The things I do do not affect you,
I keep "the bad stuff" away from my family.
You think these things distract me from what I need to do for the you.
You say I spend all my money poisoning myself.
What you fail to realize is that, while, yes, I do decided to "poison myself" I take half my paycheck and spend it on providing for a house that poisons me. You don't see it that way, but this house is what changed me.
The constant war being waged, the silence at the dinner table, the hostility... All of which are more poison to me than the things I do to myself.
I hope that some day soon you will realize that I do care about everyone in this family. Even when they decide to leave for months at a time.
I still care. But there's no love here. So I find love through other methods.
The drugs take their toll, yes.
But in the end, it is you that will be my downfall.
-Stephen
I keep "the bad stuff" away from my family.
You think these things distract me from what I need to do for the you.
You say I spend all my money poisoning myself.
What you fail to realize is that, while, yes, I do decided to "poison myself" I take half my paycheck and spend it on providing for a house that poisons me. You don't see it that way, but this house is what changed me.
The constant war being waged, the silence at the dinner table, the hostility... All of which are more poison to me than the things I do to myself.
I hope that some day soon you will realize that I do care about everyone in this family. Even when they decide to leave for months at a time.
I still care. But there's no love here. So I find love through other methods.
The drugs take their toll, yes.
But in the end, it is you that will be my downfall.
-Stephen