Questioning your sanity?

Could you possibly be talking about the "void"?

If you mean void as in the feeling of being in a large or endless void after taking hallucinogenic drugs, it could be a little different. The kind of void I was talking about is more like feeling completely physically distant from everything, as if you are in a part of the universe which reflects no light or sound, you are in a tiny box and at the same time in a complete void which is paradoxically the same as the tiny blank box. Then the box is forcefully lifted... there is nothing there, just the essence of fear. It transforms into terrifying places and scenarios, the essence is an emotional being itself.
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Infinite fear comes with infinite discovery and realization... I'm talking about the first half.
 
Sometimes I feel like I'll never fall asleep
I feel helpless
You can't help me fall asleep
I like to dream
But it scares me to think
That at some point
I'll forget when the dream began

I just got out of my bed
Covered in sweat
I was angry
Cause you kept your hand on my chest
Don't touch me
I'm concentrating on sleep
On what I'll dream
But I can't keep my eyelids shut
Look at me sleeping
I'm really sleeping
Look at me dreaming
I'm so happy

Look at me sleeping
I'm really sleeping
Look at me dreaming
I'm so happy

- Rooney
 
Sleep deprivation will cause all sorts of hell/problems, i get suicidal if i can't sleep for 3-4 + days, fucks with my head really bad.



Insomnia while withdrawal is ten times worse.
 
I often question my own sanity. Or should I say I used to. I personally feel that a lot of people around me are the insane one's. Beliving and repeating the infantile and misleading things they hear. Life is so subjective and arbitrary that no one is truely insane. Well, ok maybe some folks but for the most part what your experiencing and feeling is totally legitamint even if it is later amended or modifiyed.
 
i believe thoughts come only from perceptions - you can see, hear, taste or feel your thoughts before you think of them. whatever the fuck you want to be real can be real for you (subjectively).
 
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