I heard so many times "quit drinking and your life will become better", "quit watching porn and you'll feel less depressed", "quit smoking weed and your depersonalization will go away", etc etc. I'm so sick of it!
My life is screwed up since my childhood. I've been feeling depressed and alone my whole life. It did not start with drinking, porn or weed.
Why do you think I use this mood-altering things in the first place, goddammit??!?
I'm not defending the harmful use of drugs or anything else but being sober dosent seem to improve my life one bit. In fact, I seem to get into more trouble sober than I do drunk. My emotions go into overdrive when I'm sober and my behaviour seems to be even worse sober than drunk.
Quitting this or that shit doesnt seem to have any effect on my life other than make me so uncomfortable I just cant stand it.
My life is screwed up since my childhood. I've been feeling depressed and alone my whole life. It did not start with drinking, porn or weed.
Why do you think I use this mood-altering things in the first place, goddammit??!?
I'm not defending the harmful use of drugs or anything else but being sober dosent seem to improve my life one bit. In fact, I seem to get into more trouble sober than I do drunk. My emotions go into overdrive when I'm sober and my behaviour seems to be even worse sober than drunk.
Quitting this or that shit doesnt seem to have any effect on my life other than make me so uncomfortable I just cant stand it.