I should be getting what should b pretty good quality meth tomorrow which night help me finish various things on my course. I am also likely to be able to get speed, Id say both 2/3 chance for each one being convieniently available. I think the meth might help me since depression (that is mild when not trying to keep up with these deadlines] often manifests as apathy. I currently feel armodafinil can't get me 2 where I need to be. It creares the ability for my mind to focus really well but isn't really the answer when depressivs appathy causes those symptoms.
I think what I need is something that gives ne a "get up qand go" attitude and a calm confidece rather than just the abilty to concentrate. I need something that will help me shout "Fuck yeah this shit's getting done"
I first tried a tiny dab before an all nighter in the libray, when out of modafinil or speed, and it worked great. The confidence I could do well made me feel i was ready to take on the challenge. I actually enjoyed typing up a reli difficult essay about the element of my course that I found hardest. It gave me the drive that is the opposite of the blank depessed feeling that messes with my ability to work. I got 90 per cent when 70 is all thats needed for a first. I was getting scores around 50 and 60 at that time.
I have used modafinil and speed regularly for a long time, I rarely binge but have small amounts of speed and sometimes modafin pretty often and maybe a "party" sort of dose every 2nd weekend. I find speed can make me calmer and stop my thoughts racing.
I'm thinking of (assuming I can get both) taking speed or armodafinil tomorrow (aiming to get a lot done b4 it can be gone through that evening with tutors) and then taking a day off from stimulants (armodafinil last 2 day). If it's a large dose of speed I end up doing, I'll give my body 2 days 2 clear it and recover (speed can definately still b in my system noticabley the next day if I have a lot. After that break I'm thinking of maybe starting with the armodafinil, moving onto the speed, then for the day, or days, before the last hand in take meth/ Alternatively i may have a small dose of meth the days I feel detatched depression, modafinil when all . That way I'll switch to a stronger thing as the week progresses so eacj time my mody is used to one drug it gets a stronger one. If I can;t get speed but can get meth I'll consider trying it at a very small dose and maybe adding it with armodafinil. Tomorrow is important cos The more is seen tomorrow evening the more feedback I can get befroe its too late.
Got a few qyestions *(but any advice, knowledge or experiences interes would be much appreciatedt)
I think what I need is something that gives ne a "get up qand go" attitude and a calm confidece rather than just the abilty to concentrate. I need something that will help me shout "Fuck yeah this shit's getting done"
I first tried a tiny dab before an all nighter in the libray, when out of modafinil or speed, and it worked great. The confidence I could do well made me feel i was ready to take on the challenge. I actually enjoyed typing up a reli difficult essay about the element of my course that I found hardest. It gave me the drive that is the opposite of the blank depessed feeling that messes with my ability to work. I got 90 per cent when 70 is all thats needed for a first. I was getting scores around 50 and 60 at that time.
I have used modafinil and speed regularly for a long time, I rarely binge but have small amounts of speed and sometimes modafin pretty often and maybe a "party" sort of dose every 2nd weekend. I find speed can make me calmer and stop my thoughts racing.
I'm thinking of (assuming I can get both) taking speed or armodafinil tomorrow (aiming to get a lot done b4 it can be gone through that evening with tutors) and then taking a day off from stimulants (armodafinil last 2 day). If it's a large dose of speed I end up doing, I'll give my body 2 days 2 clear it and recover (speed can definately still b in my system noticabley the next day if I have a lot. After that break I'm thinking of maybe starting with the armodafinil, moving onto the speed, then for the day, or days, before the last hand in take meth/ Alternatively i may have a small dose of meth the days I feel detatched depression, modafinil when all . That way I'll switch to a stronger thing as the week progresses so eacj time my mody is used to one drug it gets a stronger one. If I can;t get speed but can get meth I'll consider trying it at a very small dose and maybe adding it with armodafinil. Tomorrow is important cos The more is seen tomorrow evening the more feedback I can get befroe its too late.
Got a few qyestions *(but any advice, knowledge or experiences interes would be much appreciatedt)
- Does ROA matter much for concentration purposes (would prefer to smoke it)?
- Does the rush of a pipe hit mean the hest of the high will be any less good (so would you feel just as up for work 2 hours after a pipe as you would after a line_.
- What dosage range can work well for studying and could the lower end of these doses be used for repeated dosing.
- If getting too tired to work on speed or modafinil how effective would meth be (then or ne next day.