so you are using again and you are fine with that?
when you quit, it is important to find something else in life that you find worthwhile. something good to fill your days with. if you go from doing nothing important to you but drugs, to nothing important to you at all, it can make drugs seem better than sobriety.
getting off is more than just quitting. you have to re-structure your life and take back what drugs took from you, or create something new if you did not like what you had before or if it is impossible to get back to it.
life may seem harder because when you tried both drugs and then sobriety without positive results, you may have lost some hope for life. even worse, maybe you did not have a lot of hope for life before you started drugs. that would make things even harder, because you have no template for happiness.
it is so much harder than just quitting. despite how the anti-drug propaganda presents it, drugs rarely ruin a picture perfect life. not only do you have to fight for sobriety, but you also have all the other struggles of life to battle.
life's hard. i'm pretty sure it is worth it though.