opiate_hug
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 14, 2010
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nodding sucks..i rather be fully aware of my buzz.
I've always loved that feeling of warmth and indifferent comfort that comes when you are about to fall asleep. As a kid, it was my favorite part of the day. Naturally, nodding is my favorite part of the day as an adult.
When I was a heroin addict I didn't like nodding. I found a moderate dose of IV heroin 2-3 times a day was the best way to get the most euphoria and 'push' to do things I enjoyed or had to. Nodding out after injecting felt like wasting my dope, my time, and my money. I wanted a decent rush, euphoria with legs, and the ability to engage in addiction related ritualized behavior (listening to particular music before,during and after injecting, participating in activities I enjoyed sober but which seemed far more enjoyable while high, etc) and the sedated energy to do things I had to (work, family responsibilities, etc). Waking up suddenly 4 hours after an injection with no or little dope left groggy as hell and no or little memory of what happened was always a depressing feeling.