poppy seed tea - first time - underwhelming
I'm highly experienced with psychedelics, pot, dissociatives, and some stimulants (in extreme moderation), but have never had much luck with opiates. I've smoked opium (which I'm highly confident was real) a few times, and it's ranged from doing nothing at all to making me feel a little bit of enjoyable warmth and distance and then fall asleep. Several months ago, I also drank what I was told was laudanum (500mg opium dissolved in alcohol) and all it did was make me feel dissociated, irritable, and sleepy.
Still curious about what full-on opiate effects were like, I went to a natural foods store and bought poppy seeds in bulk - I wanted a full pound, but they only had .7lbs, so i figured I'd stick with that for the first time, since I didn't know their potency. I avoided grapefruit juice/other enzyme inhibitors for the same reason - I tend to be cautious when trying new substances, and wanted to get a sense of how the seeds on their own would affect me.
I put them in a juice bottle with about half a liter of room-temperature water and shook it on and off for about 20min. Then i squeezed the liquid out through the lid and added some lemon.
9:30pm: Started drinking the tea slowly. Pleasantly surprised to find that the taste was hardly bad at all - the lemon covered it well.
10:40pm: Finally finished the glass. I felt a little bit different, but the feeling was hard to characterize or distinguish from the remnants of the marijuana I'd smoked earlier in the day. I decided to smoke more pot to potentiate the high, but then I just felt stoned, so I poured more water into the seed bottle to make another batch. I got a phone call while I was shaking it, so I ended up just letting it sit around for about 30min with hardly any shaking to avoid making suspicious noise on the phone.
11:30pm: Started drinking the second batch, slowly. This one tasted worse than the first one - maybe it was more potent?
12am: i definitely feel something now, but it's not the warm fuzzy euphoria I was expecting (based on others' reports and extrapolations from my smoked opium experiences). My body felt strange and a little bit tingly, and I was finding it hard to concentrate on the webdesign work I'd planned to complete that night. I quickly downed the rest of the second cup of tea, figuring that I was starting to come up and that a little more might push me over the edge into a full-on high. I also ate a shitload of green tea ice cream because I had the munchies from the pot I'd smoked.
1am: my inability to concentrate intensifies. It doesn't feel like the distractability of amphetamines; instead, it reminds me of trying to complete a reading assignment for school while extremely tired. My eyes won't stay focused on anything (this reminds me of high-dose GHB) and i feel dazed and out of it, stupefied, like I'm having trouble holding onto coherent consciousness. Music sounded uninteresting and I didn't even really notice when I reached the end of my playlist. I felt 'fucked up' in a very generic and unpleasant way. I hoped my housemate didn't come home 'cause I didn't feel like I could interact with him well. I checked my pupils - they weren't pinpoints or anything, but were excessively constricted given the darkness of the room.
2am: I decide that I need to get up and move around to dredge myself out of my stupor, so attempt to work on a sewing project. As I got up, I suddenly got hit with a wave of nausea and ran to the bathroom and puked. I smoked more pot in an attempt to curb further nausea.
3am: Work on sewing for a bit. I felt less stupefied, but still not great - I feel like I'm a robot mechanically performing various tasks without active enjoyment. Still kind of numb and disconnected, but music starts to get a little more interesting...
3:45am: Sewing machine was fucking up, so I decided to go to bed. Unfortunately, I got nauseous again and tried to puke, but only dry heaved.
4am: I put on some minimalist electronic music and decided to do some nitrous before passing out. I did a single cartridge first and had a very cool nitrous trip - I felt more lucid and more physically grounded than normal (kind of like doing nitrous while on MDMA), a warm fuzzy euphoric buzz spread through my body, and I was able to analyze the thought-chain that unfolded for me with unusual clarity during the high.
I'd planned to do a double balloon after that, but I felt so sleepy and fuzzy that I just passed out instead.
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So I'm confused. I always figured that I'd like opiates if I could just get a high enough dose, but this time I dosed enough to make me puke and still didn't have much fun. I was numb, but not in a comfortable way. Only when I did the nitrous did I feel like I was in a state anything like the states that others seem to attain with opiates. Hmm...
I've heard that puking is fairly common and that some people don't enjoy their first experiences for that reason, but is it common to just feel deadened, blank, and unpleasantly dazed without a trace of euphoria?
I'm starting to think that I should just give up on opiates, that they aren't well-suited for me...but if any seasoned users have any advice about what I should've done differently (or have had similar early experiences and still gone on to love them), please let me know.
