managed to stumble upon this thread, figured id contribute in a way.
an acquaintance of mine and a friend of several of my friends OD'd on a combo of Xanax and alcohol, possibly other pills only about a month ago. lived alone, and wasn't found until 3 days later. his name was mason and he was 20. from what I saw he was one of the nicest, funniest, and most down to earth dudes anyone could ever meet.
it sucks because many of my good friends are wayyy to heavy into drugs. I just have a strong feeling that its going to happen to them some day soon. one of my buddies is heavy into opiates and prescription meds and I haven't seen him for a while, makes me worried a bit.
also, i have a strong feeling that my best childhood friend in the world since i was 4 years old in little league is going to OD soon or kill himself. been through several rehab sessions and relapses with heroin, crack, coke, pcp, etc.. and hes now in jail for second degree burglary or something on those lines. honestly am glad he is in jail since it will hopefully keep him away from that crazy shit for good. been doing that shit since he was no older than 13 or 14. crazy...
i have a near overdose story where i took too much of a mislabeled batch of LSD which was really a DOx or BDF, and took a few pts of molly as well. was sitting in a corner for 1-2 hours convulsing, felt cold everywhere (likely hyperthermia), and couldn't feel my arms or legs. also was throwing up and what not. somehow made it out of that only to have my current best bro (alcoholic) call me talking about jumping off of an 8 story roof. talked him out of it luckily, but it all just hits heavy. 2 days later i was still tripping and losing feeling in my legs so i had to check myself into ICU, where i would see flashes of literal hell every time i closed my eyes. This was back in September, and has had a very long lasting impact.
All this shit really just makes me realize how close I actually was to dying myself. I was really into coke for about a year+ (first tried at about 15, but got really into it around xmas time a year ago), MDMA, LSD, and pretty much would take anything i could get my hands on. In crazy combinations and dosages too. Luckily I've been clean off of everything except occasional weed and drinking for 6 months. the path to that has been hell, but lately ive been happier than ever. to all of those that are having an awfully hard time coming clean, just know that time will heal, and you will feel much better when the moment passes. your life is not worth a few hours of being high.
RIP to those lost.