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So, this may generate a few laughs, hopefully I can be taken seriously, but I'm just in that kind of mood....here goes:

I started smoking weed frequently, every day to be precise back in like Feb last year. In May, my work contract ended and I've been unemployed since. I decided to take the summer off from work and just enjoy myself. When it came time to buckle down, jobs were not pulling through and it actually got to the point where I couldn't get a job no matter how hard I tried. I finally landed a job, but it doesn't start until Jan. The entire time I've been unemployed, I've been stoned pretty much all day, every day. Alas, I believe it has taken it's toll...

I'm to the point where if I allow myself to become completely sober, I feel WEIRD. I'm forgetting things all the time, simple little trivial things like walking into a room and forgetting why, laying out my medication on the counter and forgetting to take it, and driving to the store and making wrong turns to get there, and then driving right past it because my head is in la-la land. I can't think clearly and I feel stupid even when I do sober up. Worst of all, I'm DEPRESSED! I have been getting days lately where I'm just depressed for no good reason. I keep thinking terrible things like "why am I here, what is my purpose in life, what do I matter to anyone? Why are people so careless and mean to each other? Will everyone ever get along?". I also just got back together with an on-and-off girlfriend of 3 years, and she moved into my place (temporarily for $$$ reasons, we're helping each other out here because were both strapped), and I'm starting to feel like I just dug myself a grave! I keep feeling like I should leave her but I don't know why, she's done nothing wong. I don't know if it could be seasonal depression (because it just started getting balls ass cold here), or could it be sheer boredom from not working, or depression because I'm pretty much out of money, or what.....

All in all, the depression is killing me. I feel like I have no friends. I feel like my life is empty and there's no reason to live. No, I'm not getting suicidal thoughts or anything, but I just feel like life is pointless. I never feel like this, I'm not used to this, I'm usually the happy-go-lucky guy.

All I want to know is, do anyone else ever notice this happening to them after long-term frequent marijuana use? I do not want to feel this way anymore, it feels like a long, dragged out cocaine comedown, it's awful. I've done other drugs, but not a lot of anything else, nothing that would cause long lasting depression.

I'm going to start cutting down on weed severely. I'm resisting smoking because now, when I smoke, all it does is haze out the bad thoughts for a little while (kinda) only for them to return in a little while. I'd like to get to a point where I smoke recreationally every so often with friends, and not habitually like I currently do. My lungs are taking a toll too...

Thanks in advance and sorry if this is in the wrong place.
 
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Well first of all, stop smoking.

I've never heard of it this bad, but mabye you have another mental condition?
 
I've been doing a lot of self reflecting lately (side effect of being unemployed) and thinking too much. Maybe I've come to the realization that my life really is empty and that I need to make changes to be truly happy and not just blindly happy. Maybe it has nothing to do with the weed, but either way I'm going to stop smoking for sure.

I've had sleep problems my whole life due to a restless mind. My mind likes to wonder, a lot. It doesn't have an off button and sometimes I have trouble controlling it. I wonder if I have ADHD or something like that. I can't believe I'm considering this as a possibility...
 
The first time I quit smokin, I couldn't get an appitite or sleep well without chronic. I've never had a problem since, but that was some strange experiences.
 
I'm just wondering if this depression has anything to do with weed. The forgetting shit, feeling cloudy, not thinking clearly, etc., that can for sure be blamed on the the chron. This severe depression I'm feeling, I can't tell if it's from the weed or not.

I'm going to go to the doc as soon as I can, but without medical insurance.... :|
 
It could be from the weed, or it could be that the weed has stopped working as an effective cover for depression that was there all along. Either way, stopping smoking (or cutting down significantly) and finding some stable work will do a lot to improve your situation, and as a result, likely your mood as well.
 
Well frequent long term use of weed may not "cause" depression but it can trigger it if it was lying dormant in your brain or it can worsen any signs of depression you have.
I am pretty certain it is to do with weed, forgetting shit happens to me alot.
I might put a dvd on the table to take up stairs to my room. Get up to my room and forgot I had the DVD. walk downstairs and forget why I was downstairs. It sucks and it's the problem of chronic weed use.
Cut down a lot man and you'll not only appreciate weed more but you'll feel a lot better as well.
Don't go cold turkey just maybe try taking one day breaks and slowly wean off it.

Hope any of that helps and good luck mate.
 
yep. i feel the same way. the only thing that will change this is if you quit for a while. if you just cut back i have a feeling you'll still be depressed. and even after you quit you'll probably still be depressed for a bit. and be prepared for insomnia, that shit sucks. but after being sober for a while, you will start to feel sooo much better. then maybe when you do decide to smoke again, do it in moderation.

good luck. i'm in the same boat.
 
everyone thinks ganja is some harmless drug with no side-effects. there ARE side-effects and people CAN be addicted to ganja and grow dependant. The symptoms you listed does sound like some common theme to a heavy chronic smoker. depression, increased anxiety, reduced appetite, hazed thoughts, etc.

it all goes away in a month or two lucky. excercise and eat well will ensure you get well sooner. good luck
 
my friend. Ive had the EXACT same experience as you... I had an infinite thought loop of the following:

