For the past two or three years, I have just been getting the cold nonstop. Or something. I don't usually get the flu (maybe once a year?). But I have a cold like two or three times a month. And this has been going on for years.
It started getting really bad last summer. It was when I first started seeing my boyfriend and I'd work full time Mon-Fri and then I'd see him on the weekend (drive to his place on Friday and stay til Sunday) because he lived a while away from me and staying with him on the weekend was lots better than staying with my parents.
Anyway, I noticed then that I was always sick on the weekend. I would be tired and have no energy and sniffing and stuff. Now, we kissed and everything and he never got sick from me!
I did get tonsillitis last summer which results in me getting these antibiotics I think which resulted in me breaking out in a rash (covered my WHOLE body ... bottom of my feet, eyelids, ears, everything). Brutal. So I stopped taking them and took this steroid type medicine and for a while which helped the rash go away I guess.
My one idea is that the tonsillitis never went away. I don't know much about tonsillitis though or if that is even possible.
It's just, it's like, I'm always tired. I get the right amount of sleep, too much, too little ... doesn't matter. I'm always exhausted. It is really ruining my life. I just got another cold right now I think. I slept for like nine hours last night. I was up for like five hours and ready for bed again! It sucks.
If you say it's drugs, I want to say, I didn't start using drugs til November. And not a lot until January. This all started last May. While I'm sure drug use doesn't help, I am positive that it wasn't part of me starting to get sick.
I'm sure I could stop using drugs. BUT using MDMA or coke is one of the only times when I'm not tired and exhausted. I *can* go out and have a good time. And it's nice.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm always just so "bla". I want to *do* something with my life but I don't have the energy or motivation anymore. Well I haven't for a while. But I remember in high school, I had goals and stuff, and I was tired sometimes but I had energy too other times.
Ugh.
Another one of my many problems. I'm such a mess.
It started getting really bad last summer. It was when I first started seeing my boyfriend and I'd work full time Mon-Fri and then I'd see him on the weekend (drive to his place on Friday and stay til Sunday) because he lived a while away from me and staying with him on the weekend was lots better than staying with my parents.
Anyway, I noticed then that I was always sick on the weekend. I would be tired and have no energy and sniffing and stuff. Now, we kissed and everything and he never got sick from me!
I did get tonsillitis last summer which results in me getting these antibiotics I think which resulted in me breaking out in a rash (covered my WHOLE body ... bottom of my feet, eyelids, ears, everything). Brutal. So I stopped taking them and took this steroid type medicine and for a while which helped the rash go away I guess.
My one idea is that the tonsillitis never went away. I don't know much about tonsillitis though or if that is even possible.
It's just, it's like, I'm always tired. I get the right amount of sleep, too much, too little ... doesn't matter. I'm always exhausted. It is really ruining my life. I just got another cold right now I think. I slept for like nine hours last night. I was up for like five hours and ready for bed again! It sucks.
If you say it's drugs, I want to say, I didn't start using drugs til November. And not a lot until January. This all started last May. While I'm sure drug use doesn't help, I am positive that it wasn't part of me starting to get sick.
I'm sure I could stop using drugs. BUT using MDMA or coke is one of the only times when I'm not tired and exhausted. I *can* go out and have a good time. And it's nice.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm always just so "bla". I want to *do* something with my life but I don't have the energy or motivation anymore. Well I haven't for a while. But I remember in high school, I had goals and stuff, and I was tired sometimes but I had energy too other times.
Ugh.
Another one of my many problems. I'm such a mess.