Hello, my name is PoppyHaze. I am 32, and have been using things I shouldn't for about 18 years now. I have struggled greatly with opiate addiction, I have been on everything from methadone maintenance, to buprenorphine treatment, and anything in between. I have seen myself and my friends incredibly sick, and over the years have become a pro at withdrawal management, and have many legal, non harmful, home remedies to relieve some of the pain, discomfort, and temporary mental insanity that comes with it. I understand that it is one of the hardest things to quit, and I commend anyone that tries, whether they are successful or not, and have a great amount of empathy for those brave enough to try. I understand that we are not "losers", "junkies", nor "criminals", and we are only directly hurting ourselves. (Who we hurt indirectly is another story) Even thinking about getting help is a great start. If at first you don't succeed, don't beat yourself up. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, and for me it has been a repeating cycle. I have successfully (so far, as it is a daily battle) stopped using heroin for 8 months now. I am here looking for answers to some questions, and am very knowledge about a variety of substances, as I dedicated my 20's to trying whatever I could get my hands on. I reached the point about 8 months ago where I was sick of the never ending chase, and once and for all decided I needed heroin out of my life, as it was hurting me and my family in ways I was blinded to. I have been lurking here for months and finally decided to join. Thanks for having me.
