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pseudoephedrine (PSE) - 120mgs
alcohol - five glasses
pot - six hits total
nicotine - smoked, sublingual
3 weeks post-DXM
Sickness and Psychosis
~Foreward~
I have taken dextromethorphan polistirex several times this year, never more than twice a month. My last experience with this drug was early this month, you may remember my report: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=449525
Ever since then, sometimes when smoking pot and especially when combining it with alcohol, the DXM trip comes back. This happened in a powerful way early this morning.
I should also note that I'm on two meds for bipolar disorder: mirtazapine and lamotrigine.
~The Experience~
I started yesterday with 120 milligrams extended-release pseudoephedrine. It was a fine day, my energy was high and I felt quite happy. To me pseudoephedrine is a good, solid stimulant. I prefer it to stronger stims like meth, which I cannot tolerate. After taking care of business in town I came back home and had a few drinks with friends and family, smoking a hit of pot occasionally. It was all good with the laughing, talking, joking, drinking and smoking.
Before I knew it, the time was 2:30 am. Even without a stimulant I cannot really get to sleep when tipsy, so I opted to take another hit of pot and let the alcohol work its way through my system. I was feeling a tad nauseous also, so the pot really did seem like a good idea.
Just a hit, not even a choker.
Suddenly I started to become extremely dissociated in mind and body. The pot totally obliterated the "mental blinding" effects of the alcohol, and the pseudoephedrine reinforced this process. I was fully awake now. The alcohol buzz, combined with pseudoephedrine and pot, sent me straight into a fast-paced dissociative trip! I was having CEVs, strange disconnected thoughts, an altered body perception... the whole nine yards, basically.
My nausea had become worse after smoking the bud, not better. I had a spicy taste and feeling in my throat. My tobacco pipe had been depositing a bitter resin onto my tongue all night, although I hadn't noticed it for some time. It tasted like calea zacatechichi, or like yarrow if you've ever sampled that umbel. Water barely helped with this sick condition.
I became convinced that the DXM had indeed caused permanent changes in my brain. The pharmaceutical industry, along with the government and the media, they were all in on a big conspiracy together. "They" were using DXM to alter people's minds to make mind control possible. I had taken the wrong drug, and now "they" could listen to my thoughts and influence my behavior. I was having typical paranoid psychotic thoughts, yet I truly believed these things even though I desperately tried not to.
I was sorry I had brought this unwelcome experience upon myself, and began to breath deeply and meditate on the situation.
Then in my mind came the words from a Moody Blues album:
"There you go man. Keep as cool as you can. Face piles and piles of trials with smiles. It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave, and keep on thinking free."
I knew without a doubt that those words were made for people in my position, people who had somehow caught on to this system of mind control. I continued to breath steadily. In, out. In, out. I asked myself, "will you really be taking DXM again? Even after all the warning signs?" I just kept breathing steadily, telling myself that I was just too high, and if there is a disturbing part of my mind making itself present, to observe it without fear and to realize that ultimately, my mind is my own.
Throughout this time I had other intense, psychotic thoughts, none of them really rooted in reality. I chose to not be swept up in any of them for too long. Every time I would catch myself being afraid, I would breath steadily and let go of the disturbing thought.
I also saw the organic matrix with blue eyes that I mentioned in my last report. I somehow interpret this as a part of myself that has been damaged, but is growing nevertheless. Like trimming a plant and watching how it puts out a bunch of branches afterward.
When the spins subsided and I was sure I had worked through the most important parts of my trip, I went to bed. This was around 4:30 am.
~Final Thoughts~
I have had a lot of experiences with pot and alcohol. I knew these drugs before I knew DXM, and I knew what to expect from them. But now after having taken DXM many times, it seems like the quality of these experiences has changed dramatically. Cannabis will sometimes bring back the DXM trip. Pot mixed with alcohol is a sure bet. I *will* have a DXM-like trip every time I mix these two substances now. Adding pseudoephedrine to the mix intensified the experience many times, as did my accidental sublingual nicotine administration (the bitter tobacco resin, yuch).
These experiences aren't necessarily bad. They can be rough and disturbing, but so can life all by itself. At least my eyes are still on, and I'm not holding anything back from myself. Well, not that I know of
I hope that DXM hasn't changed my trips forever, but it's only been a few weeks since my last dose, so it's a little early to be worried. Maybe I simply learned the lessons that DXM has taught, and don't have actual brain damage. Please don't let it be brain damage
At this point I feel I've had enough DXM, and enough alcohol.
