DeathIndustrial88
Bluelighter
Yeah I some times worry that he could hurt me or even kill me one day if he's pissed and delusional enough.One of my good friends is majorly schizo and he makes big $ as a lead software developer. Lived a pretty normal life was even married with kids at one point.
Not sure but I think psychedelic drug use let me handle my psychosis more, so I was able to internalize it without freaking out too much (but psychedelic drugs also caused it... lol). Honestly it was a lot like taking mushrooms except it lasted over a year instead of 6 hours. Schizo is basically just psychosis with some specifically defined features and lasting more than 6 months.
anyways, yeah
it's the people who started to lose their barrier between the hallucinations, reality and delusions, the ones who outwardly start to act upon them like you describe your ex, that's significant schizo
I am lucky in that I never progressed that much, and also made a major recovery..... except for that annoying fucking music dialogue
He lies all the time and has no self awareness. He'll bitch at me for very hypocritical or stupid things, then if I say something to him (politely) of something similar, he'll act like I'm making a big deal out of it and it's like he HAS to be the exact opposite of me in thought, in action, in belief, everything. Always disagreeing. Always arguing. We've known each other this long and he still accuses me of "hiding his stuff" to "play games with him", even though anyone else who had lived with me or known me this long would know that I'm not even the type of person who would do something like that to some one. Most of the time it's because he just misplaces shit and then needs some one else to blame for it. I think he's also a bit of a narcissist. So it's like he doesn't even truly know me at all & im just the delusions he has in his head of me.
I've known him 7 years and he's always been this way, although not as bad as he is now. He claims it all started after he got into meth, but not really sure.
I think i'll need to find a way to part ways one day before something bad does happen, especially since he doesn't like to admit that anything is wrong with him.
He can go from 0-10 in seconds & Im usually just a quiet type that doesn't like confrontation. So I guess we just can't work.