mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
i'm thinking of checking myself in but killing myself isn't an option for me anymore i just could use the support idk if its a good idea to lie about wanting to kill myself




. The one time i was there for a total of maybe 5 hours was when i came out of jail and to be honest jail didn't scare me at all but the psych ward did. That combined with the fact that all they seem to do is dope you up with haldol, Thorazine/Largactil or risperdal and throw you in a room is the major reason Ive never checked myself in there. I need help bad as well because my bipolar is worse then it's been in ages so i can relate to wanting to end it all. I don't want to kill myself but it's hard to find a way out when all you can see is darkness. I self admitted so avoided being sectioned, which is the term used here when your rights are legally suspended and you can be held against your will but it amounted to the same thing.
i've been to 3 psych wards 9 years ago and i stayed 16 days at the first one 1 month at the second and 17 days at the thrid at the time i was pissed but i helped me grow up a lot and i learned just about everything there is to know about me so i'm just curious if in those 9 years theres something more to learn now