RhythmSpring
Bluelighter
Well, we both have quite unusual brains, but hers (my girlfriend) is perhaps more clearly unusual.
My girlfriend and I, both curious and slightly experienced in psychedelics (I more so) are contemplating doing either mushrooms or 2C-B together this summer.
I have experience with:
MDMA, Salvia, DMT, Iboga, Mushrooms, LSD, MDMA, Nitrous, Kratom, Ayahuasca.
She has experience with:
Salvia, DMT, LSD, Marijuana, 2C-E
We both love Salvia and hate LSD. I hate cannabis, she loves it. She loved 2C-E. I take a spiritual growth-approach to psychedelics, and she takes more of a pleasure-seeking (though it is deep pleasure and joy) attitude toward drugs. She does realize that there is a lot to learn about oneself and other people in altered states.
So why am I asking for advice?
For one, she's a super lightweight- one beer and she's tipsy, and the one time she did a half a tab of acid, she was up for 28 hours, the final 12 hours she was just waiting for it to end. Not only is her body sensitive, her mind is extremely open and sensitive. The things she normally experiences remind me very much of a typical mushroom experience.
She sees it all. She sees energy very clearly, on me and on other people. She sees animals, entities, parts of people. She sees colors, atmospheres. A room may have water running down its walls and have various species of birds flying around the ceiling. She says at one point she could see cells, muscles, bones, all very vividly. Sometimes she says she feels EVERYTHING, like the entire universe flowing through her, or like she is connected to everything, yet feels so small. She has a very active spiritual life to me, but she questions it and worries and thinks that it's just a lot of fabrication, and something is wrong with her brain.
On the other hand, she is literally one of the most competent people I know. She is a brilliant singer and songwriter, she is extremely socially apt, very, VERY intelligent (straight As on EVERYTHING), and to me, extremely lucid and logical, though she does get carried away with emotion with some things.
It's hard to say something is wrong with her, but it does seem that she already sort of lives in a psychedelic mindset. She sees lights I don't see, things often appear to bright for her, she's extremely sensual, and has a keen connection and appreciation for music. She is naturally aware of very important aspects of the universe. Love is her number one priority, and she has spoken wisely on a number of occasions about how to best utilize one's energy.
The instances of her altered perception and spiritual activity are too many for me to count. She is very very special, and i DON'T mean that in a negative way. She has a unique, powerful, beautiful mind that is a constant source of amazing beauty--she once said that every time I kissed her, she saw beautiful gardens grow in my room and on my walls--and also a source of torment--one night she hallucinated that our entire college campus had been reduced to rubble and that there were fires everywhere.
Her experience on 2C-E was a typical and mostly positive one. Acid was uncomfortable and destabilizing, but she handled it (with some of my help).
Why/how is her mind like this?
I've recently learned about her early childhood, and it seems like she was this bright and psychically sensitive and from the get-go, but there were a couple instances that have had an effect on her psyche.
She had a bad concussion as a kid (I forget what age, somewhere in between 7 and 13 yrs), and for a week or so she had almost no short term memory. Thankfully it came back.
Last year (she was 19), she totaled her car, and though she was not injured, she did get some neck whiplash (and she already had a sensitive neck) and it seemed to exacerbate things. Her vision began to falter (it would narrow, and it would be rainbow-like things that blocked her vision), the already vivid imagination/perception was kicked up a big notch, and she got severe headaches that eventually faded after a good 9 months. Occasionally a limb would go numb for a day or so, but that went away also. We were wary of any stroke signs. Today she is functional and very active, happy and in love.
I don't want to put forth an image of her as some kind of fragile person with a weird head. She's strong on all levels, independent, and one of the most genuine people I know.
For me, psychedelics are healing, door-opening injections of wisdom. On the one hand, psychedelic venturing (especially with mushrooms) might give her some insight or healing around this psychic opening about which she has so much fear and doubt. On the other hand, a psychedelic adventure might exacerbate something and it could be the opposite of what we want.
