ad lib
Ex-Bluelighter
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Yeah, I wanted to get cognitive behavioral therapy for a while. I really thought it would help me. I mean I'll probably still do it but I'm not as excited about it curing me anymore. I think I am just fucked regardless of therapy.
I just want to know what happened to me. I feel that if other people did 200mg of the same drug that I took, they would be fine in a week. I guess I really did start an underlying mental disorder. But why can't I ever get a good erection anymore even in my sleep? Shit man. I just don't know what happened.
you are not fucked. therapy can be a huge help. little by little it is helping me.
every persons brain chemistry is different. what may be okay for one person may not be okay for another. for example, take marijuana. i CANNOT consume it. if i do, i have hours upon hours of panic. other people take it and just relax, but not me. i take it and i feel like i am going to die because the panic is so strong. mdma just may not sit well with your brain chemistry. for a while i thought that by taking cannabis i triggered an underlying mental disorder, but then i realized otherwise that it just doesn't agree with me.
for now, just give your body and mind some time to heal. i don't want you to kill yourself. start therapy. try to stay away from the drugs. just give yourself some time to heal/overcome this.