Last night I had the most intense trip of my entire life, I smoked about 100mg of DMT from a crack pipe I had gotten from a local headshop ( Full report here http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/766078-DMT-Never-went-this-far-before-never-again ) . Ever since then I've had the lingering feeling that nothing is real, nothing ever was real. I want this feeling to go away it makes me very uncomfortable, I question life and death constantly now and am contemplating suicide to make this go away. Literally nothing feels real to me anymore after witnessing what I did on my trip, I had come to the realization that this entire life was an illusion and I was the universe and am currently experiencing an odd prolonged dream. I tried a small hit of DMT again and I experienced the feeling that I had experienced the night before, I was hoping it would ease my nerves but it truly didn't. I might add that I'm having slight xanax withdrawals which might not help much but I just don't understand what life is anymore after that. This traumatic experience has been in the back of my mind since the trip, I feel relieved to be human and to still be alive after experiencing an ego-death through DMT but it has been making me question what life truly is and what lies beyond this life. Someone please gives me words to calm me or ease my mind, please tell me it is the drugs and I'm just buying into my own delusions.