So ive been about one month clean now from heroin, and ive been doing good cept im really having problems with triggers, like if my veins pop at all I instantly start cravin dope real bad, or whenever I see cotton or a spoon I just get really anxious and really think about using but ive been able to fight for now. But today me and my mom took my dog to the vet and turns out it has diabetes and now I have to give it insulin shots 2 a day. Like idk how the hell im gonna have needles in my house, let alone use the needles to shoot up my dog, and not use. Like just seeing my veins pop make me wanna use, idk how in the hell im gonna cope with actually usuing needles every day, does anyone have any good advice at all to fight the urge when you get triggered, any advice at all, cause idk how in the hell im gonna be able to shoot up my dog everyday and not get to point where I really wanna use
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Problem with triggers, 1 month clean?
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caseface99
Bluelight Crew
I'm really sorry to hear about this Luke. I can absolutely relate to the triggers - I started working out lately so my veins are coming back, and I constantly find myself looking at them, poking them, flexing and watching them pop out - often without even realizing I've been doing for a minute or two. The only thing I've been able to do is try and ignore it. As for giving your dog insulin shots every day, I'm not really sure what to tell you here, it's a really tricky situation.. ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Is there anybody that can do the shots for you, like your mother? I'm with you on this, I really don't see the situation ending well for you. I know I would start freaking out if I had to use syringes for something 2 times a day...
I know it's probably not what you want to hear, but if you can't figure out any other solution for this than you may need to consider giving up the dog. I can only imagine how difficult that may be and I'm not suggesting it lightly... But whats more important, having a dog or staying off dope? Because shooting dope will only lead to a situation where you can't take care of a dog anyway if it doesn't kill you. I really hope it doesn't come to this, but I just wanted to point it out as an option.
Best of luck!
Is there anybody that can do the shots for you, like your mother? I'm with you on this, I really don't see the situation ending well for you. I know I would start freaking out if I had to use syringes for something 2 times a day...
I know it's probably not what you want to hear, but if you can't figure out any other solution for this than you may need to consider giving up the dog. I can only imagine how difficult that may be and I'm not suggesting it lightly... But whats more important, having a dog or staying off dope? Because shooting dope will only lead to a situation where you can't take care of a dog anyway if it doesn't kill you. I really hope it doesn't come to this, but I just wanted to point it out as an option.
Best of luck!
Hey Luke and welcome to blue light
triggers get easier and easier every time we work through them. I had the unfortunate experience to develop type one diabetes literally right after I got clean and needed to use the same syringes I used to use. at first this was awful hard but in no time at all it got really easy and now its not a trigger at all.
I even used this theory to begin to work through as many triggers as I could find while I was in a safe place. I do not recommend this to people as it can have disastrous effects as you already know.. kinda funny thats how I found Bluelight though.. on my endless quest for triggers.
People have allot of ways that help them with triggers.. some seem to work better for certain people.. some of the common one are to tell someone right away, meditate or pray, realize its not permanent though it feals like it is, as its just a realy strong emotion and it will go away.. it just tries to make you think it forever.
A technique I used to great success was to make sure I had allot of dopamine kicking at all times. It can be a really good thing to keep a supply of small candies on you at all times.. sugar, fat, and salt all cause dopamine release and can be used to prevent and lessen cravings. Some other activities that cause natural dopamine releases and meditation or prayer, aerobic exercise, giving yourself credit for everything.. as soon as we say hey I just brushed my teeth thats quite the accomplishment, or I still sober look at how good im doing we get a little shot of dopamine.. so breaking your whole day down into easily accomplished tasks and then makeing sure you give your self credit for each and everyone is a great way to get a steady supply of dopamine.
The NA meetings are dopamine factories, self applause dopamine, hugs dopamine, recognition of clean time dopamine, prayer for those still suffering dopamine, successfully working through your problems and watching others do the same through speaking at a meeting dopamine.. sennse of belonging dopamine.. this is one of the reasons people often feal good after a meeting.
The way I was able to safely work through so many triggers on purpose is that I realized that being triggered and the craving is actually a powerful manipulation the brain tries to pull overt on us.. it say it will make us feal amazing and then it hits us with a memory that tries to prove its telling the truth.. it lies, it lies it ass off.. it sends us a little snap shot, just a sliver of memory from an instant the use of the drug made us feal great.. it leaves out the other 99.9% of use.. it never brings up how awful withdrawal is and how long it lasts, it never makes us remember the anxiety that is there 95% of the time.. it never whispers about how deal our souls feal, how we are often sick while "high" with headaches and upset stomachs, it never says how itchy it makes us feal, it never reminds us how , it never says it so wonderful it can almost kill our sex drive, it never whispers I will turn your life into one long boring progression of the same day over and over and you will spend all day everyday falling for my craving and chasing a high that you will never get and one that my just be a figment of the manipulation and never existed at all.. it doesn't say how actually in a little while you will feal better 95% of the time than you did 100% of the time while using. It never brings up the guilt, the shame, the deception, it never reminds you that it wants you to be its slave again.. it never says hey use and you can return to the compulsive on track mind that is pay for, get and use the shit over everything else..