-why am i here
-who am i
-where did i come from
-does god exist
-why is the world so fucked up
-am i in hell
-why are people so mean to each other

OVER AND OVER AND OVER. This went on for a while until I realized that I was in hell, mentally, a place where confusion and suffering reign. However, the questions i sought merely lied within myself. I realized that all the things i hated about the world i actually hated about myself. This all came about when I looked at a picture of Atlas, the dude with the world on his shoulders, and thought..."what an asshole". It is impossible to hold the weight of the world on your shoulders and only a fool would attempt it. We are all struggling and confused but you have to understand that the only thing you can do is help/change yourself... by doing that you not only liberate your own soul but the souls of those around you. As for "why am i here" ... the question will never be answered because it hasnt been created yet... YOU create your purpose. YOU give meaning to the world. Not the other way around... as for ADHD and all that, I am not one to take "medical conditions" seriously so I cant help you with that aspect or the memory loss. As for the questions though, just self reflect and find out what bugs you about yourself and change it... then create your own purpose and live the life you love. Good luck brother, hope this helps.
 
Ive been in almost the exact same spot. I had a job for years, then lost it and just blazed a lot, also had an on off thing for a few years with a girl. Id say your number one priority is to a get a job and feel productive. i cant stress how important this was for me. I didnt even realize how much just doing nothing all day was affecting me without even knowing it. Next is, you probably need to get rid of the girl man, or at least take things down a notch. You guys broke up those other times for a reason. Basically you just need to get your shit together and be proud of your life and yourself to feel better, let alone maintain a relationship.
 
Stick to smoking on the weekends dude. I actually followed through with the idea for a good month or so straight and it did wonders. i felt more energetic, less apathetic, and had a greater ability to concentrate. however it is winter break for me. GET HIGHHHH
 
I felt that way before. I was depressed because I was feeling weird and could not remember things correctly.

I stopped smoking and using other drugs for a while and it all went for the better after. Now I only use for recreational purposes about once or twice a week; mostly on weekends.
 
My friend actually started to feel the same way a while back, but I never really got around to asking him how he found his way out of it. I think he really just cut back on the smoking and drinking, because, like you, he was smoking everyday. This went on for like 5-6 years, since we were in high school, and I am pretty sure cutting down on the toking helped him get past the depression.

I was involved in heroin at the time he was going through this so I wasn't very much help, but I had my own depression and shit life to worry about. Before my heroin days I was a daily pot-smoker though and it never made me depressed. Hell, if anything, it did the complete opposite. Tolerance was there though and I found that I had no appetite unless I was stoned, but I never had a problem affording weed so I didn't mind. I also constantly felt burnt out, but to cure that I just smoked another bowl.

Just try cutting down on the drugs and let your mind experience life sober for a while. It should definitely help you see things clearly. Hope that helps.

-legz
 
Strangely enough I have had a lot of the same feelings you have, Im not stoned all day every day but do smoke quite a lot, I guess some of us just don't have a head for ganja,

hope life gets better with you though, I'd lay off the smoke for a bit (I know I will) and just get back into life, I was unemployed for a year so I know what its like to get bored and fall into the trap of feeling like you have to have a buzz to make the day worthwhile,

good luck
 
Thank you all for your kind replies.

-why am i here
-who am i
-where did i come from
-does god exist
-why is the world so fucked up
-am i in hell
-why are people so mean to each other
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That is RIGHT THE F on. Exactly how I felt.

I feel much better now. I've been smoking a lot less, eating healthy, taking a daily multi-vitamin and even doing a full detox program. I also stopped taking 5-htp everyday because I read somewhere that prolonged 5-htp use can actually cause people to become depressed.

Again, thanks a lot for being cool and not flaming me. I honestly was expecting a verbal beating for this.
 
don't underestimate the effect of having a regular good paying job has on your life and your self esteem. having money and being financially secure (not being rich however) is one of the keys to happiness in my opinion.

smoking pot, or any other form of escapism, is not good in these situations, as although it temporarily distracts you, the problems have not been addressed and you only end up feeling guiltier when you come down.
 
expothead said:
don't underestimate the effect of having a regular good paying job has on your life and your self esteem. having money and being financially secure (not being rich however) is one of the keys to happiness in my opinion.

smoking pot, or any other form of escapism, is not good in these situations, as although it temporarily distracts you, the problems have not been addressed and you only end up feeling guiltier when you come down.
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Well said, sir.
 
Regardless of whether or not it's harming you, the weed isn't helping you. If being sober is a "trip," you are smoking to often.

Take a break, save some money, get in the right mental set to start working again. If you want/think it is okay, start smoking after your workday. See how you feel when the cash starts rolling back in.

The depression is likely extenuated by the recent slow-down in consumption. Try natural supplements like Melatonin for sleep and 5-htp during the day for a little while. Discontinue when you start to feel you don't need them anymore as your body can become dependent upon the pills over time. You'd be surprised how far a little physical activity can go in terms of helping your self-esteem. Assuming you are male, it gets the testosterone flowing and you'll start feeling "alpha" again.

This is likely a funk you will get out of. It's good that you've realized there is a problem -- the next step is figuring out exactly what it is and taking appropriate action. You sound like the person who can do that on their own, but we are here if you need the moral support or advice.
 
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