The questions you ask and the fact you have to ask for answers here is whole problem with the psychedelic movement...nobody uses them correctly. This is why psychedelics only have a less than 50% success* rate in facilitating a +4 when taken outside of a native culture
I totally "get" everything you said, and I really totally agree with you. Psychedelics are not properly used. Though I think you confuse what I'm asking. I'm not asking for you to tell me what my trip meant or to "ask for answers." I guess I should clarify. I'm asking what techniques people use to find answers in their experiences. The experience was so intense, and the results so astounding that I still do not know how or what really happened. Obviously I remember what I saw and felt though. I know I did not have a ++++ experience because everyone who has said they've gotten there said you know, there's no "I think I reached ++++."
You gotta remember though, it's great to talk about the abilities of natives to reach mystical levels, but not only do I not have access to mega doses like natives, but I also do not have the luxury of having a shaman around with me. I probably never will. I also do not have anyone who uses LSD in the same way as I do that is more experienced and can help me make sense of things. That's why I'm turning to BL, you guys are my shamans.
It has been 5 days since the trip, the entire next day I spent nearly the whole day doing zazen (I have done all day sittings when I lived at a Buddhist temple, so I really mean it) trying to unclutter my mind so I could understand better when I started to analyze. The day after that I spent nearly the whole day trying to remember everything and think about each thing, but I couldn't put some things together. Like I said, what are some techniques people use to piece together the meanings and such. I wish I could have written down my experience during my trip, but there was no way I could write.
Maybe, what are you looking for? What did your LSD trip fail to do? Look at it this way...the LSD was active? You described an out of body experience...that is something people who do not choose to use psychedelics (or do not know of them beyond the context of 'dangerous, illegal drugs') spend years learning to do....let's focus more on what happened last time before you go back for more...if it did not work the last time at such a high dose, I am not sure it would this time either without you changing your approach to the drug, and intentions
Like I said, the reason I want to try more is because the out of body experience and the nearly total synthesia was fleeting. I had to "let go" mentally. To let all the psychological walls in my brain melt away and fully experience the trip. When I was able to do it, it wasn't even tripping. It was something completely different. It was like going into a journey into another world. My intentions with taking more is to make it easier to get there. Obviously that may seem like a cop out, but I truly believe that LSD (and mescaline, my other spiritual friend) unlocks a part of the brain that simply cannot be unlocked otherwise. It is a key. I guess to use a metaphor: LSD - as a key - opened a door to this new dimension, but there was a still a door chain attached. So I could open the door, and peak in, but I couldn't get into the "room." If that makes any sense.
Also, could you be more specific about changing my approach to the drug, what are some better ways to focus on what happened, and what intentions? Cause it DID work, but I need help figuring out how to figure out what happened, I know... confusing, right. I also thing my approach and my intentions are the right ones, for me at least.
Be careful if you are doing high dose trips w/o a sitter, esp. if you are in "dark places".
This may sound so pretentious of me, and make me sound like a tool, but I'm VERY VERY experienced with psychedelics and I've never ever had an issue with them. I've never had a bad trip, and the "difficult experiences" I've had that people say are necessary to truly understand LSD have happened but never really turned things sour. LSD is for spiritual purposes only, I almost exclusively use them when I'm in a dark place because I never just do LSD to see what happens. It must call to me. It's weird. I'll be in a certain mindset, or a certain place, and I just know that it is time to see things from the other side. So, for me, trip sitters get in the way. I know, I know, terrible of me. When I did 600ug, I had a friend with me, and he was bored and he got in the way. Several times he had to pull me out of my trip to ask something of me as mundane as "I really need a cigarette, where are they." Trip sitters are either overbearing, annoying, or make me feel weird cause I'm tripping and they're not. A serious trip is for me to do in peace, and to not be bothered and frankly that just cannot be done with a sitter UNLESS they are a shaman or a more experienced user who is guiding me... but I have access to neither of those.
Oh, and I decided to do it with 600ug again, but I'm going to try and prepare a little better this time, find a way to unlatch the door chain without upping the dose. I've heard from a lot of people that when you get to the really high doses the differences aren't as big. So the difference between 600 and 800 is no where near as big as the difference between 100-300. Also, I really don't want to spend anymore money than I have too
Oh, and sorry for the ridiculously long post, I write for a living, so I tend to write really long posts.