I've been dwelling on 'quick fixes' lately. I'm realizing that they never really satisfied and the temporary nature simply leaves me feeling empty and not worthwhile.
My ex-girlfriend 'M' is back in my life (I've blogged about her extensively). Her father had passed away recently and she caught her boyfriend attempting to cheat on her. We began talking and started sleeping together again.
Neither one of us is looking to start the relationship back up again and we both realize that what we are doing is only temporary.
I dunno, the sex is amazing and I am aware that this is primarily a physical thing that we are involved in but I still get these feelings of inadequacy. I KNOW that we are not meant to be together. She is no longer what I'm looking for and I am definitely NOT what she is seeking. But still... ...it sucks knowing that.
I know I'm a good dude and I have qualities that are worthy but...
Fuck, I guess I still have a lot of anger and resentment towards her and I'm certain that she has the same thing going on concerning me.
I guess the point is, these quick fixes are just like the drugs. Feels great at the time but there is always that shitty feeling afterwards.
Maybe its the weather and the fact that I have been procrastinating with some things lately that is making me feel all BLAH! inside.
Blah!
My ex-girlfriend 'M' is back in my life (I've blogged about her extensively). Her father had passed away recently and she caught her boyfriend attempting to cheat on her. We began talking and started sleeping together again.
Neither one of us is looking to start the relationship back up again and we both realize that what we are doing is only temporary.
I dunno, the sex is amazing and I am aware that this is primarily a physical thing that we are involved in but I still get these feelings of inadequacy. I KNOW that we are not meant to be together. She is no longer what I'm looking for and I am definitely NOT what she is seeking. But still... ...it sucks knowing that.
I know I'm a good dude and I have qualities that are worthy but...
Fuck, I guess I still have a lot of anger and resentment towards her and I'm certain that she has the same thing going on concerning me.
I guess the point is, these quick fixes are just like the drugs. Feels great at the time but there is always that shitty feeling afterwards.
Maybe its the weather and the fact that I have been procrastinating with some things lately that is making me feel all BLAH! inside.
Blah!
