No, it's cool man. I liked the post.
I like the dandy detritus and spiffy, shiny pearls that surface up! You're swimming in deep waters!
(
Insert Jung anecdote about pearl diving vs drowning with a giant pearl)
Then, with a sober(ish) mind, you can always cull the herd and sift the whey and other cliches like that. If you want. It works!
Bring up a bunch of weird patterns, record them, and later, see what's 'useful'...(of course, dreaming is useful in itself)
I think Paul Krassner said he does something like that with Marijuana and his writing.
Gets high, writes a buncha stuff, edits the crap out of it the next day.
Whatever...
Anyways, subjective vs objective reality is a deep, deep, deeeeeeeep issue.
Probably trying to think objectively while in the throes of a severely subjective experience may be like trying to sleep on coffee or swim upstream.
'The right tool for the the right job' and all that.
I tend to focus more on the objective. Sometimes too much. I cringe at 'solipsism' (?) a lot of times.
The idea that you can create your mood
completely. And can be happy
anywhere... under any circumstances?
In general, I think people who espouse that have never seen the inside of a jail cell for any length of time.
Or been waterboarded or whatever. Even Jesus, supposedly, cried out asking God why he had forsaken him.
(Depends on the version of events) But, most people don't have that much control over their minds.
Especially nowadays with all the stimulus and distractions outside our minds. 'The Shallows' N. Carr.
blah blah blah.
So anyways, happiness is finding the perfect mix. The balance (of course).
Inside / Outside.
Accept / Change.
Those four simple words have served me well as a sort of compass for figuring out 'problems'.
~ Is it inside me? Is it outside me? Can I change it? How?
And...
~ Is it even a 'problem'? Can I accept it? Should I accept it? How?
As far as preloading and all that.
I got distracted with
this book...but I think I'm going to have to delve deeper into psychopharmacology
to get at what happens once Psilocin activates the 5-HT receptor.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/5-HT_receptor
And you know, there may just not be an answer at this point.
Science is still in it's infancy when it comes to the brain, I think.
Especially the interaction with illicit substances. How will a corp make any money off that?
You know what? Nevermind, I don't wanna know! heh heh.
So, that dearth of data means more fun for scientists, maybe, but more waiting for us.
Oh well, I'll keep looking...
That's all for today!
Peace.