all right
so I
could take, say 1,5 and be fine as well, if im up for it? :D
i want a psychedelic experience yes, but as the same time be "safe"
also what are bad trips like? how would I handle them? what is the "worst" that can happen from them, realistically? (no stupid answers, please
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On bad trips: check here, there are subthreads on the questions you asked
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/120629-The-Big-amp-Dandy-Bad-Trip-Thread
I understand you want to try a psychedelic trip on mushrooms but want to avoid the risks. But you can't really have one without the other, and honestly that is fine. It is more about acceptation, being able to let go, or to take a leap of faith - put your faith in yourself, and the fact that you don't need to anxiously stay in control of everything to be okay.
Learning to trip means learning to handle the psychedelic amplifying how you feel and what you think, and to ramp up the feedback loops. Which can have you running around in circles in your head. The answers lie not in thinking the correct thing, but to just don't worry about it in the first place.
Worrying is not necessary, instead prepare well by learning the do's and don'ts - check out our resources, the Beginner's FAQ, our Index on relevant topics etc. Then follow the rules of set and setting properly, and trust that this is enough to be safe. Not being safe comes from doing something stupid like ending up participating in traffic while tripping etc. An example of a big don't.
If you pay attention on that kind of thing, you can avoid problems in the first place and the tripping itself is safe. Don't preoccupy yourself with fearful thoughts like some small chance that a complication happens. While perhaps true, you cannot live either thinking all the time about that chance that you might have a heart attack right? That is no way to live, even if it is fine to at one point read up on it on internet, but then leaving it be!
Not sure if considering the worst things possible too much in that panicky sense.. but one common theme I would say that is recurring for me when I use a good dose of a decent psychedelic, is that I am confronted by my own mortality, that I might believe that I am dying, and that I can even go through experiencing something like ceasing to exist and then being reborn, and having that happen a few times again after that.
In some Oriental religions it is believed that the art of dying properly is integral to living, it is a part of it and it should not be feared. For sure, tripping has made me look differently at it. I don't want to die any more than I used to, but I am more at peace with it being an unavoidable and natural thing.
The thing to remember here though, is that you don't really have to fear anything but fear itself. And that includes the whole dying thing I just mentioned.
Same principles about going crazy. Sanity can be impossible to prove - not only to others but also yourself... and having these new thought patterns may have you worried - some things may seem impossible and the conclusion may be that your mind is broken. Instead it is just temporarily tweaked a little bit.. You wouldn't be the first to be afraid to go nuts, or to never be the same again... i
In reality, yes it is dangerous to trip if you are mentally unstable or have an underlying condition (if there is a lot of say schizophrenia or other psychosis in your family be forwarned), but besides that the main point is that many trippers lapse into self fulfilling prophecies and (logical) fallacies aka thinking errors.
You can temporarily get openminded (after all your mind is expanded), but not having learned how to deal with this yet, it can be used the wrong way resulting in temporary loss of your healthy skepticism. You may believe things a little too easily then, and it can also change pretty quickly. It is just common to get quite volatile mentally, and extremely
open to suggestion.
Most of the things I mention here can be an issue with full strong doses of a psychedelic but will not be much of an issue on low doses. At low doses it will probably be limited to various flavors of 'weirdness' but nothing too fully developed.
If you see a theme here it is related to consciousness expansion. Which can have you reflect on things you never reflected on, and the escalation of that is seen as the issues I portrayed. Being new to all this adds to the impressionability.
I guess a lot of cases of bad trips are difficult experiences that even afterwards a person has not come to terms with. I'd say that a lot of trippers at some point get to see the difference. Most are just difficult experiences that can be huge lessons. Actual bad trips are just FUBAR pieces of shit with only tormenting horror.
Just take it one step at a time, and try to learn from other people's mistakes so that you can avoid making them. Most trips are fruitful either way in that they can help you grow as a person.
Maybe read this post again, for example that part about avoiding having too much difficulties happen too quickly, by reading about Set & Setting. And follow rules like: never combine a drug the first time you try it, and always start low with every new batch of every drug that you take, and slowly work your way up. Always know how much you are taking and what you are taking.
Further along the road, intense experiences will be hard to avoid - and you don't have to.. but badness you can avoid, by staying informed and responsible and careful.
Go dig and do research, you can't expect people to type up fresh versions of perennial questions every time