Dj ScAtTeRfAcE
Bluelighter
Nothing but a hum and I
Sitting here, just the hum and I
Searching for a solid answer to your why?
Because in my head I don’t fully know
And in my heart I never really let go
Confusion and intuition is what got me here
Just the hum and I, with nothing totally clear.
I know you think that it was nothing but fear
But there was a lot telling me that I had to be here
I can vision the good that can come from this
But I’m riding a long roller coaster into this bliss
For reason and love will never find their peace
And from this struggle will come defeat
It hurts but I think love will be the one to go
At least for now it has to, this I do know
For it is not fair to just let it stay
While in my head the demons continue to play
It’s so hard because only once I was left with this hum
Did our love become clear, as if lit from the sun
Just realising how much you did hold me up
So desperately wanting your genuine touch
A touch that I was becoming numb to before
Because in my head I was longing for more
A place where I could simply get back to me
To find clarity and become who I wanted to be
So hard to keep pushing this love away
Hoping foolishly that it might work on a further day
I need this, I do, I really need this to grow
But the tear in my eyes assures you, I don’t really know
I’m sorry but this is also what I want to do
But still you convince me that I don’t have a clue
So I push you away, refusing to say yes
For I will never do so, with my head such a mess.
Sitting here, just the hum and I
Searching for a solid answer to your why?
Because in my head I don’t fully know
And in my heart I never really let go
Confusion and intuition is what got me here
Just the hum and I, with nothing totally clear.
I know you think that it was nothing but fear
But there was a lot telling me that I had to be here
I can vision the good that can come from this
But I’m riding a long roller coaster into this bliss
For reason and love will never find their peace
And from this struggle will come defeat
It hurts but I think love will be the one to go
At least for now it has to, this I do know
For it is not fair to just let it stay
While in my head the demons continue to play
It’s so hard because only once I was left with this hum
Did our love become clear, as if lit from the sun
Just realising how much you did hold me up
So desperately wanting your genuine touch
A touch that I was becoming numb to before
Because in my head I was longing for more
A place where I could simply get back to me
To find clarity and become who I wanted to be
So hard to keep pushing this love away
Hoping foolishly that it might work on a further day
I need this, I do, I really need this to grow
But the tear in my eyes assures you, I don’t really know
I’m sorry but this is also what I want to do
But still you convince me that I don’t have a clue
So I push you away, refusing to say yes
For I will never do so, with my head such a mess.
