consider NSAIDs to be more damaging to the body than opiates.

I think opiates do less damage to your body. Do you develop tolerance with opiates and need to increase your dose? Yes but this can be mitigated by taking your opiates with an NMDA receptor antagonist, ultra low dose naloxone or possibly zofran (according to recent studies). Also with a drug like methadone or buprenorphine , your tolerance would grow much more slowly. On methadone some patients can stay on the same dose for years for pain management.

As far as opioid hyperalgesia, yes, it can happen. However, there are conflicting studies on this. If it does happen to a patient it is treatable (and it doesn't seem to be that common). The patient can be given an IV ketamine infusion (yes, they actually do this!), the patient can be switched to methadone for pain control, the patient can detox from their meds and take a break, etc. Opiates are the gold standard in pain control and relief for a reason. They work! They work a hell of a lot better than an NSAID for moderate to severe pain and they won't damage your body as bad as long term NSAID use will. I know someone at my doctor's office whoose kidneys are completely screwed up from taking NSAIDs for years. I'll be sure and tell her how safe they are. I'm sure she'll believe me when I tell her that they'll work better for her cancer pain than the morphine she's on too. "Here just take an Advil!"


Anyway, this has gotten off topic. Back to the OP. If you don't think your pain is that bad then don't switch to something else. Just get off of the opiates and take something non narcotic for the pain (maybe try physical therapy too). Only you can judge your own pain and in your last post you basically said that you probably dont need narcotics. If you think you don't need opiates for pain then you need to get help to stop using. Have you thought about going to NA, AA or a SMART meeting? It sounds like you need to focus on your recovery hon. You have a lot of options. You could go into a rehab or just do it at home (I wouldn't reccomend suboxone or methadone, your habit isn't that big). You could tell your doctor that you want off your medication and you could try a taper. Your wife can hold on to your meds and give them to you when they are due.

Or you could just jump off since your habit isn't large. It's really up to you and your doctor. There are a lot of comfort meds that can help with the WDs. I don't think I'm allowed to list them here but if you PM me I can make suggestions for you to discuss with your doctor. You will need to talk to your doctor about them because most of them are prescription medicines. I can even tell you what helped me with my PAWs . But you have a great opportunity here. You realize that you have a problem. You have recognized this before you got arrested, overdosed, lost your family, etc. Please don't waste it.

With your pain issue, on the days that I don't take opiates I use a TENs unit, ice, voltaren gel (its an NSAID gel that's safer than oral NSAIDs), lidocaine patches, muscle relaxers, meditation and physical therapy exercises. I also see a chiropracter and a masseuse. My pain management doctor gives me trigger point injections and epidurals which help my pain even better than the opiates but they are only allowed to do these a handful of times a year. I don't know if any of these will help you. Obviously you need to discuss any possible treatments with your doctor but these are some nonnarcotic therapies I found helpful. Oh! It turns out that a lot of chronic pain patients have low vitamin D levels which can increase muscularskeletal pain. So I got my levels tested and I was really low. I've started taking a prescription vitamin D supplement also. I have noticed some improvement.

I'm sure I'm forgetting something but that's all I can think of right now. Good luck in your recovery! Any questions, just ask hon.
 
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Oh, and I just wanted to respond to the poster who mentioned that they wouldn't switch from oxycodone to the buprenorphine patch because "some" people find it harder to wean off of. Well, when my doctor was talking to me about long acting meds and the patch was mentioned, my doctor told me that he usually switches patients back to a shorter acting med if they want to wean off the bupe patch. So anyone who is thinking of the patch for pain control, don't let that other poster scare you. Discuss it with your doctor. See how your doctor likes to do things.

My doctor told me he would take me from the patch to oxycodone and I would wean from that. I have tapered from oxycodone before with no issues so he said that's the short acting medication he would choose for me to taper from the patch from. I haven't decided yet if I will try the patch as my long acting med as my doctor thinks I need something stronger. Although, I would prefer to try the weakest med first because I like to keep my tolerance as low as possible. I just wanted to set that straight. Maybe not every doctor does this but my doctor said its not unusual.

Like I said, this is intended for anyone else reading this thread. I think the OP would probably be better off trying non narcotic treatments for her pain to see how they work.
 
