Post Addiction & Rehab & Relapse

jaggedpills

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So I was addicted to about 4 things. Then I got clean. Now I have drifted far from sobriety (which im entirely fine with) but things hit me quicker & feel very differant than before. Why?
 
I think we need more info before we can give any useful answers. Is it drugs which hit you harder than before? Life situations? And in what way do they feel different?
 
It's an article of faith around here that you can never recapture the feeling of your first time around with a drug. It's possible the reason life seems harder to handle is because the drugs aren't offsetting the stresses in your life to the same extent they did before.

And the drugs could be hitting you faster because being clean for a while dropped your tolerance.
 
should i take more or switch to something new? i want the effect & to be able to grin & bear it, but this just isnt cutting it
 
so you are using again and you are fine with that?

when you quit, it is important to find something else in life that you find worthwhile. something good to fill your days with. if you go from doing nothing important to you but drugs, to nothing important to you at all, it can make drugs seem better than sobriety.

getting off is more than just quitting. you have to re-structure your life and take back what drugs took from you, or create something new if you did not like what you had before or if it is impossible to get back to it.

life may seem harder because when you tried both drugs and then sobriety without positive results, you may have lost some hope for life. even worse, maybe you did not have a lot of hope for life before you started drugs. that would make things even harder, because you have no template for happiness.

it is so much harder than just quitting. despite how the anti-drug propaganda presents it, drugs rarely ruin a picture perfect life. not only do you have to fight for sobriety, but you also have all the other struggles of life to battle.

life's hard. i'm pretty sure it is worth it though.
 
should i take more or switch to something new? i want the effect & to be able to grin & bear it, but this just isnt cutting it

What effect are you seeking from the drugs? Depending on the combination of drugs you're taking and the effect you're seeking, the folks over at BDD might be able to be more helpful than we can.
 
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