Girl calm down
You have stopped plenty early! You have a lot on your plate: sounds like a small child, a Very young widow, and a small mental heath situation that you and Dr are trying to manage.?
So tapper back down to 100mgs ( remove one pill everyday or two) I Always slow the train down before I ever try to jump off of it , works every time . Talk Honestly about all your issuse with your dr and what you need to accomplish , for you and your child. It may be a slow uptake to get you to the comfort level you want and need ( But Patience Grasshopper)