footscrazy
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You're making progress there. It's a good effort to halve your dose and maintain on that for two weeks, so you should definitely give yourself credit for that.
My experience has been that pst can be a good lot stronger than it sometimes gets credit for - I think being quasi legal it sometimes gets lumped in with codeine as a mild or 'soft' opiate, but it can throw a heavy punch. I've had good effects off pst when my tolerance is at a level I can't feel 80-100mg of oxy, which leads me to believe that some batches can provide a fairly solid dose of opiate alkaloids. I'm not too surprised your tolly is too high to feel codeine though it's unlucky you're not even getting some wd relief from it. By any chance do you use grapefruit juice with your pst? Grapefruit juice will negatively effect the conversion of codeine.
You might find it helpful to write down your motivations for quitting; I find it's really easy to lose sight of why I want to stop sometimes, and what I want to achieve gets really unclear and pointless looking. That's when it's really easy to convince yourself that using a bit more to catch a high once won't really matter, or that there's actually no reason to taper at all. Sometimes writing it down can help you regrasp all the reasons why you chose to start tapering, and give you that little bit of motivation to keep going. Also, if I find myself becoming unsure of whether I actually want to stop, I find it sometimes helps to remember that I wouldn't have put myself through all the shit of tapering and withdrawals and so on, if I didn't really want to. Sometimes you just have to trust the decision you made back then, even if you can't fully relate to it when you're feeling sick and down. You do sound like you've got a strong will though, maintaining your halved dose over two weeks shows that.
All the best.
My experience has been that pst can be a good lot stronger than it sometimes gets credit for - I think being quasi legal it sometimes gets lumped in with codeine as a mild or 'soft' opiate, but it can throw a heavy punch. I've had good effects off pst when my tolerance is at a level I can't feel 80-100mg of oxy, which leads me to believe that some batches can provide a fairly solid dose of opiate alkaloids. I'm not too surprised your tolly is too high to feel codeine though it's unlucky you're not even getting some wd relief from it. By any chance do you use grapefruit juice with your pst? Grapefruit juice will negatively effect the conversion of codeine.
You might find it helpful to write down your motivations for quitting; I find it's really easy to lose sight of why I want to stop sometimes, and what I want to achieve gets really unclear and pointless looking. That's when it's really easy to convince yourself that using a bit more to catch a high once won't really matter, or that there's actually no reason to taper at all. Sometimes writing it down can help you regrasp all the reasons why you chose to start tapering, and give you that little bit of motivation to keep going. Also, if I find myself becoming unsure of whether I actually want to stop, I find it sometimes helps to remember that I wouldn't have put myself through all the shit of tapering and withdrawals and so on, if I didn't really want to. Sometimes you just have to trust the decision you made back then, even if you can't fully relate to it when you're feeling sick and down. You do sound like you've got a strong will though, maintaining your halved dose over two weeks shows that.
All the best.