blues runner
Bluelighter
First of all, I would normally never have used a single substance so excessively for so long a period of time (well, heroin yes, but that was in my badly addicted years, and years ago, maybe weed and alcohol). No, I'm talking about a non-addictive drug (at least not physically addictive), namely, Dextromethorphan.
I'm in Drug Court, have been for the last six months. It sucks big time. As I'm sure many of you know, it's very intensive, involving frequent weekly UA testing, tons of redundant 'classes', mandatory community service on top of my employment, and worst of all, frequent appearances in court itself. Just last week I was late for a morning UA and the judge threw me in jail for three days. Wouldn't even let me say, "Well sorry, not to give an excuse, but I simply overslept," and so on. Just raised his hand and told the bailiff to take me into custody. In all fairness though, as crappy as it is, Drug Court may well have saved my life last year as I was in a very bad way with heroin addiction, but I digress.
When I started this program, I knew fully well that I wouldn't be able to take, realistically, at least 80% of mood-altering chemicals as they'd surely be detectable. Well, I took a chance with DXM, despite the many claims that it causes false positives for opiates and PCP. Nope, not with these tests. I'd first used it about ten years ago, only on occasion for the occasional non-psychedelic trip. But several months ago, I started taking mass quantities of the stuff. In the beginning I'd only take about 200 mg at a time, just first or second plateau stuff, but as my tolerance rapidly increased, I got to a point where 6 to 800 mg of it would feel like a rather intense second plateau experience at the most. For a month now I've been taking it every night, and the only consequences it's caused is a somewhat (but not badly-so) subdued sex drive and a titanium-like tolerance. I'm still enjoying it, but long gone are the days of any righteous trip-worthy experiences. At best, it now causes mild euphoria and all the perks of a low-grade second plateau run. I did take about 1200 mg about five weeks ago, but I didn't enjoy it. Even at that high a dose, I wasn't able to get anywhere near the kind of heavy hallucinogenic state that's normally possible (pretty much the only prominent effects were badly impaired concentration and the inability to move). Plus the day after, I felt as though I'd been hit by a train. So, why am I still taking it?
Well, because I'm a dope fiend and I love to get high, period. Sobriety can be cool, yes, but I love to alter my consciousness. What I'm not really worried, but more so curious, about, is what the long-term heavy use drawbacks might be. I'm now able to take DXM in quantities that would formerly have put me firmly in this drug's equivalent of the K-hole, but now do only a quarter of what those dosages otherwise would. So I'm wondering if there are any harmful effects to consider. I can think of many drugs that cause significant tolerance, but a good amount of data is available for all of those as far as what excessive, prolonged use might result in. I haven't been able to get my hands on any info about that kind of use when it comes to DXM.
I'm kind of sad about, because I used to really enjoy what it did for me as the occasional heavy trip-tool. I've pretty much burned it out, but I still use it because I don't know of anything else that I could safely get away with with my being in Drug Court. Yes yes, maybe spice and maybe bath salts, but I don't really want to fuck with either of those as there's been lots of talk around my city about the authorities now being able to test for these things. Maybe I could start taking DMT, possibly GHB, or something else, but I don't really know how to get either of those around here. Everything else is more or less out of the question (unless I'm really missing something). If I am missing a possibility, I'd appreciate some suggestions here. Also, if anyone knows of any undesirable effects possible resulting from the kind of DXM use that I've been doing I'd appreciate that as well. Cheers.
I'm in Drug Court, have been for the last six months. It sucks big time. As I'm sure many of you know, it's very intensive, involving frequent weekly UA testing, tons of redundant 'classes', mandatory community service on top of my employment, and worst of all, frequent appearances in court itself. Just last week I was late for a morning UA and the judge threw me in jail for three days. Wouldn't even let me say, "Well sorry, not to give an excuse, but I simply overslept," and so on. Just raised his hand and told the bailiff to take me into custody. In all fairness though, as crappy as it is, Drug Court may well have saved my life last year as I was in a very bad way with heroin addiction, but I digress.
When I started this program, I knew fully well that I wouldn't be able to take, realistically, at least 80% of mood-altering chemicals as they'd surely be detectable. Well, I took a chance with DXM, despite the many claims that it causes false positives for opiates and PCP. Nope, not with these tests. I'd first used it about ten years ago, only on occasion for the occasional non-psychedelic trip. But several months ago, I started taking mass quantities of the stuff. In the beginning I'd only take about 200 mg at a time, just first or second plateau stuff, but as my tolerance rapidly increased, I got to a point where 6 to 800 mg of it would feel like a rather intense second plateau experience at the most. For a month now I've been taking it every night, and the only consequences it's caused is a somewhat (but not badly-so) subdued sex drive and a titanium-like tolerance. I'm still enjoying it, but long gone are the days of any righteous trip-worthy experiences. At best, it now causes mild euphoria and all the perks of a low-grade second plateau run. I did take about 1200 mg about five weeks ago, but I didn't enjoy it. Even at that high a dose, I wasn't able to get anywhere near the kind of heavy hallucinogenic state that's normally possible (pretty much the only prominent effects were badly impaired concentration and the inability to move). Plus the day after, I felt as though I'd been hit by a train. So, why am I still taking it?
Well, because I'm a dope fiend and I love to get high, period. Sobriety can be cool, yes, but I love to alter my consciousness. What I'm not really worried, but more so curious, about, is what the long-term heavy use drawbacks might be. I'm now able to take DXM in quantities that would formerly have put me firmly in this drug's equivalent of the K-hole, but now do only a quarter of what those dosages otherwise would. So I'm wondering if there are any harmful effects to consider. I can think of many drugs that cause significant tolerance, but a good amount of data is available for all of those as far as what excessive, prolonged use might result in. I haven't been able to get my hands on any info about that kind of use when it comes to DXM.
I'm kind of sad about, because I used to really enjoy what it did for me as the occasional heavy trip-tool. I've pretty much burned it out, but I still use it because I don't know of anything else that I could safely get away with with my being in Drug Court. Yes yes, maybe spice and maybe bath salts, but I don't really want to fuck with either of those as there's been lots of talk around my city about the authorities now being able to test for these things. Maybe I could start taking DMT, possibly GHB, or something else, but I don't really know how to get either of those around here. Everything else is more or less out of the question (unless I'm really missing something). If I am missing a possibility, I'd appreciate some suggestions here. Also, if anyone knows of any undesirable effects possible resulting from the kind of DXM use that I've been doing I'd appreciate that as well. Cheers.
