Psychological addiction creates psychosomatic symptoms??

RaZkaL86

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Hey fellow BLers... I just want to touch upon a subject I haven't seen on here but I feel it's a reason many ppl keep relapsing; like me...I've been fighting the H demon going on 25 years and I've gone days or weeks without using and ppl are like "you've won, now just leave it alone!!"8((if it were that easy!) I swear, it's happened quite a few times to me and ppl think I'm full of shite!! I could be just thinking about anything but dope but when I start thinking about it my body starts to go haywire...like my nose will start running, sneezing, hot and cold flashes and gooseflesh...this is after weeks without using a granule of dope. Anyone else get these belated PAWS???:?
 
Your body and mind are reminded of the opiate they once knew, and I would guess these symptoms are "hysterical" in the sense that they are not organic (due to actual physical wd's), but instead triggered by the stress of not having the opiate and responding in a familiar way it has when it has cleared itself of the opiate (true wd's in the past).
 
I agree! At times I think that dope sickness really isn't brought on even by the drug itself. Like how even if you used only one day you would get the same sickness as you would after using for a month. I could hear a song that I listened to often while high and have the aches brought back on for a few hours or even the entire night. It definitely is some kind of mental queue that once you get it from the drug you have it forever.
 
Yes, it's kinda shocking in the beginning; I was incredulous like WTF?? This can't be...but it does happen and yes it di happen to me like you SDH...a song I used to hear when my brother and I would play when we were on the way to go cop... The song is called "Dilema" by Nelly featuring Kelly Rowland and idk why this particular song but I guess it was hot at the time and we would pump that up in my bro's "97 Nissan Pathfinder" on the path to heavenly oblivion...8o
 
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Hey fellow BLers... I just want to touch upon a subject I haven't seen on here but I feel it's a reason many ppl keep relapsing; like me...I've been fighting the H demon going on 25 years and I've gone days or weeks without using and ppl are like "you've won, now just leave it alone!!"8((if it were that easy!) I swear, it's happened quite a few times to me and ppl think I'm full of shite!! I could be just thinking about anything but dope but when I start thinking about it my body starts to go haywire...like my nose will start running, sneezing, hot and cold flashes and gooseflesh...this is after weeks without using a granule of dope. Anyone else get these belated PAWS???:?

I get this way whenever I would score on my last run, but I couldn't use it right then. It got so bad that even if I could use it right in the car, on the bus, in the alleyway, etc.. I would still get mad PAWS because the dope was not inside me yet. Fuck that.

It goes away when you stay sober long enough. How many weeks are you talking about max? I'm over 4 months now. I did not even intend to really quit. It just sort of happened. It was the best way to attack my addiction, since addiction attacks myself like this.. out of the blue and blind-sided from left field.
 
thoughts influence symptoms in the body, of course. that doesn't mean that there is no organic component to PAWs...

the brain and body are connected. PAWs symptoms are both organic and psychological, there isn't really a separation...

it's our structures of consciousness, structures of memory and behavioral patterns, that connect our thoughts together, and connect our thoughts to the nerves to our body...

a healthy state of mind (which relies on a healthy environment as well) can more quickly re-arrange these structures (organically..) so that PAWs is not such a big deal.

it's hard to explain that all is one -.-
 
Yes I've noticed this. Just the sight of a straw will have me snorting the air like a coke head (I did opiates too, but mainly nasal ROA). Certain songs bring it out. If someone kicks out pills in front of me it also brings it out of course.

I find that when I do use, I'm more addicted to the act of preping/using than I am the actual high now. I've not taken enough to nod in a few months, but I swear, as soon as I get done railing and before the opiates kick in I have an instant relief and can feel the stress lifting.

I really wanted to quit, but over the last month or so I've realized that I mostly want to quit because I'm begin priced out of the market. I simply refuse to pay whats begin asked, so until I can get my own prescription I'm mostly off. But soon as a doctor writes me some oxy I'm going to town and begin a major ass hole to anyone that even tries to buy a pill off me. I'll price them suckers so high that no one in their right mind will even attempt to buy from me just so they'll leave me a lone.

I don't know, its a selfish high/thing. I'm just sick of playing the games and what it does to my friends. Why did so many people get turned on? :( If we could go back to the good old days I could still use without worrying about my sources suddenly going dry and jacking up the prices ever month 'cause some dope sick dumb ass will go over there and pay those insane prices. Not even worth the headache man.....
 
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