07-12-2008, 22:10 #31
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Too bad there are no drugs for PDs. Just therapy and I hate therapy.
sometimes uve got to do wat u hate in order to lead a life ur oneday going to love
no quick fixes for GAD either unless SSRIs work for u and they dont for me, so i had to go with therapy
now im bloody glad i did
find a gd therapist and u probly wont hate it as much as u hav in the past
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08-12-2008, 04:22 #32
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08-12-2008, 05:00 #33
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Posts: 65 Been there. I was once in the state long-term psychiatric unit on 4mg risperdone, 120mg fluoxetine, 10mg ambien, and 2mg clonazepam (every four hours). The hospital was top-notch. The diagnosis was very intense (I recall doing a 900 question multiple choice test over four days). We attended day programs, which were like real life psychology courses, from 7:00am to 2:00pm. In the evening, all three units (the two long-term units, and one permanant) would socialize do whatever. It was a great place. Fuck outpatient clinics. they dont know what they are doing. They fucked me too many times with no therapy but plenty of assorted pills, constantly switching meds... its dangerous.
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08-12-2008, 05:11 #34
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I wish I had a psych unit like that...
But right now I'm leaning the other way....just have to make it through the holidays....
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08-12-2008, 05:16 #35
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I had to say no to psych meds at some point. I have not taken them in years. But I'm not well, either. opiates make me feel the way I think I should always feel, thats my current medication, for good or ill. However, I never have a completely steady supply of one specific opiate (preferably morphine), and am always high low high low not high enough too high sick suicidal well and around again. its a problem.
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08-12-2008, 05:18 #36
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08-12-2008, 05:46 #37
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I mess up every relationship in my life. Everyone close to me resents me in some way. God it would be so much easier if I knew how to buy a hand gun and not be obvious. I'm not dumb I can use a weapon.
But then again thinking about the other person, an open casket is good for healing. Maybe I'm write so word-age on that later and post it...
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08-12-2008, 06:06 #38
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Posts: 65 my loved ones resent me too. it isnt their fault that they dont understand. i dont want to hurt them. a full syringe has been the plan. 300mg in one shot will do it. thats how Freud went out. he did not want the cancer pain anymore. i dont even like needles. but what a horrible thing to lay on your family, right? and 'tis the fucking season...
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08-12-2008, 06:31 #39
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ive been affected by many a suicide in my life, so many in fact, that i lost count long ago...
that phenomana, along with my own life events, have lead me to thoughts of going that way myself.
ive done a lot of thinking re this issue and, the only conclusion i can come up with to remedy it, is to see it as self indulgence. i know that might sound harsh... i dont think that suicide is cowardly, in fact, i think it takes a lot of guts to make that step to end your life. life is a gift, to throw that away...
i try to live by the adage "if you choose, choose not to bother', in other words, dont let anything you do adversely affect anyone else.
now with every suicide that passes, there have been three this year, it only hardens my resolve to stay alive. and that i will.
as YOU will, pillthrill...
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Too bad there are no drugs for PDs. Just therapy and I hate therapy.
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no quick fixes for GAD either unless SSRIs work for u and they dont for me, so i had to go with therapy
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08-12-2008, 04:22 #32
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08-12-2008, 05:00 #33
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Posts: 65 Been there. I was once in the state long-term psychiatric unit on 4mg risperdone, 120mg fluoxetine, 10mg ambien, and 2mg clonazepam (every four hours). The hospital was top-notch. The diagnosis was very intense (I recall doing a 900 question multiple choice test over four days). We attended day programs, which were like real life psychology courses, from 7:00am to 2:00pm. In the evening, all three units (the two long-term units, and one permanant) would socialize do whatever. It was a great place. Fuck outpatient clinics. they dont know what they are doing. They fucked me too many times with no therapy but plenty of assorted pills, constantly switching meds... its dangerous.
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08-12-2008, 05:11 #34
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08-12-2008, 05:16 #35
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08-12-2008, 05:18 #36
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08-12-2008, 05:46 #37
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But then again thinking about the other person, an open casket is good for healing. Maybe I'm write so word-age on that later and post it...
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08-12-2008, 06:06 #38
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Posts: 65 my loved ones resent me too. it isnt their fault that they dont understand. i dont want to hurt them. a full syringe has been the plan. 300mg in one shot will do it. thats how Freud went out. he did not want the cancer pain anymore. i dont even like needles. but what a horrible thing to lay on your family, right? and 'tis the fucking season...
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08-12-2008, 06:31 #39
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ive been affected by many a suicide in my life, so many in fact, that i lost count long ago...
that phenomana, along with my own life events, have lead me to thoughts of going that way myself.
ive done a lot of thinking re this issue and, the only conclusion i can come up with to remedy it, is to see it as self indulgence. i know that might sound harsh... i dont think that suicide is cowardly, in fact, i think it takes a lot of guts to make that step to end your life. life is a gift, to throw that away...
i try to live by the adage "if you choose, choose not to bother', in other words, dont let anything you do adversely affect anyone else.
now with every suicide that passes, there have been three this year, it only hardens my resolve to stay alive. and that i will.
as YOU will, pillthrill...