I remember everytime I relapsed.. usually my first thought was you know what that was not how I remember it, that actually kinda sucked.. but then instead of getting a little break like it promised things are way werse than right before I fell for its shit..
another good thing to do is to flip the argument in your head.. usually the addiction just sits back and takes the reasons we give it not to use and spits them out as justifications to use.. so next time it says lets use.. instead of giving it a reason not to use.. ask it why we should use... there is no good reason to use a drug we are addicted to.. so instead of letting it ware you out.. let it start to where its self out.. all you need to do to call it on its lies is have a clear picture of how the drug really makes you feal through out the entire day.. you should hear some of the nonsense my addiction came up with as reasons to use.. utter desperate bullshit that made me laugh sometimes..
Your doing great keep at it.. call it on its bullshit and you wont get played..
triggers get easier and easier every time we work through them. I had the unfortunate experience to develop type one diabetes literally right after I got clean and needed to use the same syringes I used to use. at first this was awful hard but in no time at all it got really easy and now its not a trigger at all. I even used this theory to begin to work through as many triggers as I could find while I was in a safe place. I do not recommend this to people as it can have disastrous effects as you already know.. kinda funny thats how I found Bluelight though.. on my endless quest for triggers.
People have allot of ways that help them with triggers.. some seem to work better for certain people.. some of the common one are to tell someone right away, meditate or pray, realize its not permanent though it feals like it is, as its just a realy strong emotion and it will go away.. it just tries to make you think it forever.
A technique I used to great success was to make sure I had allot of dopamine kicking at all times. It can be a really good thing to keep a supply of small candies on you at all times.. sugar, fat, and salt all cause dopamine release and can be used to prevent and lessen cravings. Some other activities that cause natural dopamine releases and meditation or prayer, aerobic exercise, giving yourself credit for everything.. as soon as we say hey I just brushed my teeth thats quite the accomplishment, or I still sober look at how good im doing we get a little shot of dopamine.. so breaking your whole day down into easily accomplished tasks and then makeing sure you give your self credit for each and everyone is a great way to get a steady supply of dopamine.
The NA meetings are dopamine factories, self applause dopamine, hugs dopamine, recognition of clean time dopamine, prayer for those still suffering dopamine, successfully working through your problems and watching others do the same through speaking at a meeting dopamine.. sennse of belonging dopamine.. this is one of the reasons people often feal good after a meeting.
The way I was able to safely work through so many triggers on purpose is that I realized that being triggered and the craving is actually a powerful manipulation the brain tries to pull overt on us.. it say it will make us feal amazing and then it hits us with a memory that tries to prove its telling the truth.. it lies, it lies it ass off.. it sends us a little snap shot, just a sliver of memory from an instant the use of the drug made us feal great.. it leaves out the other 99.9% of use.. it never brings up how awful withdrawal is and how long it lasts, it never makes us remember the anxiety that is there 95% of the time.. it never whispers about how deal our souls feal, how we are often sick while "high" with headaches and upset stomachs, it never says how itchy it makes us feal, it never reminds us how , it never says it so wonderful it can almost kill our sex drive, it never whispers I will turn your life into one long boring progression of the same day over and over and you will spend all day everyday falling for my craving and chasing a high that you will never get and one that my just be a figment of the manipulation and never existed at all.. it doesn't say how actually in a little while you will feal better 95% of the time than you did 100% of the time while using. It never brings up the guilt, the shame, the deception, it never reminds you that it wants you to be its slave again.. it never says hey use and you can return to the compulsive on track mind that is pay for, get and use the shit over everything else..
I remember everytime I relapsed.. usually my first thought was you know what that was not how I remember it, that actually kinda sucked.. but then instead of getting a little break like it promised things are way werse than right before I fell for its shit..
another good thing to do is to flip the argument in your head.. usually the addiction just sits back and takes the reasons we give it not to use and spits them out as justifications to use.. so next time it says lets use.. instead of giving it a reason not to use.. ask it why we should use... there is no good reason to use a drug we are addicted to.. so instead of letting it ware you out.. let it start to where its self out.. all you need to do to call it on its lies is have a clear picture of how the drug really makes you feal through out the entire day.. you should hear some of the nonsense my addiction came up with as reasons to use.. utter desperate bullshit that made me laugh sometimes..
Your doing great keep at it.. call it on its bullshit and you wont get played..
Space Firebird
Bluelighter
That is seriously messed up!
I feel for you, man.
I feel for you, man.
w01fg4ng
Bluelighter
Why don't you just tell your mom about your triggers with the needle and tell her to hide them from you? I'm sure she wouldn't mind taking the responsibility of giving your dog medicine if she knows why you can't help.