washingtonbound
Bluelighter
I have been having a hard time coming to terms with this and it has been an ongoing problem for years. I know some might feel cannabis is benign and it may be for some people but it is definitely not in my case. I smoked basically everyday for 3-4 years, then was off for a while and started up again casually. I soon noticed that the positive effects, or what I viewed to be positive effects were decreasing and the problematic elements increasing. It is now at a point where if I smoke at all, I have terrible rebound depression/anxiety and magnified OCD like thoughts for days and sometimes even weeks afterwards. This may sound ridiculous but it is the case for me. The disturbing thing is, for the last two years I have come to realize I need to give it up period, but I still find myself at the dispensary just to get “one more joint” which always manifests in a nightmare afterwards. It bothers me how I will chase a high that lasts maybe an hour or two tops to then deal with terrible rebound effects afterwards. I was wondering if anyone could provide some input on how to manage the feeling that creeps in that causes me to relapse. I have been to traditional therapy but it doesn’t help a lot of the time because us usually the therapists don’t have experience with drugs. Any input is appreciated.