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pontifex01

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Hi everyone,
I'm Ponti's wife - not sure this is the right place for this thread, just wanted to let anybody who cared know that he died about two weeks ago.
He committed suicide by taking a GHB overdose and left a suicide note next to his dead body.
I'm trying to cope with it, thinking that he's with FlippingTop now, whom he always missed so much.
 
Strange to see that name on screen again. :|

Can't imagine how you're feeling right now but thank you for recognising the fact that Tom meant a lot to EADD. Beyond that, I don't know what to say except look after yourself.
 
Oh, ok - didn't knwo that.
Who's sundayraver?
Yep, I'm not doing too well - doing quite a bit of H and when wds are going to hit it's going to be fucking terrible.
I just wish I could see him again.
Sorry dor posting this shit here, you're probably the only ones who truly understand.
 
Be careful with the H please. He'd be the first person to tell you that. Though I can understand why you might feel the need for something just now.
 
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Oh, ok - didn't knwo that.
Who's sundayraver?
Yep, I'm not doing too well - doing quite a bit of H and when wds are going to hit it's going to be fucking terrible.
I just wish I could see him again.
Sorry dor posting this shit here, you're probably the only ones who truly understand.
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PLEASE use this place to post about whatever you need to, that's what EADD is here for. Really dont feel bad for doing that. Ponti had a few close friends here, I'm sure one of them will probably PM you when they see this. He was close to some really cool folks here, all of whom are feeling the loss too. I'm sure they'll be pleased to talk with you in private as well, so you can discuss certain details you might not want to share here.
 
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PLEASE use this place to post about whatever you need to, that's what EADD is here for. Really dont feel bad for doing that. Ponti had a few close friends here, I'm sure one of them will probably PM you when they see this. He was close to some really cool folks here, all of whom are feeling the lose too. I'm sure they'll be pleased to talk with you in private as well, so you can discuss certain details you might not want to share here.
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Thanks Marmalade, it would be nice to have a chat to some of his close BLers.
This feel kind of like going back to him as he used to use BL so much.
Sammy, you're right, but feeling like shit atm, some days are up and others are really down. Like today.
Need it atm, and I know he'd tell me not to.
I do blame myself sometimes, I think it's inevitable and I always wonder how it must have felt to die from a G overdose.
Does anybody here know? Is it a peaceful death?
 
lol... Was it just me that momentarily thought Ponti had returned and created the thread?...
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Condolences to Ponti's wife however, I can't imagine the thoughts going through her head...
 
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Ponti's wife - Though I only knew him on here he was a nice guy, my best wishes to you. The Gear aint going to help you though but I can fully understand why you may feel the need to do it atm.
 
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Thanks for posting here. There's a ton of support, if you need it, so feel free to stick around. Ponti was loved by many, and we're gutted for you. Yes, a GHB overdose would have been the most pleasant way to go. Just sleep... Did he have alcohol with it? It's hard to OD on GHB alone, unless you take extremely large doses.

I'm so sorry for your loss, he was a decent guy. :)
 
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I do blame myself sometimes, I think it's inevitable and I always wonder how it must have felt to die from a G overdose.
Does anybody here know? Is it a peaceful death?
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Obviously I have never died from a GBL overdose but I have (ab)used GBL for many years and can tell you that he would have simply fallen asleep feeling great and never woken up. He would've felt no pain. No fear. Just drifted off to parts unknown. There aren't many ways to go that are actively enjoyable, pleasing, relaxing and peaceful but that is how he would have felt as he drifted from this plain.

I am so sorry for your loss. He was a fine man. He was much loved and greatly appreciated by a great many. Stay strong and know that Tom is deeply missed <3
 
Thanks for coming in, that's really brave of you. Please, use some of your strength to fight that stuff! We're losing too many people to it :(
 
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