I totally agree with you on quite a few points. The worse for me is always the overall feeling of just not wanting to do anything at all. I would just want to melt into the bed! Also, I usually lost my appetite; not sure if this is ever an issue with you?
BTW, when this happens to you (having to go without till the next refill date), do you ever have the ability to taper down your dose at all? Personally, ss the end of the month would approach, I'd do a quick pill count to figure out how short I am and what I'll need to do to reduce my intake and make it till the next fill date. I've found that I can do a pretty quick taper and get down to next to nothing pretty fast if I have to. As odd as this may sound, when I'd be on higher doses I'd just as soon go cold turkey. Not too sure why but I think it has something to do with the fact that when taking that many pills, it was mainly for getting high, period. So, tapering didn't really work because if I was going to get high, I'd want it all! So, trying to take less was pointless! I just wouldn't have the willpower to pull it off. So, basically I'd just go headlong into the wall (i.e. take a bunch until I ran out). Then quitting was simple; no more pills = time to quit - end of story! Sorry for rambling a bit but basically I think at the level you're on; you'll be OK. Take it easy on yourself (don't beat yourself up for just laying around!) for the first couple days and then for the next few days, set some small goals to achieve and take it from there. Good Luck!