Thanks for reading.
I'm highly experienced with psychedelics, pot, dissociatives, and some stimulants (in extreme moderation), but have never had much luck with opiates. I've smoked opium (which I'm highly confident was real) a few times, and it's ranged from doing nothing at all to making me feel a little bit of enjoyable warmth and distance and then fall asleep. Several months ago, I also drank what I was told was laudanum (500mg opium dissolved in alcohol) and all it did was make me feel dissociated, irritable, and sleepy.
Still curious about what full-on opiate effects were like, I went to a natural foods store and bought poppy seeds in bulk - I wanted a full pound, but they only had .7lbs, so i figured I'd stick with that for the first time, since I didn't know their potency. I avoided grapefruit juice/other enzyme inhibitors for the same reason - I tend to be cautious when trying new substances, and wanted to get a sense of how the seeds on their own would affect me.
I put them in a juice bottle with about half a liter of room-temperature water and shook it on and off for about 20min. Then i squeezed the liquid out through the lid and added some lemon.
9:30pm: Started drinking the tea slowly. Pleasantly surprised to find that the taste was hardly bad at all - the lemon covered it well.
10:40pm: Finally finished the glass. I felt a little bit different, but the feeling was hard to characterize or distinguish from the remnants of the marijuana I'd smoked earlier in the day. I decided to smoke more pot to potentiate the high, but then I just felt stoned, so I poured more water into the seed bottle to make another batch. I got a phone call while I was shaking it, so I ended up just letting it sit around for about 30min with hardly any shaking to avoid making suspicious noise on the phone.
11:30pm: Started drinking the second batch, slowly. This one tasted worse than the first one - maybe it was more potent?
12am: i definitely feel something now, but it's not the warm fuzzy euphoria I was expecting (based on others' reports and extrapolations from my smoked opium experiences). My body felt strange and a little bit tingly, and I was finding it hard to concentrate on the webdesign work I'd planned to complete that night. I quickly downed the rest of the second cup of tea, figuring that I was starting to come up and that a little more might push me over the edge into a full-on high. I also ate a shitload of green tea ice cream because I had the munchies from the pot I'd smoked.
1am: my inability to concentrate intensifies. It doesn't feel like the distractability of amphetamines; instead, it reminds me of trying to complete a reading assignment for school while extremely tired. My eyes won't stay focused on anything (this reminds me of high-dose GHB) and i feel dazed and out of it, stupefied, like I'm having trouble holding onto coherent consciousness. Music sounded uninteresting and I didn't even really notice when I reached the end of my playlist. I felt 'fucked up' in a very generic and unpleasant way. I hoped my housemate didn't come home 'cause I didn't feel like I could interact with him well. I checked my pupils - they weren't pinpoints or anything, but were excessively constricted given the darkness of the room.
2am: I decide that I need to get up and move around to dredge myself out of my stupor, so attempt to work on a sewing project. As I got up, I suddenly got hit with a wave of nausea and ran to the bathroom and puked. I smoked more pot in an attempt to curb further nausea.
3am: Work on sewing for a bit. I felt less stupefied, but still not great - I feel like I'm a robot mechanically performing various tasks without active enjoyment. Still kind of numb and disconnected, but music starts to get a little more interesting...
3:45am: Sewing machine was fucking up, so I decided to go to bed. Unfortunately, I got nauseous again and tried to puke, but only dry heaved.
4am: I put on some minimalist electronic music and decided to do some nitrous before passing out. I did a single cartridge first and had a very cool nitrous trip - I felt more lucid and more physically grounded than normal (kind of like doing nitrous while on MDMA), a warm fuzzy euphoric buzz spread through my body, and I was able to analyze the thought-chain that unfolded for me with unusual clarity during the high.
I'd planned to do a double balloon after that, but I felt so sleepy and fuzzy that I just passed out instead.
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So I'm confused. I always figured that I'd like opiates if I could just get a high enough dose, but this time I dosed enough to make me puke and still didn't have much fun. I was numb, but not in a comfortable way. Only when I did the nitrous did I feel like I was in a state anything like the states that others seem to attain with opiates. Hmm...
I've heard that puking is fairly common and that some people don't enjoy their first experiences for that reason, but is it common to just feel deadened, blank, and unpleasantly dazed without a trace of euphoria?
I'm starting to think that I should just give up on opiates, that they aren't well-suited for me...but if any seasoned users have any advice about what I should've done differently (or have had similar early experiences and still gone on to love them), please let me know.
Thanks for reading.
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