so this is how i described my trip...while still sort of tripping. i was on like hour 6 or 7 of it. after the peak but still pretty gone...
Anyways it's been beautiful and strange. In the woods I felt really spectacular. With our toes in the stream and my mind shimmering and flying through the leaves in the trees reaching up up UP towards the sky, I really felt like we were onto to something, you know? Like if only everyone realized that it was this easy. Life is as easy as walking through a forest with a friend. Things get so complicated out here in "society" and people always are looking for answers to questions they haven't even thought of yet. Everyone's running around frantic within their day to day activities, which cages and locks them in...in comfort though!
If only everyone knew it all was right there at their fingertips; everything they've thought, feared, hated, loved, wanted...it's all right here. Most people just loose the ability to see how wonderful and easy it all can be if you just eat a tab and take a walk. And said walk can be taken so many ways...literally, mentally, emotionally... Everyone comes to a point in their life when they must face the music and delve deep into themselves and the world and really take a look around. Some people are forced to do so, some people avoid it, and some like me are ready, eager and willing to see and explore every corner of the world...Every nook and cranny of our minds, and just ease into it. To flow with yourself and go beyond human measures of time and thought. And that is where I kind of lost it before. I had lost my sense of self without even realizing. One moment I was in the sun and trees feeling so connected and at one with everything, then the next minute I'm thrown back into normal society and had to just...deal! I experienced ego death I assume. I should've came home and grounded myself, but I was afraid, which is understandable. But now I know for next time that I am not homeless like that guy on Intervention we were watching, and no matter how out of my fucking mind I am I have a room that is my own space in this world to get myself together in. Next time I know to just come home when things blow cold, cloudy, and grey. Sitting home on my living room floor swinging my hair to the classic rock channel, and there's nothing more I want or need.
~Your perception is the one you have to live and die with, so what does anyone else's matter?~
that's a little quote i came up with while writing.
i then made the acid checklist which included little tidbits of things like:
~Know you can just go home and chill when it all gets too weird!
~Try to stay balanced! Even if I have lost my sense of self for the most part stay balanced, focused and clear and just take a few cool breaths of fresh air and look up to the sky!
~Just do YOU!! Don't worry about anyone else :]