I was on bupe maintenance, recently down to stable at .4 to .8 mg per day – did a day at .2 and jumped 3 days ago. When I jumped I was at about 10 mg diazepam per day and decided “I’m done with bupe – start the benzo taper and get off those too”. So on day one on no bupe I went down to 5 mg diazepam (I felt like a real tough guy at the time for some reason). A day later I was in w/d (as I had expected), heavier than previous days (as I had expected). Vivid dreams, light/fragile sleep (or no sleep), shitting machine – like I was hooked up to a horse laxative IV. When I was not occupied with work I couldn’t do anything but pace or sway or rub my hands together. I’ve been in w/d before but I’m not sure how much of this is from the bupe jump and how much is from the diazepam taper. Yesterday I decided to take 600 mg pregabalin instead of the 5 mg diazepam. I have only seen one equivalency comparison between the two and it was 600 mg pregabalin = 40 mg diazepam (I’m not sure how reliable that info is). At any rate, I felt and slept fine. No shitting every 30 minutes, no w/d feelings. I was a little loose from all that pregabalin but other than that I felt good.
So here is the question: if pregabalin removes all of the benzo and opiate w/d and cravings (for me, at least) would it be a good idea to taper down from 600 pregabalin, then switch to gabapentin, taper to low doses of that and then finish off with LOW doses of diazepam - like 2.5 mg every 3 days (option 1). Or am I just trading monkey for monkey? By starting off at 600 mg pregabalin is it just like jumping back up to 40 mg diazepam per day?
Option 2 is to just try to get stable on 5 mg diazepam per day then taper down from that (maybe invest in some Imodium) but I know that feels like hell. But my gut tells me that if it doesn’t feel like hell then you’re not kicking properly.
Option 3 is to admit the bupe w/d needs to work itself out and to get stable on 10 mg diazepam with zero bupe. But part of me thinks “option 3 is just an excuse to keep popping 10 mg of valium every day”. Other than the mentioned substances I do about 350 mg carisoprodol and 50 mg diphenhydramine to (try to) sleep. Although when I did the 600 mg pregabalin I did not need that to sleep and slept better than ever.
Option 4 is to jump immediately and deal with the seizures.
Option 5 is to return to using opiates every day and become a fucking zombie again.
So here is the question: if pregabalin removes all of the benzo and opiate w/d and cravings (for me, at least) would it be a good idea to taper down from 600 pregabalin, then switch to gabapentin, taper to low doses of that and then finish off with LOW doses of diazepam - like 2.5 mg every 3 days (option 1). Or am I just trading monkey for monkey? By starting off at 600 mg pregabalin is it just like jumping back up to 40 mg diazepam per day?
Option 2 is to just try to get stable on 5 mg diazepam per day then taper down from that (maybe invest in some Imodium) but I know that feels like hell. But my gut tells me that if it doesn’t feel like hell then you’re not kicking properly.
Option 3 is to admit the bupe w/d needs to work itself out and to get stable on 10 mg diazepam with zero bupe. But part of me thinks “option 3 is just an excuse to keep popping 10 mg of valium every day”. Other than the mentioned substances I do about 350 mg carisoprodol and 50 mg diphenhydramine to (try to) sleep. Although when I did the 600 mg pregabalin I did not need that to sleep and slept better than ever.
Option 4 is to jump immediately and deal with the seizures.
Option 5 is to return to using opiates every day and become a fucking zombie again.