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alcohol - five glasses
pot - six hits total
nicotine - smoked, sublingual
3 weeks post-DXM
Sickness and Psychosis
~Foreward~
I have taken dextromethorphan polistirex several times this year, never more than twice a month. My last experience with this drug was early this month, you may remember my report: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=449525
Ever since then, sometimes when smoking pot and especially when combining it with alcohol, the DXM trip comes back. This happened in a powerful way early this morning.
I should also note that I'm on two meds for bipolar disorder: mirtazapine and lamotrigine.
~The Experience~
I started yesterday with 120 milligrams extended-release pseudoephedrine. It was a fine day, my energy was high and I felt quite happy. To me pseudoephedrine is a good, solid stimulant. I prefer it to stronger stims like meth, which I cannot tolerate. After taking care of business in town I came back home and had a few drinks with friends and family, smoking a hit of pot occasionally. It was all good with the laughing, talking, joking, drinking and smoking.
Before I knew it, the time was 2:30 am. Even without a stimulant I cannot really get to sleep when tipsy, so I opted to take another hit of pot and let the alcohol work its way through my system. I was feeling a tad nauseous also, so the pot really did seem like a good idea.
Just a hit, not even a choker.
Suddenly I started to become extremely dissociated in mind and body. The pot totally obliterated the "mental blinding" effects of the alcohol, and the pseudoephedrine reinforced this process. I was fully awake now. The alcohol buzz, combined with pseudoephedrine and pot, sent me straight into a fast-paced dissociative trip! I was having CEVs, strange disconnected thoughts, an altered body perception... the whole nine yards, basically.
My nausea had become worse after smoking the bud, not better. I had a spicy taste and feeling in my throat. My tobacco pipe had been depositing a bitter resin onto my tongue all night, although I hadn't noticed it for some time. It tasted like calea zacatechichi, or like yarrow if you've ever sampled that umbel. Water barely helped with this sick condition.
I became convinced that the DXM had indeed caused permanent changes in my brain. The pharmaceutical industry, along with the government and the media, they were all in on a big conspiracy together. "They" were using DXM to alter people's minds to make mind control possible. I had taken the wrong drug, and now "they" could listen to my thoughts and influence my behavior. I was having typical paranoid psychotic thoughts, yet I truly believed these things even though I desperately tried not to.
I was sorry I had brought this unwelcome experience upon myself, and began to breath deeply and meditate on the situation.
Then in my mind came the words from a Moody Blues album:
"There you go man. Keep as cool as you can. Face piles and piles of trials with smiles. It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave, and keep on thinking free."
I knew without a doubt that those words were made for people in my position, people who had somehow caught on to this system of mind control. I continued to breath steadily. In, out. In, out. I asked myself, "will you really be taking DXM again? Even after all the warning signs?" I just kept breathing steadily, telling myself that I was just too high, and if there is a disturbing part of my mind making itself present, to observe it without fear and to realize that ultimately, my mind is my own.
Throughout this time I had other intense, psychotic thoughts, none of them really rooted in reality. I chose to not be swept up in any of them for too long. Every time I would catch myself being afraid, I would breath steadily and let go of the disturbing thought.
I also saw the organic matrix with blue eyes that I mentioned in my last report. I somehow interpret this as a part of myself that has been damaged, but is growing nevertheless. Like trimming a plant and watching how it puts out a bunch of branches afterward.
When the spins subsided and I was sure I had worked through the most important parts of my trip, I went to bed. This was around 4:30 am.
~Final Thoughts~
I have had a lot of experiences with pot and alcohol. I knew these drugs before I knew DXM, and I knew what to expect from them. But now after having taken DXM many times, it seems like the quality of these experiences has changed dramatically. Cannabis will sometimes bring back the DXM trip. Pot mixed with alcohol is a sure bet. I *will* have a DXM-like trip every time I mix these two substances now. Adding pseudoephedrine to the mix intensified the experience many times, as did my accidental sublingual nicotine administration (the bitter tobacco resin, yuch).
These experiences aren't necessarily bad. They can be rough and disturbing, but so can life all by itself. At least my eyes are still on, and I'm not holding anything back from myself. Well, not that I know of
I hope that DXM hasn't changed my trips forever, but it's only been a few weeks since my last dose, so it's a little early to be worried. Maybe I simply learned the lessons that DXM has taught, and don't have actual brain damage. Please don't let it be brain damage
At this point I feel I've had enough DXM, and enough alcohol.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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