Long term use of NSAIDs has its own issues >yes it does, but non daily use, or use as a break through is highly advisable IMO< I do find they can work okay for my type of pain sometimes but in no way do they allow me to function without opiates. >never said he should give up the opiates if he needed them, suggested that he may consider adding it to the program in order to experience a higher quality of life< They only allow me to take less opiates that I would if I wasn't taking the NSAIDs. NSAIDs are actually not recommended for long term use because of the possible damage to a patient's kidneys and GI tract.They also increase the risk of myocardial infarction and stroke. Here is a link about NSAIDs and their risks:
http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-steroidal_anti-inflammatory_drug

In that link it even states that NSAIDs should be used for short term. >some groups of short terms in a year could make a big difference through out a year< My GP and my pain management doc both consider NSAIDs to be more damaging to the body than opiates. >agree.. but long term opioid therapy can play havoc with the brain and so many others besides me developed fibromyalgia when we reached really high doses of pain meds and were prohibited or refused to increase our doses as the tolerance climbed higher, resulting in severe brain generated pain and even worse fatigue. This only became much worse for the acutes well into abstinence, my has completely gone but there are others out there that are still struggling with this really unpleasant condition. Also constipation if not addressed properly can cause some issues and methadone as well as other opiates have side effects that, can in turn cause severe dental and gum issues.. and since we cant discount addiction.. i'm not trying to get into a opait nsai, whose shit dont stink, but as with any medication there are going to be positives and negatives, so I just wanted to state some of undeniable negatives to opiat therapy<

I think opiates do less damage to your body. Do you develop tolerance with opiates and need to increase your dose? Yes but this can be mitigated by taking your opiates with an NMDA receptor antagonist, ultra low dose naloxone or possibly zofran (according to recent studies). Also with a drug like methadone or buprenorphine , your tolerance would grow much more slowly. On methadone some patients can stay on the same dose for years for pain management. >to any one else that is considering or on methadone for pain, please remember that even though the effects of methadone go on for a long to for most people it will be necessary to redose every eight hours as the analgesic effects of methadone have been show to deteriorate of disappear after this time period.. and as this is often unknown or ignored by physicians and I thought some people who will receive the benefits of methadone for pain (this was by far the best Opiate antagonist painkiller for me, really made my life bearable<3 and i tried almost them all) could benefit from this knowledge:).. after being on methadone and oxy for years and experiencing some of the major side effects of these drugs I would warn you against looking at long term opiat therapy a being relatively safe, or all that effective in the long run. I think a persons best option is as you have really emphasized the need to keep tolerance down and i think that the addition of nsai's as an occasional weapon in this difficult fight is a good idea<

As far as opioid hyperalgesia, yes, it can happen. However, there are conflicting studies on this. If it does happen to a patient it is treatable (and it doesn't seem to be that common) >i bet is will be shown to be almost universal in the future, just my prediction<. The patient can be given an IV ketamine infusion (yes, they actually do this!) >thats interesting as hell, do you know why this would work.. i need to become more familiar with ketamine and its effects and mechanism, but thanks that super interesting and I look forward to checking this out=D< , the patient can be switched to methadone for pain control, the patient can detox from their meds and take a break, etc. Opiates are the gold standard in pain control and relief for a reason. They work! They work a hell of a lot better than an NSAID for moderate to severe pain and they won't damage your body as bad as long term NSAID use will. I know someone at my doctor's office whoose kidneys are completely screwed up from taking NSAIDs for years. I'll be sure and tell her how safe they are. I'm sure she'll believe me when I tell her that they'll work better for her cancer pain than the morphine she's on too. "Here just take an Advil!" Opiophobia.... >if this was directed at me i dont think that anything I said could be construed as Opiophobia.. though your sensitive reaction to me suggesting common experiences with opiates as well as possible treatments TO BE ADDED says you may have a little Opiophobiaphobia;)


Anyway, this has gotten off topic. Back to the OP. If you don't think your pain is that bad then don't switch to something else. Just get off of the opiates and take something non narcotic for the pain (maybe try physical therapy too). Only you can judge your own pain and in your last post you basically said that you probably dont need narcotics. If you think you don't need opiates for pain then you need to get help to stop using. Have you thought about going to NA, AA or a SMART meeting? It sounds like you need to focus on your recovery hon. You have a lot of options. You could go into a rehab or just do it at home (I wouldn't reccomend suboxone or methadone, your habit isn't that big). You could tell your doctor that you want off your medication and you could try a taper. Your wife can hold on to your meds and give them to you when they are due.

Or you could just jump off since your habit isn't large. It's really up to you and your doctor. There are a lot of comfort meds that can help with the WDs. I don't think I'm allowed to list them here but if you PM me I can make suggestions for you to discuss with your doctor. > you are not only allowed but encouraged<3 we just discourage specific brand names as this is a world wide form and the generic names are much easier to work with in a world that has so many individual brand names for substances that switch from country to country< you will need to talk to your doctor about them because most of them are prescription medicines. I can even tell you what helped me with my PAWs >super encouraged!!!< . But you have a great opportunity here. You realize that you have a problem. You have recognized this before you got arrested, overdosed, lost your family, etc. Please don't waste it.