The situation is complex, so if you have any questions I'd be happy to clarify things.
My girlfriend and I, both curious and slightly experienced in psychedelics (I more so) are contemplating doing either mushrooms or 2C-B together this summer.
I have experience with:
MDMA, Salvia, DMT, Iboga, Mushrooms, LSD, MDMA, Nitrous, Kratom, Ayahuasca.
She has experience with:
Salvia, DMT, LSD, Marijuana, 2C-E
We both love Salvia and hate LSD. I hate cannabis, she loves it. She loved 2C-E. I take a spiritual growth-approach to psychedelics, and she takes more of a pleasure-seeking (though it is deep pleasure and joy) attitude toward drugs. She does realize that there is a lot to learn about oneself and other people in altered states.
So why am I asking for advice?
For one, she's a super lightweight- one beer and she's tipsy, and the one time she did a half a tab of acid, she was up for 28 hours, the final 12 hours she was just waiting for it to end. Not only is her body sensitive, her mind is extremely open and sensitive. The things she normally experiences remind me very much of a typical mushroom experience.
She sees it all. She sees energy very clearly, on me and on other people. She sees animals, entities, parts of people. She sees colors, atmospheres. A room may have water running down its walls and have various species of birds flying around the ceiling. She says at one point she could see cells, muscles, bones, all very vividly. Sometimes she says she feels EVERYTHING, like the entire universe flowing through her, or like she is connected to everything, yet feels so small. She has a very active spiritual life to me, but she questions it and worries and thinks that it's just a lot of fabrication, and something is wrong with her brain.
On the other hand, she is literally one of the most competent people I know. She is a brilliant singer and songwriter, she is extremely socially apt, very, VERY intelligent (straight As on EVERYTHING), and to me, extremely lucid and logical, though she does get carried away with emotion with some things.
It's hard to say something is wrong with her, but it does seem that she already sort of lives in a psychedelic mindset. She sees lights I don't see, things often appear to bright for her, she's extremely sensual, and has a keen connection and appreciation for music. She is naturally aware of very important aspects of the universe. Love is her number one priority, and she has spoken wisely on a number of occasions about how to best utilize one's energy.
The instances of her altered perception and spiritual activity are too many for me to count. She is very very special, and i DON'T mean that in a negative way. She has a unique, powerful, beautiful mind that is a constant source of amazing beauty--she once said that every time I kissed her, she saw beautiful gardens grow in my room and on my walls--and also a source of torment--one night she hallucinated that our entire college campus had been reduced to rubble and that there were fires everywhere.
Her experience on 2C-E was a typical and mostly positive one. Acid was uncomfortable and destabilizing, but she handled it (with some of my help).
Why/how is her mind like this?
I've recently learned about her early childhood, and it seems like she was this bright and psychically sensitive and from the get-go, but there were a couple instances that have had an effect on her psyche.
She had a bad concussion as a kid (I forget what age, somewhere in between 7 and 13 yrs), and for a week or so she had almost no short term memory. Thankfully it came back.
Last year (she was 19), she totaled her car, and though she was not injured, she did get some neck whiplash (and she already had a sensitive neck) and it seemed to exacerbate things. Her vision began to falter (it would narrow, and it would be rainbow-like things that blocked her vision), the already vivid imagination/perception was kicked up a big notch, and she got severe headaches that eventually faded after a good 9 months. Occasionally a limb would go numb for a day or so, but that went away also. We were wary of any stroke signs. Today she is functional and very active, happy and in love.
I don't want to put forth an image of her as some kind of fragile person with a weird head. She's strong on all levels, independent, and one of the most genuine people I know.
For me, psychedelics are healing, door-opening injections of wisdom. On the one hand, psychedelic venturing (especially with mushrooms) might give her some insight or healing around this psychic opening about which she has so much fear and doubt. On the other hand, a psychedelic adventure might exacerbate something and it could be the opposite of what we want.
The situation is complex, so if you have any questions I'd be happy to clarify things.
