quit fentanyl but the urge to use is driving me nutz

[SSGWAR]

Fentanyl 75 every 48 hours. I quit maybe 12 days ago. I have been getting by with a few vicodin but they are gone now. I have tramadol. But the urge to use fentanyl is driving me nuts. I could, I have some and if I don't put a stop to it will get more in the mail. Quitting really sucked, I thought the extreme withdrawal would never end, it it did. Now I no longer have violent sneezing fits runny eyes and stuffy nose, and that horrible creepy feeling of coming out of my skin...utter wrongness anxiety...jeez I hardly have words for how horrible the fentanyl withdrawal is. I know if I use I just reset the agony clock, and when I either run out or quit again I will have to go through the withdrawal all over again. So I am asking if the day will ever come when I am over it and don't yearn to use it again? Does the energy I use to have ever come back? How long till I feel normal without fentanyl?

 

[Stargazer]

Wow...that is pretty amazing that you quit fentanyl, on your own and have some too. I have seen fentanyl withdraw, and it was liking watching an episode of "scared straight" The person was losing their mind, constantly vomiting, their hands contracted into a "claw" position and the person couldn't open them. I have heard that it takes a good few months until your regular energy comes back...that "three days and you're through it" is bs.

I am sure the craving for fentanyl is not good...and having it in your home...not good. Seriously. You have to get it out of the house. You have come sooo far...so so far. I personally am in awe of your ability to do this....I would've said the hell w it, when I was losing my mind, and just taken it. If you don't mind me asking, why are you quitting? It seems like you have the abilty to resist, it even if you have urges, you're not doing it. You definately do not want to go back to square one...that would be horrible. Get rid of the patches that are constantly calling your name...D/C your mail order ones. You survived. You really did.

 

[thedawn]

time will be your ally here.
because it DOES get better even though it seems impossible.
you will have the possibility to re invent yourself.find out who you want to be outside of
using opiates.it WILL stop ,what you're experiencing.everything in this kind of drug addiction is temporary.

I am on suboxone,have been for 6 years,I was a homeless junkie/biz man.
I needed something like that to straighten up my head.
I didn;t give a fuck.
about anything.

well,I wish you all the luck in the world.