nirvus
Bluelighter
Hola Amigos,
Here we go. Lil' bout me: I have been lurking/learning from BL since ~2004(?). Haven't posted tho but time is now right. I am late GenX-er who was chemistry prodigy as child. Had lab in elementary school, was nationally recognized competitor every year of high school. Also began serious spiritual study at young age and began a lifelong love affair with music, teaching myself guitar at 10yo.
Leanings toward substance use/abuse showed up early. Stressors: my precocious intelligence made socializing in elemtary school a little awkward for me, although i am generally warm and friendly. Also grew up very poor in a town of middle income. Of course now i realize what a blessing in disguise this can be but at the time it was hard to understand. Started using alcohol in social context at about 13yo but soon progressed to drinking as way to handle stress. Began using marijuana at 15, became instant convert, smoking daily as much as possible. This was actually a good time in my life because i am a fairly nervous person and the cheeba helped with appetite and sleep tremendously. Would later lead to legal trouble and i sometimes wonder what life would have been like if i didnt smoke. sometimes.
I grew up when WAR ON DRUGS was in full swing. they used to warn us about dangers of PCP, barbiturates and quaaludes in elementary school (i know right). But the descriptions of LSD were interesting. So on NYE 93-94 i took 1 hit of blotter (sonic the hedghog iirc). Mind you, this was back in 90's when 99.999% of acid blotter was either genuine or completely fake/inactive, i.e. there was no RC's being laid on blotter and sold as 'cid. Watched marathon of Ren and Stimpy and RHCP's Psychedelic Sexfunk live from Heaven. Could not believe what was happening inside me. I remember drawing a picture of a dinosaur and it is moving and talking to me before i could even finish drawing it! Again, instant convert!
I was doing competition chemistry in high school at the time and we had a local chemist from an environmental lab helping us study. One day he noticed a pot leaf motif on a shirt i wore and commented positively. Turns out, he was a Deadhead who got busted with some fugus in college and helping us study was part of community service! So we went to a Grateful Dead show in spring 1994, camping with the deadheads at Stone Mountain, GA. What an introduction to the psychedelic community in the US. It really opened my eyes to the trasformative power of these materials on the human condition.
Graduated HS, started at a large state university. My HS sweetheart (first . . .everything) graduated and was going to go to school in another state. I had to talk her out of it! She soon became pregnant. I was sitting in 2nd semester organic chemistry when they came to tell me she was going into labor. Beautiful, healthy baby girl, 7#11oz. So me an' mommy set up house and both continued to work and go to college. This was not easy and sometimes we look back and wonder how we did it. Soon she quit school and when i was in my senior year i became very burnt out and quit school too. (smart right?)
Rent is high in college town though, so we move to land my parents owned and bought a house. Quit doing any real science and concentrated on programming electronic music. Rave scene had hit US and i was in love with the sounds of jungle/dnb. Internet was really ramping up at this time and so i started reading a lot of spiritual texts (mostly Mahayana Buddhism, prajnaparamita texts fyi).
This is where the plot thickens of course, but this post is getting a little wordy, so i'll split it up. Thanks to all who are listening, and to BL and all BL'ers and psychonauts, and all sentient beings! Post numero uno!
To be continued . . .
Here we go. Lil' bout me: I have been lurking/learning from BL since ~2004(?). Haven't posted tho but time is now right. I am late GenX-er who was chemistry prodigy as child. Had lab in elementary school, was nationally recognized competitor every year of high school. Also began serious spiritual study at young age and began a lifelong love affair with music, teaching myself guitar at 10yo.
Leanings toward substance use/abuse showed up early. Stressors: my precocious intelligence made socializing in elemtary school a little awkward for me, although i am generally warm and friendly. Also grew up very poor in a town of middle income. Of course now i realize what a blessing in disguise this can be but at the time it was hard to understand. Started using alcohol in social context at about 13yo but soon progressed to drinking as way to handle stress. Began using marijuana at 15, became instant convert, smoking daily as much as possible. This was actually a good time in my life because i am a fairly nervous person and the cheeba helped with appetite and sleep tremendously. Would later lead to legal trouble and i sometimes wonder what life would have been like if i didnt smoke. sometimes.
I grew up when WAR ON DRUGS was in full swing. they used to warn us about dangers of PCP, barbiturates and quaaludes in elementary school (i know right). But the descriptions of LSD were interesting. So on NYE 93-94 i took 1 hit of blotter (sonic the hedghog iirc). Mind you, this was back in 90's when 99.999% of acid blotter was either genuine or completely fake/inactive, i.e. there was no RC's being laid on blotter and sold as 'cid. Watched marathon of Ren and Stimpy and RHCP's Psychedelic Sexfunk live from Heaven. Could not believe what was happening inside me. I remember drawing a picture of a dinosaur and it is moving and talking to me before i could even finish drawing it! Again, instant convert!
I was doing competition chemistry in high school at the time and we had a local chemist from an environmental lab helping us study. One day he noticed a pot leaf motif on a shirt i wore and commented positively. Turns out, he was a Deadhead who got busted with some fugus in college and helping us study was part of community service! So we went to a Grateful Dead show in spring 1994, camping with the deadheads at Stone Mountain, GA. What an introduction to the psychedelic community in the US. It really opened my eyes to the trasformative power of these materials on the human condition.
Graduated HS, started at a large state university. My HS sweetheart (first . . .everything) graduated and was going to go to school in another state. I had to talk her out of it! She soon became pregnant. I was sitting in 2nd semester organic chemistry when they came to tell me she was going into labor. Beautiful, healthy baby girl, 7#11oz. So me an' mommy set up house and both continued to work and go to college. This was not easy and sometimes we look back and wonder how we did it. Soon she quit school and when i was in my senior year i became very burnt out and quit school too. (smart right?)
Rent is high in college town though, so we move to land my parents owned and bought a house. Quit doing any real science and concentrated on programming electronic music. Rave scene had hit US and i was in love with the sounds of jungle/dnb. Internet was really ramping up at this time and so i started reading a lot of spiritual texts (mostly Mahayana Buddhism, prajnaparamita texts fyi).
This is where the plot thickens of course, but this post is getting a little wordy, so i'll split it up. Thanks to all who are listening, and to BL and all BL'ers and psychonauts, and all sentient beings! Post numero uno!
To be continued . . .
