Potential Life Changing effects of DXM

[GordonFreechmen]

Hi I tried DXM this weekend, and as you probably know some strange things went through my head. I got no real hallucinations, and mild close eye visuals. However I did get trails on objects when I looked around. I got blurry vision at times, and had definite double vision at other times. Reading was very hard, the letters overlapped each other. The main high I think came from the body load. I was smoking marijuana at the time so that could have increased the body load, I know that for sure, however this was some pretty sativa dominate stuff that doesn't cause any body load otherwise. The effects of the body load were feeling slightly heavier, I am used to that though so it wasn't a big deal. Extreme dizziness when moving, and my whole body just feeling out of wake when I walked around. I had to actively try to walk properly. There were strong feelings of Euphoria the entire time, I really enjoyed that part. It seemed that even with marijuana my mind was clear. Not as clear as it could be, but a lot more than when I just smoke pot. These affects all seemed pretty fun.

Now the effect that surprised me the most a realization I had come to. I had started to smoke weed after I heard my dad was still doing it, and thinking about that on the drug made me realize that a lot of things I do are to mimic him. I grow my hair out, and he used to. I dress in a similar fashion to him. I listen to similar music. Now I understand that I do like these things as well, but the realization that I had just been doing what he did. I took welding and enjoyed it after I heard he liked it, the list goes on. It felt like part of my life was just a lie. It wasn't my real self. Now granted I do at least think I like this stuff, but there were so many things it seemed like I only did because he did them, and I had never thought about it like that before. Then I realized something else he is an asshole. Now I don't want to brag you all don't know me (no offense) I certainly am not trying impress you or anything when saying this, but I am generally a nice guy, I don't think I am an asshole.

Now that being said I don't know where to go from here. I also learned that I really hate school, and that I would be happier dropping out of college and getting a job. I realized also that I still think life sucks, I don't like the concept of working 9 to 5 at least 5 days a week. Now some of what I realized I already knew at least to some extend, but there seem a lot more clear now, and I am at a point where I really don't know what to do with my life. For the first time I don't have the slightest clue. I don't want to go to college, I don't want to stay home all day, and I don't want to work a full time job. I am not asking for answers to those questions I know I need to think on those more, and it isn't really good to base my life on something I came up with on drugs, without taking the time to think about it sober first.

My question is, is this sort of thing common on these types of drugs? Even on LSA, I get dissociative feelings, or at least I believe I do. And even some times on weed I get dissociative feelings. Those are the three major ones I have been on. The next part is, is DXM easier to remember without marijuana? I seem to have a very hard time remembering what happened throughout the trip. I can remember parts of it of course, that much is clear. I can remember most of what I saw and felt physically, probably because those were persistent. I can't remember all the thoughts I had though. Only the things that were really important. Funny thing is, even though I am a lot more confused now I feel content and happy. A very slight feeling of euphoria. Also it is the first time in several weeks that I don't want to go smoke pot. I am actually enjoying the feeling of being sober, so all and all I say it was a good thing, albeit very confusing.

Should also mention I took 354mg of DXM on Saturday with marijuana. And 708 the following day. The second day felt weaker. I know it isn't a good idea to do two times in a row, and don't plan on it again. I think it was so new, and I had so many thoughts rushing through my head that even though I was sober when I took the second dose I wasn't thinking straight. The amount of weed I took was about 4-5 grams the first night. I know it is very excessive. I didn't even realized I was smoking so much. I enjoyed smoking on DXM, and couldn't think straight so I just smoked more. The second day I had a lot less, probably not even a gram. I don't plan on smoking for the rest of the week now though so I don't care about how much I lost in this case, though it still seems like a big waste. I don't think it helped the experience much at all.

 

[Crashing]

DXM is amazing.. For some people. It sounds like you had a mild, albeit effective experience. These alternate viewpoints that you experienced concerning your own habits and desires in life are often what I search for with drugs, and DXM is certainly able to provide such insight. It seems like you're getting a little taste of the mentality of the subculture, meaning 'school sucks,' 'work sucks,' etc.. It certainly sounds like your experience was productive, but it will take time to integrate it. DXM and other dissociative are especially known to bring the user farther from sociological ideals and begin to develop his/her own, more sensical approach to life. Quite frankly, in simplest terms, this is often seen as an unhealthy mindset because it leads to what society would call 'druggie' type behaviors, such as skipping school, not caring about the more valued things in society. I personally think these types of experiences strengthen our inner selves but we need to try and find balance between living out our own beliefs and still making a living. I'm glad you had the experience though, it seems like it was productive. Now proceed with your heightened awareness.

 

[GordonFreechmen]

Thank you, I agree we need to find a balance between our lives and making a living, and it is good you pointed that out. I think what would be best for me is to find a job where I can make a living working 4 days a week. I think that is what would make me the most happy. One thing is for sure though, I don't plan on taking it the day before school again. I have done LSA the day before school, and the same with DXM now. Every time I take it the day before school I need to skip a day to recover. I hadn't actually thought about this while taking LSA, but for some reason DXM made me realize it. Got a rough road ahead this semester. I have missed more than a few days. In honestly because of Drugs. And I know society would look down on me for that. I just haven't gotten the hang of it yet, I can always repeat these classes though if anything dose happen. So it isn't too big of a deal. Thanks for your help.