distortedglass
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Hello, I've been lurking the site for a while but haven't created an account until today. If this is in the wrong forum I apologize.
Anyway to start off, me and my friends usually just drink and smoke bud and leave it at that. Around a year ago I became interested in psychedelic drugs, however I was unable to obtain any. Long story short I ended up looking into DXM. The first two times that I've taken DXM I took 365mg and had enjoyed it. The bodily sensations really interested me and I was very introspective. Anyway, me and my friend decided to take 365mg (the third time I've ever done so) on Halloween. This is where things started to go wrong. As I came up I was getting the most unbearable hot flashes I have ever felt, along with some vomiting (Yes I made sure the only active ingredient was Dextromethorphan HBR). Then when I peaked I experienced all the dissociated feelings it had always given me but stronger. Nothing much to mention here other than the fact that I handled it decently enough. As I came down however this is where things started to go wrong. At some point I fell into a kind of nihilistic thought pattern (I'm not nihilistic at all). I had an overwhelming feeling that everything in life is pointless and that when I die there's nothing. This scared me a lot at the time. After a long come down of sitting in my room staring at the wall I decided to try to fall asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night in a really paranoid state of mind and had to calm down by leaning in front of the toilet.
So then I wake up the next day and everything seems fine at first. Then I start feeling hot flashes as I go with my friend to get food and a large amount of anxiety ensues. I called out of work that day because I figured it was just some of the drug that hadn't left my system yet and that a day to recover would be beneficial. Well the next day it's just as bad as it was the day before and I start getting insanely worried that I may have gotten the wrong bottle somehow and that I had overdosed on acetaminophen or something of the sort. I called out of work this day too as it was too much to bear and hoped that I would recover the next day. That evening I spent time watching television with my parents and I managed to calm down for the most part and got over the paranoid thoughts about an overdose. After this I only dealt with minor feelings of anxiety the next day and then everything was back to normal.
Fast-forward to this past Wednesday night (November 12) I got pretty drunk and passed out nothing special. So I wake up the next day with a hangover and this hangover has elements reminiscent of my paranoia from the weekend before. As I was driving to my University at around 5pm I was freaking out of course in the car because I thought the feelings were coming back for good. I kept having to tell myself it was just the hangover and it would be gone sooner or later. Thankfully later that night it had ended. On Friday night I got into a little argument with my friend which gave me some anxiety and drank an energy drink shortly afterward. Now I start getting really anxious again and keep reminding myself it's just the caffeine and it'll be over soon. That night as I was sleeping I woke up many times during the night with some slight anxiety and didn't get good sleep at all. When I woke up that morning, it's like I re-winded back to the weekend after the DXM trip and had overwhelming feelings of anxiety all over again. In waves from then until now it would come really strong to the point where I thought I would explode. Feelings of hot flashes, major anxiety, a throat closing sensation, etc. are all evident again.
Well, now it's Tuesday evening and I'm still dealing with these symptoms, whereas the weekend of I was 95% better by Monday. This is really scaring me and I'm not sure what to do about it and was hoping some of you guys on here had dealt with similar experiences after a trip. Any moral support or advice is appreciated and thanks for taking the time to read this.
Anyway to start off, me and my friends usually just drink and smoke bud and leave it at that. Around a year ago I became interested in psychedelic drugs, however I was unable to obtain any. Long story short I ended up looking into DXM. The first two times that I've taken DXM I took 365mg and had enjoyed it. The bodily sensations really interested me and I was very introspective. Anyway, me and my friend decided to take 365mg (the third time I've ever done so) on Halloween. This is where things started to go wrong. As I came up I was getting the most unbearable hot flashes I have ever felt, along with some vomiting (Yes I made sure the only active ingredient was Dextromethorphan HBR). Then when I peaked I experienced all the dissociated feelings it had always given me but stronger. Nothing much to mention here other than the fact that I handled it decently enough. As I came down however this is where things started to go wrong. At some point I fell into a kind of nihilistic thought pattern (I'm not nihilistic at all). I had an overwhelming feeling that everything in life is pointless and that when I die there's nothing. This scared me a lot at the time. After a long come down of sitting in my room staring at the wall I decided to try to fall asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night in a really paranoid state of mind and had to calm down by leaning in front of the toilet.
So then I wake up the next day and everything seems fine at first. Then I start feeling hot flashes as I go with my friend to get food and a large amount of anxiety ensues. I called out of work that day because I figured it was just some of the drug that hadn't left my system yet and that a day to recover would be beneficial. Well the next day it's just as bad as it was the day before and I start getting insanely worried that I may have gotten the wrong bottle somehow and that I had overdosed on acetaminophen or something of the sort. I called out of work this day too as it was too much to bear and hoped that I would recover the next day. That evening I spent time watching television with my parents and I managed to calm down for the most part and got over the paranoid thoughts about an overdose. After this I only dealt with minor feelings of anxiety the next day and then everything was back to normal.
Fast-forward to this past Wednesday night (November 12) I got pretty drunk and passed out nothing special. So I wake up the next day with a hangover and this hangover has elements reminiscent of my paranoia from the weekend before. As I was driving to my University at around 5pm I was freaking out of course in the car because I thought the feelings were coming back for good. I kept having to tell myself it was just the hangover and it would be gone sooner or later. Thankfully later that night it had ended. On Friday night I got into a little argument with my friend which gave me some anxiety and drank an energy drink shortly afterward. Now I start getting really anxious again and keep reminding myself it's just the caffeine and it'll be over soon. That night as I was sleeping I woke up many times during the night with some slight anxiety and didn't get good sleep at all. When I woke up that morning, it's like I re-winded back to the weekend after the DXM trip and had overwhelming feelings of anxiety all over again. In waves from then until now it would come really strong to the point where I thought I would explode. Feelings of hot flashes, major anxiety, a throat closing sensation, etc. are all evident again.
Well, now it's Tuesday evening and I'm still dealing with these symptoms, whereas the weekend of I was 95% better by Monday. This is really scaring me and I'm not sure what to do about it and was hoping some of you guys on here had dealt with similar experiences after a trip. Any moral support or advice is appreciated and thanks for taking the time to read this.
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