oK SO i've been thinking about this alot. Not sure if this is the right thread for this kind of thing, as these are more of "theories" then "revelations" but this whole thing has been building me in me for the past few months, and I need to get it out.
So basically it all starts with a 5 gram mushroom experience about two months ago. Before this experience I guess i was pretty stereotypical in my drug use, I tripped every few weeks, using anywhere between 1-3.5 grams of mushies, 1-3 doses of lsd, you know, strong immersive experiences but looking back they were so shallow.
I was treating these gifts like toys, take a dose and have fun looking at the pretty colors for 12 hours but then it would never go farther then that, and i never gave a psychedelic experience a second thought. I mean the only thing me and my friends looked forward to was going to concerts or festivals and binging on psychedelics, but that being said I was completely missing a whole other, vitally important and completely unrelated aspect of the experience: That these things (psychedelics) were talking to me and I was not listening.
So what do I mean by that? Well lets go back to those 5 grams two months ago. Without writing a trip report know that this experience was the strongest, most completely immersive, overtly psychedelic few hours I've ever lived in my life. There was no mercy given to me, and for 5 hours or so mushrooms had their way with me and all I could do was lay there and take it. I have not taken an ayahuasca experience but I have smoked deemsters, at 50 mg, and I am being honest when I say these mushrooms blew that experience out of the water. During the peak, which was spent with eyes closed, I encountered several entities. One in particular was very memorable me. Why? Because I've encountered this particular entity several times before in my travels (on DMT and lsd respectively). Its hard to describe something so beautiful with words, not to mention it was constantly morphing, changing shape and pattern, geometrically in a way, but he was not made of the patterns as some entities I have encountered have been. It seemed to be this constant, albeit ever changing and evolving, fixed being in the middle of my vision that, I guess, "floated" there before me while behind him the scenery of stereotypical psychedelic patterns flowed to infinity.
It was during my encounter that "I" realized this was the mushrooms talking to me. You could call this stoned revelation the roughest draft of what I now believe to be the psychedelic experience. At the time, still coasting at +++ coming back from ++++, I thought this was how mushrooms had "evolved" into being able to have conversations with other beings. In fact, at the time, this made all to much sense for me. Humans have language which we use to converse with one another, why was it impossible that this was how mushrooms "talked" to us. I figured some kind of plant spirit, a spirit that survived life and death and probably had little to do with either, was contained in the mushrooms I just eaten. At the time this was the most beautiful revelation, that I was literally talking to, listening to, and conversing with mushrooms. I thought I had "figured" the psychedelic experience out.
Then I came back to reality. As beautiful as my thoughts were they didn't really mean anything in a sober state of mind, and in fact seemed to make no sense at all. But I was convinced, so I kept bouncing ideas off my mind hoping one would stick and make since, an idea that could somehow encompass the revelations of my last experience and explain the inconsistencies. For instance, if the mushroom "trip" was an all actuality a plant spirit conversing with me, then what explained psychedelic chemicals. LSD is in every way just a beautiful experience as mushrooms, but obviously there was no "plant spirit" contained inside a hit of blotter. Maybe since LSD was "derived" for ergot.... But no then what explains research chemicals? What plant spirit could possibly be in a substance as synthetic as 2c-e? What about synthetic psilocin, or 4-AcO-DMT?
Not to mention I'm a hardline atheist! How does the notion of a never living, never dying "plant spirit" fit into my preconceived notions of the world? Not very well... But still I was determined to figure it out. So I lost the idea of a "plant spirit" instead started looking at the chemistry of these things. My next best guess was that it all had something to do with 5ht2a receptor. The next theories I came up with made far more sense. I figured what psychedelics do is something to the 5ht2a receptor that allows these entites, that otherwise exist freely and on there own, to be seen felt, experienced by us. Obviously these things are NOTHING like "beings" we are use to in are normal life so all preconceived notions about what is and isn't possible for "being" and "Reality" in general becomes inconsequential for them. Its like we've all got these 5 senses, but some animals don't even have that. Just because these animals dont have taste buds, doesnt mean taste is non-existent everywhere. But because to that animal the idea of taste is as alien as the idea of a god in the sky, it could never comprehend the idea of taste. THAT being said imagine the animal has some taste bud receptors, but they are extremely sensitive and under normal circumstances 99% of the time taste would not be present. But imagine an activity could done that allowed this animals taste bud receptors to become more active, to experience taste....
SO i figured what must be happening is that this 5ht2a is somehow a doorway to allowing us to experience the 6th sense, or "the psychedelic experience". Now just like the animal with limited taste buds it is mostly impossible to experience the 6th sense. However even with non-substance including activities, such as meditation and sensory deprivations, the doors can partially be pried open, including intense entity contact, OEV's, CEV's, OBE's and NDE's. This has been going on all throughout human history and people have never had the correct knowledge to fully interpret the experience. I
n fact as I was learning the hard way, interpreting it just seems to muddy it....
