Desperately Trying
Greenlighter
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- Mar 10, 2017
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Hello all I am fairly new to bluelight.. been lurking a long time and just recently created an account. I am currently puzzled over a change in my body that I'm hoping someone from here can shed some light on for me. A little background on my habit, heroin user for 5 years quit for a little over a year and have been back on for the past 10 months or so full fledged using way more than ever before. Okay so I am the kind of person who sticks to a routine as far as waking up at the same time each day, going to bed at roughly the same time each night, eating around the same time and especially dosing around the same time. So for all the time I have used it's been the same routine, dose first thing in the morning (legit within 2 mins of opening my eyes due to waking up sick), dose in afternoon around 4 (not feeling sick just to kick up the high again), and dosing around 9pm (just before bed to ensure a good nights rest). Of course there have been a few days of missing a dose or not having at all but I don't think I've missed more than 3 days over the last 10 months and definitely not more than 24hours. So about a week ago (6 days to be exact) I woke up and had nothing to do and went "on the hunt" but was told nothing until way late around 11pm so I popped some Imodium and rode out the waves of withdrawals for the day, copped around midnight and dosed pretty much within mins of getting as I was pretty sick by that point. So I go home, go to bed, and wake up in the morning to continue my regular regiment of dosing and when bedtime rolls around that night I also take my 9pm dose like I would any other night and go to sleep. By 12.35pm I'm awakened to find myself soaked in sweat, restless body in full effect, freezing from the chills setting into my bones.. I'm in fullblown withdrawal.. what in the world is going on?! So I try to get a shower, take a few hits of pot (long time toker) but nothing I do is helping and I have dope but I don't want to waste a dose, I was so distraught as I had never experienced this before. Well I fight with myself for an hour before I do a small bump and I can literally feel the relief washing over me as I enjoy a ciggy after doing my bump. I go back to bed and within mins am blissfully asleep. All in all this is about 2am now that I am falling back asleep. Fast forward to 3am and I wake up again covered in sweat the whole nine yards again! Fullblown sickness?! So I don't even pretend to fight it this time as I am beyond tired and cranky at this point so I huridley do a small bump again and within mins am back asleep. What do you know 5.30am rolls around and you guessed it right back up again.. same symptoms!! Again I don't fight it I do a bump fall back asleep in mins and wake up at 7.30am my normal time to get up.. feel a little sick but not like I normally would in the mornings but I dose regardless, go back to my normal dosing schedule, chalk it up to a weird night and go about my day. Here is the thing.. it hasn't stopped! Every single night now for 6 night's in a row I wake up at 12.30am, 3am and 5.30am in fullblown withdrawal and I have no idea why it is happening. I never experienced anything like it and it is driving me crazy! I am forced to do 3 small bumps just to make it through the night and nothing about my routine has changed except that one day of waiting all day to get and dosing super late but everything else is the same, (same dope, same ROA, same times dosing throughout the day) I am baffled as to why this is happening! Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this? I can't afford to keep doing 3 xtra doses a day to sleep but I don't know what else to do to stop it. I know stopping all together is an option but I can honesty say I'm not ready at this moment in my life and I know from my past experience with using dope that I have to want to quit or its pointless to try. I hope much of this post makes sense. Please if anyone has any ideas of how I can break this cycle or any tips I am losing my mind right now! Thank you in advance for any responses!!
Also if anyone needs to know I am at 3-5 bags a day, ROA is insulfatted. Thanks ☺
Also if anyone needs to know I am at 3-5 bags a day, ROA is insulfatted. Thanks ☺