With your pain issue, on the days that I don't take opiates I use a TENs unit, ice, voltaren gel (its an NSAID gel that's safer than oral NSAIDs), lidocaine patches, muscle relaxers, meditation and physical therapy exercises. I also see a chiropracter and a masseuse. My pain management doctor gives me trigger point injections and epidurals which help my pain even better than the opiates but they are only allowed to do these a handful of times a year. I don't know if any of these will help you. Obviously you need to discuss any possible treatments with your doctor but these are some nonnarcotic therapies I found helpful. Oh! It turns out that a lot of chronic pain patients have low vitamin D levels which can increase muscularskeletal pain.>+a billion this is all just golden=D and low vitamin D is being looked at being linked to more and more things including probable Immune system regulation as well as mood etc etc so it just may turn out to be vital in proper stabilization of the hypothalamus and pituitary, I was taking the max amount of vit d and when I insisted that it be checked it was shown really really low.. within two weeks of a double the max dose.. DR approved of course, the bone pain as well as many other symptoms disappeared< So I got my levels tested and I was really low. I've started taking a prescription vitamin D supplement also. I have noticed some improvement.

I'm sure I'm forgetting something but that's all I can think of right now. Good luck in your recovery! Any questions, just ask hon.
allot of honest exploratory discussion and really good info here.
 
allot of honest exploratory discussion and really good info here.

BTW, I'm sorry if I came off bitchy in my posts referring to you hon. I'm a little sensitive to what I feel is criticism of a class of medications that allows me to lead a halfway decent life. I know you didn't mean it that way. It's just that as a CPP, the stigma against opiates really upsets me. Chronic pain grinds you down mentally, emotionally and physically. I am having one of my bad days and I think I jumped down your throat. I'm sorry about that. You did bring up some good points. ((Hugs))
 
Oh, and I just wanted to respond to the poster who mentioned that they wouldn't switch from oxycodone to the buprenorphine patch because "some" people find it harder to wean off of. Well, when my doctor was talking to me about long acting meds and the patch was mentioned, my doctor told me that he usually switches patients back to a shorter acting med if they want to wean off the bupe patch. So anyone who is thinking of the patch for pain control, don't let that other poster scare you. Discuss it with your doctor. See how your doctor likes to do things.
just to clarify, I said I wouldnt think of switching to the patch from a very small perk habit.. please take into acount what i actually wrote. after coming off buepe once and a 150mgpd methadone, 260 mgpd roxie, 6mgp xanax medication regiment, down to nothing and still being at nothing.. as well as detoxing recreational opiat dependency a handful of times.. I think i qualify to give my opinion.. and even though i dont agree with SOME of your advice I respect it.

EDIT: I think me and you got a little fired up.. i'm sorry if I got a little touchy as well.. and I am not attacking the use of opiates or anyone that is on them, just trying to paint a really true picture.. and i think we did a pretty good job of that<3
 
allot of honest exploratory discussion and really good info here.

I just read your notes in my quote. I'm so sorry that you developed fibro! I hope you're doing better. I know that low dose naloxone has helped a lot of fibro sufferers. Hopefully there will be some new treatments on the horizon.
 
just to clarify, I said I wouldnt think of switching to the patch from a very small perk habit.. please take into acount what i actually wrote. after coming off buepe once and a 150mgpd methadone, 260 mgpd roxie, 6mgp xanax medication regiment, down to nothing and still being at nothing.. as well as detoxing recreational opiat dependency a handful of times.. I think i qualify to give my opinion.. and even though i dont agree with SOME of your advice I respect it.

EDIT: I think me and you got a little fired up.. i'm sorry if I got a little touchy as well.. and I am not attacking the use of opiates or anyone that is on them, just trying to paint a really true picture.. and i think we did a pretty good job of that<3

I get what your saying. That particular patch starts in doses low enough for opiate naive people and they are marketing it that way. They are even marketing it for just moderate pain instead of moderate to severe pain. I don't agree with this. I think it should be used for only moderate to severe pain. I don't think they should stick opiate naive people on bupe either. But I think the DEA and doctors like it better because it doesn't cause euphoria and it has low abuse potential. The problem is that its around the clock med so the patient will definitely become dependent. The only thing they seem to care about is that no one gets a buzz!

Yeah, for now I've only been taking my opiates on my worst days. I've managed to avoid dependance that way. However, my quality of life is suffering because of it. I'm not sleeping and I'm just laying on the couch most of the day. I was on an around the clock regime last year and I had no problem weaning down. I also don't have any issue taking two week breaks to lower my tolerance. So, even though Ive been resisting it I'm going to have to go on a long acting med if I'm going to be able to complete physical therapy and have a normal life. I was resisting it to avoid dependance but I haven't had issues with tapering or taking breaks so I'm going to have to do it before I just give up on life completely, KWIM?

I am having a surgery consult soon and I should be having surgery later this year. Hopefully after that I can get off the meds. Like I mentioned before, I get awful migraines from them sometimes. Even though I abused opiates when I was younger, I actually dislike them now. It's kind of ironic. If I believed in God I would think I was being punished for my past!


Anyway, I'm sorry again. Just because I'm in pain and feeling shitty it doesn't mean I have to be rude to someone else. Maybe that's why so many doctors won't treat CPPs, because we're pains in the ass! LOL
 
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